Saturday, February 24, 2018

Bringing them 'home'

I think most of us had the same reaction to the shootings on Valentine's Day... Sadness for what the children went through. Sadness for the families who lost their little ones. Profound sadness, when we looked into the eyes of the young man who held the gun. My soul cried in anguish most of all for that one. He was completely lost.

The angels said the strangest thing to me after that. They told me to go look at a picture of Hitler. He too had the same vacant, scared, angry look. It chilled me. I suddenly started hearing more. The kid who did the shooting, was a young German soldier in a past life during the holocaust. He joined the army because that's what young men did at the time. The atrocities he was required to commit sickened him to the point where he started to think of himself as a monster. He became calloused because it hurt too much to feel, and he died a lost, angry soul.

The angels say, even in that terrifying life he had choice. He could have run away, and risked his own death, but at least he would have had the integrity to find the light. He could have even found peace by silently praying for those he was force to kill. Instead he closed his heart, and dimmed the spark of love so deeply he forgot he had any love inside of him at all.

He didn't believe in a God. He didn't believe in love. He didn't feel worthy of the light and he didn't go into it. He was lost in the "in between." These souls remain lost until the prayers of the compassionate uplift them. They can be reborn but that is a sad proposition because they carry their mental anguish with them right into the next life. Angels attempt to get their attention but they don't believe themselves worthy of love and so they don't see it.

Such was the case with this young man. He came back as a very conflicted soul, feeling a mix of old prejudices, anger at life's "unfairness," and self-loathing. The conflict ripped him apart. Tragically, in his soul's state of wounded torment, he took out his pain and anger on the innocent. He needs our prayers. The lost ones, both living and dead, need our prayers.

I have helped many of these lost souls into the light. Perhaps the most striking incident was yeas ago. I was meditating on the patio at lunchtime. The past few days I’d been bothered by a fearful energy that I had not managed to release. I finally figured out it was a lost soul clinging to me. I tried everything – sending love, sending it into the light, calling Jesus, Michael, etc… Finally I just surrendered and asked God to help.

As I was meditating, rather than pushing the fearful soul away, I simply said, “OK, whoever you are sit at the table with me and let me know how I can help you. Welcome.” A sudden vivid vision of a hooded, cloaked young man, a terrorist who had died, appeared. He was terrified. "I thought I did the right thing. My mother will be so ashamed of me. I don't know where to go. I don't know what to do." I could feel his panic. “I’ll help you personally and take you into the light. Your mother loves you. She will be relieved to know you are with God.” I brought him to the light and surrendered him to the angels who lovingly took him into the healing love of the Divine. Immediately I felt relief in my body and warmth.

Suddenly I heard a voice and saw the vision of this young man again, this time in the light. “Do you know who I am?” a voice that didn’t sound as if it was his gently asked. “No,” I replied. He took the black wrap off his head and Jesus was there looking at me with piercing beautiful eyes and at the same time a loud but kind voice boomed in my head, “Whatsoever you do unto the least of my brothers, you do unto ME.” I started bawling.

I know I helped a different soul into the light. Jesus was making the point, that we are all one, all souls are pure at heart, no matter how deep the misunderstandings. Rather than fearing one another, we should help one another, pray for one another, and ask God to take all hurting souls into the light. Of course, we must take care of ourselves. Had this one been alive, I would have sent love and run!

So today more than ever, let us pray for those who are most separate from the truth of their being. For the politicians who feel that power makes them God. For the terrorists who feel that weapons make them God. For the lost and lonely who don’t believe there is a God and take out their rage on the innocent.

Let us all pray that all sous, ourselves included be lifted up into the light of love and truth - that we can never be separate from the Source of our being, that we can never, no matter how heinous the actions, be anything less at our core essence, than who the creator made us to be.

Here are some tips to deal with the violence and pain we witness in the world...

1. Allow yourself your feelings

Never ever, stuff your feelings. Don't take them out on another. Write letters to God or your angels sharing your heart. Write letters to the souls of those you are upset with, in private. Shred them. Don't pass on the poison. Find a constructive way to work out the upset or pain within yourself first. Then you can speak from a powerfully loving place if you are guided to say anything at all.

2. Do what you are called to do

Many are speaking up after the shootings, as they are guided. You may be guided to send money after a disaster, to physically assist, to help change legislation, or perhaps to work interally to change the vibrations that cause violence, starting within yourself. Only you know your own guidance. Trust the urges that rise up lovingly, with passion, within you.

3. Pray for the upliftment of all who are lost in anger and pain

The ones we are most inclined to think unworthy of love are the ones who need our prayers the most. You will feel your heart and your soul more clearly than ever before when praying sincerely for those hurting souls lost in darkness. I have never known myself so clearly as when I've prayed sincerely for those who hurt and hate me. It is in our great light and love that we feel the deepest truth of our being.

You can love the light within a soul, without ever liking their personality or behavior.

The world is a one room school house. We must seek out the best of human nature, but sometimes we can't help witnessing the worst.
We can however, instead of dancing with darkness and dignifying it by falling into it ourselves, be a powerful force of love and truth. We can be the ones who lift the lost into the light.

Saturday, February 17, 2018

Direct it, expect it

I hear this all the time in my office. "I DO focus on what I want! I have for years! Why isn't it here? Where are my angels?" The angels patiently smile and remind the person that, hand in hand with focusing on what they do want, they have also been focused on it "not being there."

This is a finer point to manifesting that even trips me up at times!  
The trick to creating is to have two worlds going on at once. One is the world you live in every day - the so-called "real" world. Fill yourself up with gratitude for everything you have now. Pour love into every aspect of your current life. Bless the Mess and trust the rest!

Then there is the life of creation. You are living your "real" life now but in your mind you are also in parallel, living your future. You already feel the way you feel when it arrives. You kmow it is going to happen. You have a joyous sense of anticipation. Like a child at Christmas anticipating their presents, you know your creation will come even if you have no clue how or when.

A few weeks ago I decided I wanted to replace a few drinking glasses that had broken. They were inexpensive when I got them, but to my dismay they were no longer being produced. I went on ebay and found a set for $80. That wasn't what I wanted to pay.

So as the angels say, I "grabbed the remote!" I decided I wanted to get them at a thrift store. I imagined the joyous feeling of finding them on sale. I got all happy as if it was a "done deal" in the future. This didn't happen because I can predict the future (which I see often as the most probable path) but rather because I knew I was creating. 

I woke up the next morning with a certain thrift store in my head, went on faith, and picked up my glasses! There were exactly four and they were $1.29 each!! The funny part is that I found only two originally, but I was so convinced the rest would be there that I kept circling around different sections and shelves until I found the rest!

On a more serious note I've been in physical pain on and off for a few months. I hiked 20 miles last fall after sitting all summer and sprained a foot. I had a broken toe on the other one over the holidays (all healed!). I have had pinched nerves in my neck after painting my bathrooms three times each in December. I was healing all of these, but slowly. Sometimes, when I focused on other things, I had no pain. When I focused on the problem, of course I felt the problem. The angels continuously reminded me that my focus was the problem that was slowing the healing.

So at the event I advertised last week, THEO (a group of angels that speaks through channel, Sheila Gillette) came through and suggested we all just make a decision right then and there about what we wanted. By the way, I LOVED THEO!!! Their energy is fantastic, honest, accurate and deeply compassionate. Many people I know received love and healing energy. They are having an online mentoring program beginning 2/20 that promises to be life altering, which you can check out here.

Back to my story. I made a decision at that moment that I would walk out of that room pain free - no sprain, no pinched neck, nothing. That was that. I was done focusing on the pain and holding it in my body. I used every ounce of willpower to imagine feeling great. Of course, within minutes, the energy of God that is already and always there, flooded me and the pain was gone. And to make it even better THEO talked to me about my sensitivity and repeated a few things my own angels have been telling me! It was BLISS.

The pain tried to sneak in a few days later and that is where faith and focus come in. I told it quite firmly but kindly. "I'm done. I've decided to feel good now." I "grabbed the remote" and focused on feeling good. In an instant the heat and love of God flowed through me and no more pain.

I think a lot of us feel like we're having a tug of war with the "remote" in our heads at times, but hopefully your conscious self is winning!

Here are some pointers this week to "grab the remote" and choose the life you want to live!

1. Direct it
Remind yourself, life does not work the way most of us were taught.

We don't need effort and struggle to have results. Healing doesn't have to take forever. Abundance is not directly proportional to hours worked. You can't save or fix or change another unless they want it. You don't have to earn love.

Instead the universe responds to vibration. Remind yourself, "My life can start to change now, because I can change my energy now." Begin to do this by asking yourself, "How would it feel to have what I want, right here, right now."

Grab the remote and direct the energy with your focus, feeling, and faith.

2. Expect it

Now that you know how the universe works, know that the minute you focus on a loving feeling, the universe starts to match that energy. Now is the time for faith.

Expect that what you want to appear (or better) will come. Anticipate it. Trust it. Live your life relaxing into the knowing that you have "grabbed the remote" and the universe will deliver.

Don't keep checking in. "Is it here? Did the universe hear me? Does God care?"

The question is, "Did you hear you? Do you care enough to maintain the feeling with faith? Are you willing to focus on what you want more than what you don't?" Your energy is what matters. Anticipate joyfully. You are in charge. God gave us the incredible gift of free will to direct the creative forces of the universe through our faith, focus, and feeling.

You'll know you're manifesting when you don't have to wonder if what you want is coming.
 You'll live your life in joyful anticipation, relaxing into the "now "because you know what you're creating in the future.

3. Allow for it

Manifesting makes us grow. We must throw away our notions of a capricious, external God that "grants wishes if we're worthy" and realize that we are simply interacting with the Love that lives inside of all creation.
In doing so we bump up against all those parts inside of ourselves that still hold onto notions of unworthiness, anger, abandonment, forgiveness, you name it.

If you feel blocked, get in touch with the "inner committee" as my angels like to call it. Shut your eyes and ask, "Who inside of me doesn't feel they deserve this creation?" Wait till you see, feel, or imagine something - a part of yourself. Then say to that part. "I love you. I'm creating this. Would you like to enjoy it with me? If not I have to ask you to allow me to enjoy it." You get the idea.

Find those pieces of your soul that don't believe or resist love. This is the healing we came for. Manifesting is a fun way to trigger it! 

Have fun this week "Grabbing the Remote!" After all, none of us really want others or the world to choose the reality we get to experience... unless of course, they're choosing something really great!

Love you all! 

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Getting past cranky...

I knew when I started getting cranky last year that something big was going on. It amuses me really because it is not a typical feeling anymore.I watched myself in a bemused way much as I'd watch a cute tantrum throwing two year old. I got cranky with people who were rude in traffic. I got cranky when people who didn't want to embrace their own growth negatively affected my life. I got cranky with people from my past that I thought I had forgiven. On the surface I was polite, but inwardly I was all stirred up. This was interesting!

I chatted with the angels and they reassured me that it was just a strong energy moving through all of us, pushing us to be more honest with ourselves. So I dug deep and got more honest. I really wanted to be loving rather than sucked into the world's way of dealing with things.  I started to love what I couldn't change and lovingly move away from what I could. I sent huge waves of peace to unpleasant drivers. I set strong intentions to attract only people whom I could truly serve. I went back and asked for people who hadn't done what they promised to follow through or come up with new agreements. I set time aside for my own well being again and re-prioritized self care. Of course the anger melted away. I was taking care of myself, being my loving self, and choosing to love myself again. 

That's when the magic started to happen. I started to hear the angels in my life, for myself, in a much stronger way. I started to hear all of life talking to me much more strongly than ever before. I lost a quilting pattern the other day and telepathically asked it where it was, "On the second shelf to the right in the craft closet" it answered. Sure enough, there it was. I asked a thimble I lost where it was. (I finally took time to quilt while hollering "Go! Go! Go! at the TV during the super bowl!) The thimble spoke in my mind. "Near the sink." Sure enough. 

A week prior, I had the strong urge to get up insanely early, drive up north and watch the eclipse. "Am I safe?" I asked Archangel Michael. "In typical angel fashion he sent me to the mirror to look into my own eyes. "Are you?" he asked. "Yes!!! I create that!" I responded. "OK then, let's go." I hopped in the car at 4am and got to the overlook an hour later just as the earth was starting to slip in between the sun and moon. Bundled in layers of winter clothing and blankets, I sat on a lawn chair feeling heaven, earth, sun, moon, cold, and warm seek their balance within and without.

As a side note, I was joined by a delightful woman who loved the sky as much as I did. My camera battery died, even though I had fully charged it, so she let me look through her incredible binoculars. The moon looked big as a tennis ball and magically tinted red, surrounded by stars against the backdrop of the pre-dawn indigo sky. It was breathtaking! (The photo above was from another eclipse, but looks a lot like this recent one.)

We started talking and soon I was chatting with her relatives in heaven, and she was promising to send me some of her beautiful photos. When I got home my camera battery mysteriously started working! It was yet one more event, in a series of delightfully orchestrated dances that have been going on in my life as of late.

So if you're still going through the cranky or intolerant phase of this cycle of growth, take heart! You're not a bad person. You're not going backwards. You're just diving deeper, scrubbing out the things you thought you had to be so you can turn into the soul you really are. And that, ultimately, is a blessing and a joy!

Here are some pointers this week to deal with cranky, intolerant energy if/when it rises up within you!

1. Be kind to yourself. Rather than judging yourself, observe yourself.
Say to yourself, "Well, there I go being cranky. That's interesting!" If you simply observe yourself, you'll have less need to justify, defend, or point fingers at anyone else. Watch yourself, as you would watch a passing storm.

When you don't judge yourself, it frees you up to see what is really going on inside of you.

2. Ask the anger for its message

Say to yourself, "OK Anger, OK Upset, OK Frustration... what are you trying to bring to my attention here?" It always has a message. It may tell you that you want to be treated more kindly, hence you have to treat yourself more kindly. It may tell you that a relationship or situation is no longer authentic and you need to make some changes.

It may tell you that you are not a victim and it is time to intend and focus upon creating a kinder reality. It may tell you that you really don't want to let anyone's behavior sway you from a loving reality and these folks you call "morons" or "crazy" are just your personal trainers, poking at you to help you grow stronger in your ability to love. Never mind their dysfunction or issues, somehow you've allowed them into your life and on your path for a reason. Your soul wants to grow.

If you ask your upsets for their messages, you take back your power to create... and the anger dissipates. We use anger when we feel helpless or victimized. We feel mighty in the face of injustice or unkindness when we embrace our loving power to create.

We set healthy boundaries. We speak honestly and lovingly.  Our energy no longer permits the un-evolved to weaken our ability to love and create.

3. Listen to your heart

We say this nearly every week. If you honor your heart, which always wants to be loving to yourself and others deep down, you can say even the hardest things with kindness. You can move away from what hurts if only through your intention for now. You can do small things to make yourself happy and in so doing open the door for larger things to be attracted into your life.

Your upsets remind you that you don't like to imagine yourself small. They remind you that there is more power inside of you.

Embrace the power, listen to the heart, and love will be the new power that moves you.

Be kind to yourself! It is strong energy and it is dredging us all. Past lives are moving out. Our childhood upsets are moving out. Our truth is flooding in! And this may mean a few upsets and changes occur, but in the end, it is all to guide you towards a blissfully honest reality of heaven on earth!

I love you all! Have a fantastic week... cranky or not :)

PS - If you need an extra dose of powerful loving energy, I'm gazing online next weekend – Sunday the 18th. Check out details below. It's free. No registration required.

Saturday, February 03, 2018

Learning from the water

As many of you know I was talking about flow over two decade ago, before flow was such a big thing in spiritual circles. I had been reading, "The Power of Now," in 1997 when I first thought to myself. "OK, I'm present, now what?! How do I focus on the present and still proceed towards my desired future?" It is question i've since been asked many times.

The angels didn't answer me outright. Instead they told me to follow my heart and I'd find the answers. I didn't realize they were giving me the answer! So I followed my heart right up to Sedona for a few days off. I followed my heart to park on the side of the road and walk down to a secluded spot by the creek. I followed my heart right to a big flat rock in the middle of the stream that fit my body perfectly – face in the sun and feet in the flowing water. I fell asleep.

When I woke up in a half dreamy space and realized where I was, a strange thing began to a happen. I felt the energy of the water moving through me. I became highly sensitized and started to hear the various "voices" within the stream. I heard the murmured whispers of the softly moving currents bubbling over stones, the passionate roar of water pouring over boulders, and the soft "ssssshhh" sound of water barely moving in the shallower areas. I heard and felt the joyous splashing, and was massaged by the sifted sounds of water moving swiftly through the reeds along the bank. It was all flowing water, but it had so many different voices. It was all one stream with many different personalities...

Then I started to watch the flow, mesmerized by the shapes that its everlasting movement formed – endless streams and currents of water that had no solidity, and yet appeared solid as the flow was shaped by the rocks and the banks of the stream.

The water began to teach me.

It spoke to me in my heart and feelings and showed me that I wasn't solid either. We are streams of love - with our lives and bodies shaped by our own self concepts, our focus and feeling. I started to see myself as a fluid stream of ever-changing energy rather than the solid being I once thought I was. I was a collection of self concepts shaping the eternal stream of God's love into an "Ann." It is hard to put into words.

"FEEL the voices of the stream." I heard the angels whisper. I noticed that when I focused on a gentle bubbling sound I felt fizzy and at peace. When I focused on the roar of water over the rocks, I felt energized and dynamic. When I focused on the barely perceptible movement in a quiet pool, I too went deep. I understood. When we focus on something, we experience more of the same. 

"What would happen if you flowed with any current you focused upon, right here, right now?" the angels asked. "I'd move with the flow," I answered. "Yes," they smiled. "And what would happen if you resisted the flow?" "I'd feel it push against me," I replied. I realized that If I chose a gentle flow it would be no big deal. If I chose a powerful and rapid flow, then it would push me over into its path if I tried to resist. (I experienced that years later while trying to stand still in a swiftly moving river that knocked me over! I ended up floating downstream rather than standing!)

The angels kept smiling. The water kept teaching me.

We choose a "flow" in life by focusing on what we desire. In much the same way a gentle current doesn't push us very hard at all, a weak desire doesn't yield guidance as powerfully as a strong one. Conversely, a strong feeling of joy, faith, and passion for something in our lives puts does put us in a powerful flow. Things move quickly. We enjoy synchronicity. However if we doubt, suddenly we are standing in a powerful stream resisting it with disbelief and we notice that in a far more pronounced way as well. We may even, like me, get knocked down so we surrender to our own hearts once again.

It is both blissful and challenging to want something badly because you can enjoy the peak of knowing God's creative force if you have faith that goes with the feeling, but you can also feel the discomfort of standing in resistance to that very force if you have fear and doubt.

We can much more easily feel spiritual attainment and contentment when we want nothing. How much more exhilarating it is to set the forces of creation in motion with desire, jump in the river of Love, and go for a ride!

Here are some pointers this week to help you enjoy a graceful ride in the streams of grace!

1. Remember you can choose the current that will carry you

Take time to search your heart and focus on what you want. Perhaps you are in a dormant time and you're satisfied and happy. This can be a very gentle time. Don't fight it. Enjoy routine, cocooning, and rest.

Perhaps you do have strong desires. Align with them. Focus on what it would feel like to have them. We've been speaking about this a lot lately because the energy is so strong, that we are in swiftly moving currents. Make use of this energy by being honest and admitting your hearts desires to yourself.

2. Remember you can change any time.

Sometimes you think you want something. You get it, or you learn what you'll have to change to get it, and you realize you don't want it after all. Not a problem. The minute you change your desires the universe changes with you.

I often talk to people that say they want a relationship but as we dig further, they say,"Well, sometimes I do, but sometimes I don't..." They keep redirecting the stream.

When you can remain consistent in you desires you will be guided towards them. Any time you like, you can redirect the flow.

3. Keep your energy aligned with your desires

To stay in the streams of grace that you set in motion, you must continue to use the power of faith, focus, and feeling. Have the faith that you have the creative force of the universe behind you. Remind yourself often.

Focus on what you want rather than what you fear. If you fall into fear, refocus.

Feel the desired outcome. Take time as we mentioned last week to ask, "What would it feel like to have what I want." Spend a minute or two a day fantasizing the feelings. This tunes your energy field into the desired outcome.

The energy is SO strong lately. It is propelling us more quickly towards what we want and thus also making us feel our own resistance more acutely. If you find yourself in doubt, fear, or other forms of resistance, just go back to step 3 and re-align yourself.

The angels remind me constantly that we can create "man's way" and do more work in our outer world, or we can create "God's way" and do more work between the ears :) I personally think God's way is a lot more fun!