Saturday, October 14, 2017

Remodeling in the flow

I never thought I'd find myself standing on the bathroom vanity wearing hiking boots, old jeans, a purple winter jacket, and heavy work gloves.The vanity was thoroughly padded per the instructions of my deceased Grandpa who, along with Jesus (my other favorite carpenter in heaven) was instructing me on how to remove two very large mirrors... I hadn't planned to do that at 9pm after work one night, but the urge hit strongly.

First a little back story - Three weeks ago I taught my signature class, Love is the River: Learning to Live in the Flow of Divine Grace. I was deeply grateful for the opportunity to share an entirely different way of life than the one we were taught to embrace – a way of life that involves being present, surrendering to one's heart in the moment, and trusting in the flow of life that you set in motion through your wishes and desires.

So when it came time, after ten years to do some work on the bathrooms I decided humorously that I was going to "remodel in the flow of grace!" No drama. No schedules. No pretending I was in control! I envisioned it unfolding easily, gave up my need to know how it was all going to work, and simply started doing what felt right when it did.

A few days prior to my adventure, I got the urge to stop in the cabinet shop. Good thing! It ends up they were planning to deliver new cabinets within a week and hadn't told me. I had to get the old ones taken out or reschedule till after Thanksgiving. That didn't feel right, so I called my dear contractors who agreed to come by if they could manage to get an hour free. I was amazed that they considered it, given their schedule.

I kept the delivery dated and gave the problem to God... hence the guidance to remove mirrors a few nights later. So there I was, a 5'2" female standing on counters that Grandpa had instructed me to pad well, dressed in hiking boots, jeans, and a winter coat for padding, taping, decaulking, and removing two 42" x 72" mirrors, with step by step instructions from heaven!

Somehow I managed. Gingerly, I scooted them onto two step ladders that Grandpa told me to place strategically and then managed to lift them to safety. (I looked like an ant carrying a leaf!) Next, Grandpa told me to rip out the caulk around the cabinets. The rest was beyond me, so I waited and trusted...

Sure enough the next day the contractors called. They had a little time to spare. Pleasantly surprised that the cabinets and plumbing behind them were all that was left, the job was quickly done... just in time for my new delivery!

I could go on and on with stories about how the timing of everything has been insanely perfect as I continue to just do what feels right when it does. In between all this, I've gone out of town one weekend, am spending a week with family, had out of town company, and am working full time! I'm doing my fall hikes, cooking, and living pretty much normally in spite of the mess. I still plan on cooking for my company for Thanksgiving whether or not the job is done.

Even things that are usually hard and complicated don't have to be. In fact, life flows gracefully when we don't try to control it so tightly but rather work on controlling our thoughts, focusing on the positive desires, trusting and enjoying the journey!

Can you imagine if we had to figure out how to run the universe? Thank God, we don't!

We don't have to figure out how to run our lives either. We just have to stay focused and faithful, and act when guided...
 

Here are a few more words on how to do just that:

1. Stay focused

If you want something you want it. Focus on it a few minutes a day. See it. Feel it. Anticipate it is coming even if you don't have a clue how. Don't talk yourself out of your dreams. Focus and know, they're coming – not because you have proof but because you know how the universe works.

2. Stay faithful

It is human to doubt what we cannot yet see. However, as you know, faith is believing in things unseen. While doubts will almost certainly sprout up, and try to talk you out of your own dreams, you can talk back.

I tell my doubts, "Sorry! I'm creating! When I don't know how, God does."

3. Act when guided

If you find yourself agonizing over what to do next, how to solve a problem or create a dream, stop. Ask yourself only one question, "What do I feel like doing now?" Do it if you can. OR alternately you can ask your angels, "What do I do next?" If you feel/hear nothing, there's nothing to do now. It really is that simple. Enjoy the adventure of life.
 

The angels once said, "Ann, we want to pour oceans of love into your lives. Your hands are on the faucet! Will you allow a trickle, or rivers of grace?" Let the universe do its job by trusting, acting when inspired, and knowing you will get where you want to go.

Love you all!
Ann

Saturday, October 07, 2017

Trust your feelings

The earthquakes, hurricanes, and floods don't surprise me. Neither do the volcanoes. I feel these things in my body and soul as emotional energies, usually a few weeks in advance, and I see the waves of people feeling them as well. The world is shaken, stirred, and now blowing up in various ways. Even Mother Earth is venting to release the pressure.

My in-box is full of emotional storms. I wake up to emails talking about death, bleeding hearts, hatred, unforgiveness, suicide, and despair, all from dear souls who are simply going through some very tough times. My heart goes to each and every one. I do my best to be compassionate and share the wisdom I’ve been given.

I have to be careful however, to maintain my own joy, or I start getting sucked into the pain. In that space, I’m of no use to anyone. If I see the world as broken, I support its brokenness. If however, I can simultaneously witness the pain with compassion while focusing on the the ever-present perfection trying to emerge, then I can truly help to elevate souls.

So when I started getting cranky last week, and seeing “stories” rather than “souls,” I knew it was time for some time alone. It is a rare thing when I don’t want to serve, but last week all I wanted to do was run away from the world’s pain. So I did. I know better than to ignore my own heart. I turned off my emails and headed for the hills.

On a beautiful, crisp, blue-skied, sunny Sunday I loaded up the car and hit the open road. The farther I drove, the clearer I felt. I had no commitments, and no schedule. Windows unrolled, hair waving in the wind, country music blasting on the radio, it was just me, God, and the angels. I felt like I could breathe again.

I parked, tossed the camera in the backpack and wandered into the forest in silence. There in nature’s cathedral, among towering aspens and ancient pines, with grasses up to my knees and ferns up to my waist, I reconnected with my own soul. Using my backpack as a pillow, I laid down on a massive boulder surrounded by ferns and trees reaching skyward. Their leaves fluttered. Their trunks bent and swayed in the wind. Sunlight dappled warm shine on my face while chilly breezes danced across my skin.

In the ever present now, I drifted into sweet slumber to the sound of chirping birds, ravens crying overhead, and the roaring whoosh of wind through the trees. The last thing I remember is the smell of baked grasses and Christmasy pine…

Some time later, I awakened to the plunk, plunk, plunk of golden aspen leaves raining down upon me. It was a long time before I could move. I had melted into all-that-is. I felt invigorated, inspired, and deeply passionately in love with life… just in time to come back and help people deal with death, divorce, suicide, the horrific massacre in Las Vegas, and the volcanic emotions arising within so many that mirror Mother earth’s current venting.

It is only in being present to, and honoring our feelings that we can return to joy. It is only in our joy that we can truly be the light and beacon of hope that this world requires. 

Here are a few pointers to help you weather the torrents of emotion that might be rising up from within:

1. Honor your feelings... All of them

The angels can’t stress this enough. Every feeling is coming from Love that wants to rise up within you. Like a volcano however, if the emotional pressure builds up for two long, we are likely to erupt at some point in time.

If you are angry, ask yourself, “How can I better care for myself? What do I need to change? How can I be part of the solution?” The answer might be as simple as getting enough rest, exercise, and good food. The answer might be the need to change an attitude. The answer might be suggesting you get to work helping others. If you’re sad, ask, “How can I comfort myself in a healthy way? How can I create change?” Remain open. Trust the answer.

Listen to your feelings. Don’t run from them. They have valuable messages for you.

2. Don’t judge yourself

It is so easy, as spiritual people, to judge ourselves when we’re not in a great space. Instead, relax. Be compassionate with yourself. You’re human. Rather than wasting time judging, just tell yourself, 

I’m sad/angry/jealous… and that is OK.
Let’s see what this feeling is attempting to say
.

The minute you own the e-motion, you allow it to be in-motion and it starts to move through you.

3. Remember, honoring your feelings makes you a contribution

Because I had taken care of myself this weekend, when I heard of the horrific shootings in Las Vegas, I was able to bear witness to the pain without being engulfed by it. I was able to immediately go into Silent Presence, pray, and send love. Had I not honored my feelings I would have fallen into the world’s despair and been useless.

Instead, I know the deceased are celebrating their homecoming in heaven, knowing a deeper love than we can ever imagine and wishing that for us. The murderer is lost in darkness, being watched by angels who are waiting for him to find the light so they can cast out his demons of despair. The countless souls who remain in grief and pain are lovingly tended by angels and, if willing, are going to see immense growth and change in their lives. You never value life so dearly as when you know you might not have it. I know that from personal experience.

As I stumbled on a website littered with sad and disturbing photos, I was also brought to tears by the best in humanity – a man who literally laid down his life to save his wife, and many others who willingly jumped to cover those closest to them. The Christ showed up in human hearts in the midst of such tragedy. The love is there even in the darkness. I could never have held this focus had I not honored my feelings this weekend.

When you listen to the love beneath your feelings, you are more able to see and share love with the world. 

This week, love yourself through your own pains, fears, tears, anger, sadness, and any other state that feels less than loving.  Always and forever, Love is trying to surface.

Love you all!
Ann

PS - My friend Summer Bacon who channels a dear angel emailed this free channeling about the senseless acts we witness, just as I was finishing up my newsletter. Listen here.