Saturday, July 29, 2017

You're already there

September 3, 1993 my entire life changed. I had a dream a month before that I was spiraling up a mountain on a dirt road with my husband at the time. I left him to wander into a jungle to the interior of the mountain. In the dense foliage I met a tiny woman who asked me one question, "Are you willing to give up life as you know it?" I must have said yes. I awakened to find exactly three rose petals under my tail bone. The rose wreath was on a far wall. There was not breeze, no fan, no nothing. I still have those petals.

That was the day I went to the mailbox and received a brochure for a conference featuring alternative healers, shamans, and therapists. It was sponsored by an organization that offered continuing education for therapists. I had not signed up for their mailing list. In fact, I didn't know any therapists. There was no earthly reason I received that brochure.

I became excited by the prospect of meeting people who did things I had only read about. Shamanism and energy work intrigued me.  I registered for the conference, eeling that my entire life was about to change.

It was there at the conference that I first felt energy. A woman put her hand on my shoulder and lightning went through me. Another woman, who became my first teacher, touched me and I shook for an hour. "Why am I shaking?" I asked. "Your entire life is about to change," she responded. I begged her to teach me, signed up for her class as soon as I could, and took more as soon as she would allow me. She paced me, made me learn patience, allowing, and surrender. She taught me that although we can force energy to move, it is far easier to allow it to flow through our experience. 

As the years went by I continued to practice surrender. As I surrendered to my heart, I gradually becoming reacquainted with my real self. I surrendered my life as I knew it. I learned to allow the energy to flow through me to benefit others. I learned to channel. Lately as I've learned to surrender to the gaze, I realize that the energy was there all along and I was only surrendering to the experience of it.

What we call "healing" is only a surrender to the wholeness that was already there. What we call "releasing" is only a surrender to the perfection. What we call "expanding" is really just expanding our awareness into the realities that are awaiting our exploration. 

Although I knew this, and have experienced the value of surrendering to the light for years, it has been a huge shift in my reality to experience it more deeply. There is nothing to become. There is nothing to strive for. There is only resistance to release, and a willingness to allow the joy, health, and happiness that is already there waiting, to become part of our conscious experience.

Here are a few pointers to help you surrender into a happier reality

1. Open the doorway of the heart on a daily basis
Do the meditation in the angel message above. In reality we are not opening something shut. We are opening our awareness, expanding our experience into a reality that is just there and waiting for us. We are "tuning" into a frequency of love that is already there. 

We use imagery and metaphor like doorways and opening because this is what our mind understands. However we are just really shifting our awareness to what is already there.

2. On a daily basis, take a few minutes to imagine you are "already there"

Have you ever seen those Russian dolls, where one fits inside the other, and another fits inside that one. If not Google them to get an image.  

Imagine the "you" that you know now is the outside doll. 

Just inside of that there is a whole, healed, healthy, happy, abundant you that has everything you want or need.  

Imagine what that the inner doll – expands to merge with the outer doll. The healthy you expands to merge with and inform the unwell you. The abundant you expands to merge with and inform the not so abundant you. The love and loving you expands to merge with and inform the you that feels unloved or unloving. The "you" that you want to be lives within. It is coming to the surface, 

We are not striving to become what we want. We are striving to bring who we want to be to the surface, so we can attract what we want externally.


3.Give thanks for what you have not yet experienced... but want to

Imagine you have what you want, or are who you want to be. Give thanks. Give thanks for your healed body if it is sick. Give thanks for your abundance even if it isn't here yet. Give thanks for healed relationships, and new abilities. Imagine your future self is giving thanks for what has already transpired. 

This will "tune" you into that experience and start to shift your energies into the experience you want.




We are like radios capable of tuning into any reality, experiencing what we tune into.
 The radio doesn't have to become anything. The stations are already broadcasting. Health, wholeness, love, anything exists as energy right now. The more we "tune" into it, no matter how we achieve that, the more we experience that reality. I'm having fun with this lately and love hearing how you are too!

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Easier classes

Sometimes, our toughest classes lead to our greatest joy... 

Learning to love someone who hated me and attacked me viscously in spirit the past few years strengthened my soul but it had weakened my body. I had twisted intestines, skin cancer, shingles, and a variety of other unpleasant reminders not to indulge in my own fears. One by one, these healed, but up until a few months ago I was still waking every morning up shaking in fear. The attacks stopped awhile ago but I was still having ptsd-like symptoms.

So, I'd wake up, breathe, do yoga and within a few minutes I had reclaimed peace and calm in the present moment. Nonetheless the constant adrenal stress got me. I decided to go on a mission to master my mind so I could reclaim the vibrant health I used to enjoy before I dove into the tougher lessons.

I give thanks often, but I started giving thanks for everything. I am almost always positive, but I made it a point to catch every negative thought and replace it with better ones. I started focusing relentlessly on my health! I felt fantastic! Celebrating life, joy, and victory I was feeling the best I've been in ages, radiantly healthy, joyful, in love with life and everyone in it, and manifesting like crazy... when I found a very hard lump the size of a golf ball in a place lumps should not be. 

This was my graduation.

I saw two possible futures – the one the world would dictate, and the one my soul knew was possible. I saw only one lesson no matter which "class" I chose – to eventually embrace the truth of my wholeness and well-being.

Class #1 involved embracing human belief systems, falling into fear, getting medical procedures, and "healing." Class #2 involved embracing higher truth and thinking no other thoughts than wholeness, acknowledging that we are as much energy as flesh and bone, and seeing only the "reality" that lies beneath all illusions. I chose class #2.

I chose to focus only on my whole and healed self. I chose to acknowledge higher truth – that this was old energy that was simply revealing itself because I was ready to handle it. I chose to believe it would be gone almost instantly. For once, I did not give in to fear at all. I knew I had trained my mind to focus on what I wanted and this was my golden opportunity to put it to work.

I knew (not wished, but knew) that I was made of light and already whole within. I knew my energy could shift and my body could shift in an instant. I've witnessed enough miracles. I knew this "lump" was just old sadness I had to "get off my chest." This was an old illusion I'd harbored for too long – one that said the masculine vibration didn't nurture the feminine. I had already changed those energies within me. Now the body had to follow. I just had to focus.

I pictured vibrant light emanating from me, and saw this lump of dense energy spiraling into wisps of smoke and dissolving from the surface of my skin. I went to bed knowing I would receive help in my sleep, thinking the humorous thought that if Jesus could resurrect an entire body in three days, certainly this mistaken energy could be out in that time!

I burnt like an furnace was inside of me, all night long. I kept waking up drenched in sweat. I felt prickly, staticy energy pouring out of me. The lump was nearly gone by morning. Through my dear friend Summer Bacon, at her open session the next day the angels confirmed I had indeed allowed for a "miracle." Three days later it was gone.

We get to choose our lessons with our focus. Focus on fear and that path is well-traveled in this world. Focus on bliss and although the road is sometimes unpaved, what a joy to travel that one! More and more I'm aware of the subtle resistances to joy and well being, and the ever increasing flood of desire for it. It is getting so much easier to acknowledge the joyful desires, and as a result the lessons are so much more joyful!

Here are a few pointers to help you release fear and resistance:

1. When you are afraid, admit it. Don't be ashamed of it. Ask humans or heaven for help.

There's a tendency in spiritual crowds to be ashamed of fear. When we look at it rationally, most of the time we know we "shouldn't" be afraid, that everything is ultimately OK, and that much of our fears are ridiculous. Nonetheless, they don't let go easy. Allow yourself to ask for help. If you don't have friends you can laugh with, then sit, breathe, and receive the angels help.

Alternately, if you are physically inclined, dance, hike, or exercise. Shake your hands and arms like a dog shaking water off its back! Fear is a constrictive energy and any sort of exercise, dance, or motion will help move it out of your body!

2. Look for the subtle resistance to what you want

Ask yourself, "If life handed me what I wanted tomorrow, what would have to change in me? What would change in my life? How would my relationships change? What would I be focused on instead?" Try to imagine yourself in a reality where you already have what you want... and imagine all the changes as well until you are perfectly comfortable with them. This helps release subtle unconscious resistance

3. Focus relentlessly on a joyful existence.

If you're sick, focus regularly on what it felt like or would feel like to be radiantly healthy. When I had trouble with skin conditions I focused constantly on what it would feel like to have pure, healthy skin, and now it is true.

If you're feeling financial lack, give thanks for your abundance. I've had a lot of bills this year but I take every chance I get to acknowledge abundance and they keep getting paid. Thank you God for the abundant air! Thank you for abundant food! That you for the rich wealth of colors in the yard! Thank you for the abundantly beauty all around me... The vibration of gratitude IS abundant.

If you're feeling worried about someone you love imagine them healthy, happy, in a wonderful life. We can energetically "curse" people with worry, but we can also "bless them" by envisioning them healthy and happy.


This is deep work. Choosing our "classes" more consciously is not always easy, but there is such joy when you can own your own mind, release fears and resistance, and allow the universe to love you the way it really wants to!

I wish you a blessed and beautiful week of embracing your soul's freedom!

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Finding Purpose

I did something very unusual a few weeks ago just prior to the Fourth of July holiday. I rested for four days straight. I ate, slept, and read and did absolutely nothing else!

In the past I would have been frustrated that I didn't feel like working, hiking, crafting, or a million other things. For the first time in my life, however, I had no resistance whatsoever to listening to my body. It was delicious, rejuvenating, and highly purposeful time. It reset my mind, re-fueled my body, and helped me re-commit to a whole new level of self-care.

If you grew up like me, you know that our culture celebrates the purpose in our busy-ness, our activities, and our achievements. Rest on the other hand, is often considered a luxury, a 'necessary evil,' a waste of time, or worse... laziness!  It is so easy to believe we have purpose when we're achieving something, creating something, or helping someone. It is a lot harder to embrace being 'purposeful' when we're not. 

Nonetheless everything we do has purpose if done with love. Your down time is just as purposeful as your "busy" time. Your rest is just as important as your exercise. Your time to daydream is just as important as your time to think. Whatever we do, as long as we do it with love and authenticity has purpose.

I ended up reading a great book about Louisa May Alcott ("Invincible Louisa" by Cornelia Meigs.") I'm not even sure how it ended up on my kindle app but it was there, and so I dove into it. I had no idea the famous author of "Little Women" grew up around such amazing thinkers as Emerson and Thoreau, that she was a nurse in the civil war, traveled the world as a caretaker, and never gave up on her dream of supporting her family, nor allowed ill health to overtake her zest for living. My "down time," spent reading about her "up time" greatly inspired me.

So this week, if you feel inspired to act with love, then by all means do so, but perhaps you, like me, could use a little rest. If so, just know that your down time has purpose. God would not have invented the fall and winter if the trees were meant to bloom all year. Even they rest, knowing that in their slumber they are gathering energy for their next cycle of activity.

Here are a few pointers to help you find purpose...

1. Pick something you consider purposeless, and list at least ten reasons why it has a loving value. 
The angels challenged me to do this years ago when I was whining about "wasting time" on housecleaning. They asked me to "love my house," give thanks for my house, give thanks for being able to share my house, for the furniture I loved, much of it with its own story. They showed me how "loving my house" was a way to share my love with both myself and everyone who visited, to save time in the future (because I could find things in an organized home) and to master the art of being present. Soon I was whistling while I worked!

Resting has purpose... it helps your brain loosen up its grip on preconceived notions and see things in a new light. Your body self-heals. You get new ideas, new guidance, and fresh perspectives. You are more apt to take better care of yourself when you rest because you let go of your addiction to adrenaline. Rest has great meaning.

Try it... Pick something you consider purposeless, and list at least ten reasons why it has loving value. 

2. Before bedtime, ask yourself, "How would the world be different if I hadn't been here today?"

Perhaps you let someone move in front of you in traffic and that kind act made their day. Without you they might have had an accident. Maybe you called a friend in need. Without you they might have spiraled into a tough mindset. Perhaps you slept all day. Without you there would be one less ripple of peace in the cosmic pond... everything has value.

3. If you really want a "greater purpose" as we humans say, write down three of your biggest complaints in life. Explore how you can you contribute to the solution.

Seeing love, being love, and expressing love are purpose enough. The angels maintain your very act of breathing and being is a contribution. However, being human, many people want to find something to do that feels like a contribution to humanity. That is wonderful, but what if you don't know what to do?

Years ago the angels said something simple - "Your biggest complaints are clues to your greatest passion."

If you hate the fact that people are starving, find ways to feed someone. If you hate animal abuse, volunteer at a shelter or visit and share love with one of its residents. If you can't stand seeing people dis-empowered, teach empowerment. You get the idea. Your complaints do indeed show you your passions. 


This week try to start looking at everything you do and everything you are as having purpose, meaning, and value. In that space, life takes on a new vibrancy, and starts to feel more joyful. Never, the angel say is anything we do, or anything we are, wasted in the greater scheme of life.

Saturday, July 08, 2017

Making love to life

Years ago I did some real damage to my foot and ended up being on crutches for five months. Even the simplest tasks were challenging, from taking care of the dogs who were on earth at the time, to cooking and cleaning house. I know many of you have been there too. I could no longer rush around as usual and so I learned to do everything I did slowly, thoughtfully, and with love.

I didn't have the capacity at the time to hire someone to clean house so I bought a portable vacuum, tied a ribbon to the handle and lugged it around on crutches. I strapped a belt around my waist and hung the rags and cleaners from it.  I put on some good slow music and began "making love to my house,"as the angels urged me. I cleaned it slowly, consciously, and with a great deal of love. I don't believe I've ever seen my house sparkle like that!

Cooking was the same. I had to stop, move the plate from the counter, to the table, put the food on it, move it back to the kitchen island, and then to the microwave! I thought of it as loving my dinner.  Even putting the dishes in the dishwasher became an act of slow, conscious, loving. 

While this may seem silly, it made the time on crutches a blessing rather than a burden. It wasn't easy but it was an extremely loving time. I sat still with love. I contemplated life with love. Surprisingly I even learned to embrace the pain with love till it wasn't that bad.

As promised, the pain passed, but the love lasted. I now do the things I must more slowly and with love. I can sit still and still love myself now. I can take almost any task and color it with the same care that I'd give someone else I loved. It has been a remarkable lesson. 

Here are a few pointers to help you make love to life this week

1. Pick a mundane task that you do often and do it with love
Comb your hair with love. Brush your teeth as if you loved the toothbrush, the toothpaste and your teeth. Pet your dog with love. Look at your family with love. Set the table with love. Eat with love. Try doing the smallest things with love and see how it makes you feel.

As the angels like to say, Love is Love no matter who or what you love!


2. Take something you don't enjoy and add more love

This takes some creativity. You might not like your drive to work in traffic. Maybe you can find good music or books on tape? You might not like doing accounting or taxes. Perhaps you can think of it as a blessing to even have a salary to account for, put on some good music, and promise yourself a reward when you're done. Maybe you don't like housecleaning or exercising. Can you put on some fun clothes, some good music, and think of how healthy you'll feel?

You get the idea... we can always find ways to add love even to those tasks we don't usually like. 

3.Try to find something lovable about someone you don't like

This one is more challenging. Years ago I was watching someone yell at a clerk. The angels challenged me to figure out something to love about this woman. I saw laugh lines and started thinking loudly, "At least you have a sense of humor!" She turned to the clerk and said, "I guess you just have to laugh." I was taken aback! 

When we find something to love about someone who isn't being loving, it is an invitation to their soul to step into a more loving reality!


Have fun this week putting a little extra love into life. It is the secret ingredient that will sweeten your days!

Saturday, July 01, 2017

Free to be

As I mentioned last week, I recently attended and spoke at the Academy for Spiritual and Consciousness Studies conference. It was like a little bit of heaven on earth! Physicists, neuroscientists, mystics, dream interpreters, filmmakers, and Near Death Experiencers all shared their perspectives on life, healing, and consciousness.

Some approached the subject with detailed scientific studies, others with healing demonstrations, and still others with heart-touching stories of their time in heaven. Everyone was so respectful, kind, and loving to one another, even when there were differences of opinions. Speakers and attendees mingled freely and attended each others' workshops. It was another "home" away from "home."

I found myself thinking, "If only we could all learn and share from one another so respectfully, this world would be amazing." Professional grown men – scientists, doctors, and former lawyers – stood up front, getting teary eyed as they talked about their love for humanity, their NDEs, and their emerging understandings of consciousness. Instead of feeling self conscious, they bared their hearts. Instead of the audience judging, they were touched. It was so profoundly beautiful. We did dream interpretation exercises, talked about simultaneous parallel realities, no space/no time, kundalini, healing, everything is one, surrender, and so much more.

Can you imagine a world where we are free to be who we are without fear of exposing our hearts and our own beliefs? A world where we can listen to one another, accept one another and simply choose to take in what feels right and what does not? A world where diversity of opinions are celebrated and we find the common ground? It would be heaven.

Here are a few pointers to help you embrace other's perspectives whether they agree or not.

1. Instead of listening to someone and automatically judging them right or wrong, good or bad, seek to understand.

It is the brain's job as a finely tuned computer to compare and contrast every bit of information we take in, with everything we've ever learned. In a way we're wired to sort things out according to what we know.

Rather than judging we can simply say to ourselves. "Hm, that's different from what I think I know. Let me listen to see if I can learn anything. That's not how I think. I wonder why they think that way." Or if you absolutely can't stand the perspective, then simply say to yourself, "Not for me."

Many of you have heard this story. I once wrote a woman who ran a hate site aimed at a celebrity I liked. I asked her why and told her I was just curious. Instead of being mad at her and judging her horrible, it felt better to inquire. She said she started it as a joke and now felt trapped by all its members. I felt compassion for her inability to stand up for what she now believed in. Clearly she, like all of us, was just growing.

2. Rather than needing to agree, acknowledge the other's perspective

You can simply say, "I see why you feel that way" or "I understand now." You don't have to agree or disagree with anyone. You just have to own your own thoughts and feelings, and allow others to have theirs. In doing so you can acknowledge another person's perspective, without having to change your own.

For example, years ago a dear one in my life, felt I should engage in Bible study. I love the Bible. I love all spiritual books. However, because I talk to angels, and have been in heaven, I didn't feel the need for further intellectual study. He argued and tried to get me to agree. At first I tried to justify and explain myself but then realized that it was no more my place to change him, than it was his to change me. Ultimately we chose to acknowledge that each had found a path to God that worked in our own lives. We are now able to respect each others' service to the world in spite of differing beliefs.

If a person can't allow you to be, then there's no need to argue. Remain silent, or as the Bible says, "Don't cast your pearls before swine." There is no need to share your heart with those who can't see its value.

3. Rather than getting upset about others' perspectives, see them as the classroom in which they are growing.

You know what works in your life. Likewise, others know what works in theirs, or, if their lives are not working, they are actually choosing beliefs and habits that give them what they need to grow.

I'll never forget a few decades ago. Someone I loved was sick. "I was nearly beside myself. "I can help you! I can do Reiki on you!" I begged them to let me "heal" them. Their answer taught me volumes, "I'm sick because I need rest. Please let me sleep." Pushing our own "helpful" ideas on another is never loving and rarely welcome. We can offer kindly once or twice, then let it go. Every soul knows what they need to grow.

Even those who addict, engage in horrible habits, and even exit the planet in unkind ways, grow from those experiences. I was talking to someone today who is very spiritual and kind soul. He remembers a past life as a soldier in a very vicious army. He has learned from the perspectives of his past life, and is now a beautiful peace-loving soul. Eventually love wins.
 


I know this is a touchy topic. It IS a human challenge not to get saddened or angered when we hear others' perspectives that we vehemently disagree with. 

Yet we can only achieve spiritual freedom when we understand that everyone is exactly where they need to be, believing what they need to believe, working whether they know it or not, to grow back to love... including us.

May freedom live in your heart this week –  the freedom to be who you are, believe as you believe, and allow others to do the same.