Sunday, February 19, 2017

Pissy vibes, Peaceful prayers, & Thoughts on the World...

A Sunday morning rumination on undying love that lives within it all...

I woke up this morning after only 3 hours sleep craving a glass of water. The craving turned to one for Kombucha, which I do like, however I wasn’t awake enough to discern whether the new craving was coming from another or me. As I reached for the glass bottle in the fridge, an angry spirit pushed me. The glass bottle flew from my hand and shattered all around me. I remained unharmed. Not wanting to give the prickly, staticky vibration another bit of energy, I peacefully cleaned up the mess and prayed for whomever was sending this unkindness.  I celebrated the opportunity to clean my floors, and gave thanks for my life.  I prayed for the upliftment of all angry souls.  The light bulb above me started to hiss and wine and blew out!  I noticed the roses on the table had wilted and when I put my hands over them to send light I felt an angry spirit coating them spitefully.  I knew it was time for some big light and prayers to be sent, and walked through the house filling it with love and praying for whomever or whatever was sending me the unkindness to know God’s love or to leave.

This is my life.  This is part of what occurs when you attempt to leave vibrations that have been able to manipulate and derail you for centuries.  They just try harder for awhile, showing up in many different forms.  It doesn’t matter who or what form they appear in. Anger is anger. Unkindness is unkindness, and love is love. I knew someone was in need of love.

So I got my original glass of water, sat on the patio and prayed some more.

Afterwards I was contemplating the current anger on earth over the politics of the day, and praying that someday the world would come to know that the only way our outer dramas on earth would be solved permanently was to solve the inner dramas.  What we witness in the news today has gone on in ancient Egypt, ancient Rome, and  in and most governments throughout history.  We have cell phones and iThings and Internet now, and so we see what used to be hidden. History and herstory repeats.  As the angels say, “Earth is a school and the students cycle in and out but the classes tend to repeat until there is no longer a need.” 

We are the students here.  If we don’t want to see manipulation and lies, we must not allow our heads to manipulate our hearts. We must not lie to ourselves. If we don’t want to see bigotry, we must avoid judging even the judgmental.  If we don’t want hatred, we must learn to love ourselves… exactly as we are.

What I judge in another is always what I judge within myself.  What one judges in me is what they judge within themselves.

People ask me all the time, “How can that be.” I’m not a violent, angry person.  The angels respond, “You judge your anger and do not allow for it when it arises naturally. While we don’t encourage anger, sometimes it is there, and you don’t allow yourself to feel it. You feel less than Divine when it arises. And therefore you will always judge anger in others.”

People say, “How can I be bigoted,” and the angels will lovingly point out where we judge parts of ourselves as having “no right to be.”

People say, “I can’t stand the ignorant! I’m educated. How can that be a mirror?” and the angels kindly point out that the person would judge themselves when they don’t have all the answers, or when they made a mistake.

This mirroring of judgments is often subtle, rather than a direct and obvious mirror,  yet it is spiritual law.  At some level whatever we judge in another is what we have not yet owned and made peace with inside of ourselves.

I’ve seen many of my past lives and know this to be true within myself. I’ve been a spiritual innocent that was killed by those “in power” and so the next lifetime I incarnated “in power” to explore that ideology.  It was a thankless job. I found that the masses didn’t want to assume responsibility for their own lives but rather just wanted someone to fix their lives.  So I tried other lifetimes, both spiritual and material. I tried being an unobtrusive peasant but the one time I spoke my mind I was thrown in a dungeon and rotted to dust. 

I tried lifetimes of being “a normal person” and was horribly victimized in those because I attracted it. I carried within me a vibration and judgmental feeling that I had failed God in other lives and so I allowed others to beat me up as subtly, I had been doing to myself.  This lifetime, my angels told me that I argued about coming to earth. I didn’t want to come back to such an angry place and get attacked again, but they convinced me that if I could do so, avoid attacking anything within myself, and stand in my spiritual truth in spite of the varying opinions and unkindnesses… then I would not only help the earth, but achieve my own soul’s liberation as well.

It is easy to love in private, among kind souls. It is big growth to love in public when those who both hold you to impossible standards and those who disagree will attack. Luckily the love far outweighs the hatred and judgment, but the hatred and judgment stings nonetheless.

So there is always vibrational justice in the greater scheme of eternity.   Those who judge people of a certain religion will almost certainly reincarnate within that group in a future life.  Those who put down women or men will surely choose their next life as the ones they judge.  If we beat ourselves up without mercy, we may find ourselves attracting attack. If we feel we must martyr ourselves to be loving souls we will attract those willing to assist. There is always a vibrational match in this life and others.

This is not God’s punishment or cruelty. Reincarnation, and anything that happens to us in fact, does not occur because we get an “eye for an eye” but rather is a result of the soul’s desire to learn about loving those it did not love, and those vibrations within itself it once judged.

The soul seeks, through its many incarnations to find what it already and always has within it.  The Soul seeks “enlightenment” and tries to find “Love” only to find it already and always has been enlightened, and it is sourced and indelibly therefore, connected to love.  We are the ones we’ve been looking for, as the saying goes.  When we reach that space we see only love, feel only love, and feel the incredibly sweet bliss of Divine love no matter what is going on around us, we are free. We listen to our guidance and trust that we are where we need to be to contribute to the good of our own souls and the whole of creation.

I’m not there yet all the time. I have periods of time in this space and it is heaven on earth. It is my unfolding journey… and all souls’ journey… to eventually seek to reunite our awareness with the truth of our being, sourced in Love and the value of our individuality as created and directed, with love, by the Divine.

We are waves seeking an awareness of the ocean, colors seeking an awareness of the light that sources us. We are notes seeking to love all music created within us and by us.

We are nothing less than those we love… and those we judge.

So what do we do with this practically speaking?

Use those who bother or upset you as a mirror. Ask yourself, “What part of their vibration will I not love and allow for within myself?”  If you judge the angry, do you judge yourself less than worthy of love when you are angry? If you judge the bigoted, what part of yourself would you kill off, if only an errant thought?  If you judge a certain person, ask yourself, “If I knew their vibration lived within me,” because it does, “have I judged that” or “am I willing to love it into the light.”  We all have inner Trumps and inner Hillary’s. We have the inner Christ, which is our deepest truth, and the inner Lucifer, that urges us to hate, judge, and buy into illusions of separation.

These lower vibrations are certainly not our deepest truth, but we will never rid ourselves of their influence until we embrace, all that lives within us, with Love in its totality.  Can a screaming parent calm an angry child?  I witnessed this the other day in a store. A child was crying in upset and the parent, obviously tired and frazzled was loudly and angrily telling the child to be quiet. The baby screamed even more.  Another parent in a similar situation picked up their screaming child and had the emotional fortitude and strength of love to hold and hug their child in the midst of a monumental tantrum until the little one’s upset subsided and the baby rested and fell asleep in the arms of love.  We have these screaming children inside of us.

Within each of us, we have the hungry child, the tired child, the angry child, and the child that wants its way and screams when it doesn’t get it. Will we judge these children within? Will we angry at these parts of self, sending them slinking off into the background of our consciousness only to reappear at the next available opportunity, or will we instead, love that part of ourselves we don’t like until at long last it subsides, relaxes into the arms of love, and transforms into a higher state of being?

When you are angry, stop. Breathe. Ask yourself first, ”What is it I want to kill off within myself or another?” Next, ask, “What is it I’d rather see within myself or another.” Then bring those qualities to the surface in you, and in your life. You can’t change anyone else, but you can change a vibration within you, and for each soul willing to do so, our world truly evolves and becomes a better place.  Through a shift in vibration, we create a better, more evolved human race, one soul at a time.

The journey on earth is about you – your enlightenment, your connection the Divine, your willingness to embrace love, or not.  You could change everyone else, feed the poor, stand for political change, and while that is beautiful, good and loving, it is of merit, only if you do it with love.  For in truth, others will incarnate in this endless school called earth to learn from poverty, upheaval, etc., but if you LOVE, and truly allow your actions to come from Love, then the souls you love will know they too are worthy of love… and so will you know this as well. We will find ourselves and our “classmates” here in this life raised up in spirit, not just in body and life situation.

The political climate and state of the world is indeed tumultuous, chaotic, and filled with upset.  We get to choose whether or not we participate in these vibrations. You can be a peace-filled and loving activist or a hateful pacifist. What you do is of no consequence to the soul unless you do it with love.  So try… do your best, to first love yourself in these “uncertain” times and from that place of self-care and self-love you will be better able to contribute your love and light  - if not your “like” – to all souls equally. 

For in truth, no matter how the waves look – weak or strong, angry or peaceful –  they are all part of one Ocean. And we, no matter how we look, are all part of one love.

Love you all. Happy Sunday.