Saturday, April 22, 2017

A book or a life...

When I was a little girl I wrote a short story and read it to my first grade class, about how my daddy accidentally made me eat shrimp tails. He thought I was fussing when I was whining that my shrimp were tough, and had no clue I was trying to eat the shells! Needless to say I chewed and chewed after he told me to eat my dinner and he was horrified later when he found out what had transpired. At least I got my calcium! 

Back to the story, my first grade class loved the story and something in me knew right then and there that I was going to write books someday. I didn't have a clue how or when. I was a child and as most children know... anything is possible. 

That vision drove me throughout the years. I wrote poetry in notebooks when I was bored. I taught myself to type in sixth grade and wrote mystery stories. A friend and I spent one grade school summer writing what we thought was a brilliant book about her cat, found the "Writer's Market" at a local library and submitted our hand typed manuscript to a publisher. We got a pretty detailed rejection from the poor editor who had to read it, and decided she just didn't appreciate our brilliance!

Even as an engineer I knew I would write. I dreamed up books about the uprising of the corporate masses. I wrote a daily newsletter to keep hundreds of engineers at Honeywell and Boeing coordinated. I journaled. Ever-present in the back of my mind, the resolve to write a book never left me. I knew what I wanted, but not how it would happen.

The summer after I quit my engineering career I wrote my first real book, sent it to publishers... and got rejected again! They kindly told me I had no experience speaking in my field and therefore was not a salable author.

So I waited. When other books arrived in my awareness, I wrote them and one day, with the press of a "Submit" button on a self-publishing website, I turned into an "official" author. Within a year life conspired to push me further out in public, and I was speaking at conferences with famous authors. 

I never dreamed this is how it would look. I had such a small vision looking back. I just wanted to write a book. God gave me a life working with angels, an international family of light, the urge to finish three books and many more brewing within me, a newsletter written weekly for nearly 15 years, speaking engagement, and now even this gazing that is happening. I never imagined this. It is far better than I would have ever asked for.

You never have to know how something will come about in your life. Just focus on dreaming the "what" into existence, and let the Creator figure out the "how." The Divine mind is brilliant, contains all possibilities, and offers so much more richness of life than any scheme the mind could ever conceive for achieving our goals or solving our problems.

Truly, all things are possible with God.

Here are a few pointers to help you remember that all things are possible...

1. When you have a challenge or a dream, write down at least fifty ways it might come about - ranging from the practical to the ridiculous.
Years ago I made a new friend. I asked the angels how it would turn out. They made me laugh by giving me a huge list of possibilities. They told me we could be best friends for life. I could insist I wanted someone to take care of me, fall out of a tree, and have him help me. We could get eaten by bears... Those were some of the more outlandish ones! The point was that anything could be created depending on our free will and choices. 

Suppose you need to pay a bill you don't know how to pay... I've seen these scenarios: A friend of a friend who doesn't even know you pays for it. A relative pays for it. The bill is forgiven, delayed, restructured. You win money. You sell something you forgot you had. You sell something you knew you had but didn't think you could sell and don't miss it. A relative or friend dies and leaves you money. You forgot you stashed money somewhere ten years ago... 

You get the idea and while this list might not apply to you, it does illustrate just a tiny set of the vast array of solutions I've witnessed. 

2. Review your life to see the many times that things worked when you didn't know how

Sometimes we need evidence from our own life. Go back and look at your life. Think of times you were challenged and didn't know how to solve something. What happened? Think of things you wanted but didn't know how to achieve that you now have or had. What happened. Let yourself be convinced by the evidence in your own life that all things are possible.

3. Read other people's stories

Go to and read stories. One miracle after the next is documented there! After awhile you can't deny that the universe is pretty creative in its problem solving and manifestations.

Enjoy not knowing how occasionally. Focus on the feel of what you want. Dream of it. Then let the universe and the Creator works it magic in your life!

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Letting go

On the last day of its life, my oleander tree graced me with one more burst of blossoms in the sunset. I’ve loved this tree so much. Hummingbirds roosted here, pigeons nested under its branches on the roof. I’ve enjoyed rainstorms under its thick canopy and showers of white blossoms from its branches make my yard look like a fairyland every spring. Problem is, its roots have started to go under the house and we can’t do that. It was time.  

Weeks ago, I asked it to send its life force into the other trees and plants and slowly it began to withdraw. The trunk darkened with some fungus. Branches started dying off, and the foliage and flowers became much sparser than usual this time of year. On her last night in my yard, however, she gave me one last bunch of blooms. 

There I am, Miss Mystic crying as I let go of my tree friend, knowing full well that death is an illusion, but also feeling that I’d miss those magic moments spent with her. That’s when I heard the voice of her spirit in a pretty no-nonsense female tone. “Ann, you know I don’t die.” “I know but I’ll miss your form,” I tell her. “Don’t you remember that I AM in all things and when one form goes, another is there? “Yes,” I said, sniveling and starting to feel foolish. “Sit with me,” she said. I got a towel and started to meditate by her trunk, thinking with some humor about Buddha under the Bodhi tree… and how of course it would be funny and fitting to have Ann under the oleander. 

I felt the force of life and love within the form of the tree envelope me with a mighty love. It was like a hug inside, outside, and around me. I felt a warm light go up my spine. “I am your spine,” she said, giving me a chiropractic adjustment as the energy of her trunk merged with mine. I went into that blissful no-mind, feel-everything space, surrendering more and more deeply to the all that is… until the oven timer went off! I had forgotten I was cooking. 

Filled with the bliss of the Presence, I ran in, took the chicken out of the oven and went back to meditate. Now there were no tears, just indescribable joy! There was no tree, no me, just energy… pulsing, blissful energy spilling out in all directions and me with it. I don’t know how long it went on but then I heard the voice again. “Got it?” “Yes, thank you for the reminder," I said smiling. She told me to cut some of her flowering branches and put them in a vase and she’d try to root so I could put her “kids” in a pot elsewhere. Brilliance. 

We all have to let go at times. Sometimes it's something small - we break a glass. Sometimes it's a tree, a house, a job, a relationship. Sometimes our letting go is huge – the death of a dear one. 

In each letting go is an opening to a greater understanding of love. It is not always easy. It is seldom fun. It is sometimes excruciatingly painful. Yet, in each letting go of the form, we start to embrace more fully the essence – the soul, and beyond that, the love that live in all being and all things. We may have to grieve but at some point we start to trust more, to soften, to open. In that space, love rushes in, we feel the souls of those who have expanded beyond our limited realms. They remind us, as the tree reminded me, “We do not die.” In truth we resurrected into a much greater and more amazing reality. 

I feel her spirit within me and in the entire cosmos now. She always did... Nature never harbors illusions of separation, and we are slowly letting go and finding our way out of them too.

Here are a few pointers when it is time for letting go of something or someone you once held dear…

1. Allow yourself to grieve
You are human. There is not getting around that. Depending on the magnitude of the surrender you may need to grieve deeply and you may need plenty of time to do it. Trust your own inner schedule. We would not dictate to a seed in the ground when it should sprout. There is a natural process of death and resurrection we go through when we have to let go and none of us can force it or rush it.  

Be kind and gentle with yourself, knowing each wave of grief will toss you back up suddenly into peace. This is easy to say if you’re grieving a broken glass, and beyond difficult to embrace when you grieve the loss of a loved one. Yet, like waves, grief pulls you inward and always tosses you back up upon the shores of love.

2. Accept the change. Attempt to be present. Create.

It's very human to resist change if it is difficult. If we are let go of something or someone that we love, we don’t want to admit they’re gone. We go back in our minds, and relive the past. Most people relive not only the love, but more often the pain. If you can get present, there is some sadness because you miss them in human form, but you also have opportunity to feel the the bliss of their expanded spirit. If you lose something like a job, or house, there is some sadness, but there can also be the joy of a new creative adventure. Loss is really an opening to something greater when we can allow for that.

The angels encourage me anytime I have to let go of anyone or anything to allow for the grief, but then to be present as often as possible and look for the love and joy and opportunities for expansion and growth... right here and right now. Love the people who are with you. Love your dear ones in the heavenly expanded realms and attempt to sit quietly and feel their presence. Love yourself enough to create a new job, a new hous, etc. in your inner world until it must appear in your outer.

3. Embrace the gifts of an expanded heart

Grief opens you. You have to be more real, authentic, deep. Nothing superficial matters. You want connection. You spend more time praying, if only for comfort. In our tears we admit we are not the ultimate power and surrender more deeply to what is. In your deepest grief, you are also feeling the oceanic depths of your love. Shift your focus to how much you love and suddenly, amazingly if you can manage that, you will feel only that love. 

I con't mean to minimize anyone's loss. I do not mean to compare a tree with a person. Yet the angels pushed me to write this. Each of us on earth is letting go of something most of the time, because each of us, in our soul, has a strong desire to make use of our time on earth – to die unto the small self and resurrect into a gloriously awakened understanding of our indelible connection with all of life. In this reality, there is no real loss. It's hard to get here but worth every step of the journey.

Happy Easter to all of you who celebrate! Happy Spring! 

Saturday, April 08, 2017

Peace is an inside job

I used to get worried about a great many things. I carried a lot of fears in with me from other lifetimes. I had memories of being in the wrong place and being killed, saying the wrong thing and being killed, and having disasters befall me. Thank God, this lifetime has not been nearly as "exciting," nonetheless, I harbored a feeling that I better be careful about what I did or said or something awful could happen.

The fear manifested in the craziest ways especially the feeling that I had to be "on top things" all the time, for example. The angels really got my attention one day when I asked them how I could be less anxious. "Remind yourself you are not ultimately in control," they suggested. "An asteroid could come through your roof at any moment." I thought their sentiments about asteroids was silly but amusing. A month later YouTube videos appeared showing asteroids burning holes through roofs in Russia. I was humbled.

I immediately started to remind myself that there were times I was not in control. Strangely that gave me peace. I realized it was the sense that I could control everything and had to control everything that once held me captive. 

Of course, we are in control to a degree. We can control our thoughts if we make the effort. We can learn to allow ourselves our feelings then switch to better ones. We can chooser more loving perceptions. We can change our energy and attract better circumstances. But there are somethings we cannot control, other people we cannot change, and forces of nature that are way beyond our command.... at least until we become so enlightened we merge with the creative force of the universe itself and I'm not there yet.

So how do I find peace every day while hearing people's grief, pain, sadness, hatred, and disillusionment? How do I find peace in a world that is in chaos? How did I ultimately find peace after being spiritually attacked for two years, having life-threatening medical conditions, and a few other challenges these past years...?

The answer is I did what I knew to do, surrendered to what I could not control, and trusted that the power that creates universes was ultimately trying to move me into greater love and happier circumstances. The last time I got attacked by an unpleasant spirit in my sleep, I woke up and simply said, "I love you. I want you to know God's love. I am the ocean and you are the wave and I'm swallowing you in my light." It left. Peace. The last time I had a physical condition I simply spent time each day imagining it gone until I was guided to transmitters of light who helped remove its energy.

After working with angels for years I truly trust that if something doesn't look the way I wish or think it should be, there is something bigger going on beneath the surface, some growth for me, growth for others involved, or growth for humanity, that I cannot always comprehend. I trust that when I have a strong intention and do my manifesting, every thing that happens, whether or not it looks disappointing or not is carrying me towards a happier future.

There are times when the world, or our own lives, look unthinkably cruel. People hurt each other, betray each other, and do horrific acts upon this planet, but in reality it is one giant vibrational dance wherein we learn to grow into greater love. It is hard to see at times. Sometimes I cannot, but more and more often now I can. Surrendering to this brings peace.

Peace truly is an "inside job" and the more we seek lasting peace, the more easily we find it.

Here are a few pointers to help you you find peace this week.

1. Print a copy of the Serenity Prayer and pray it often
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

– Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)

2. Control the things you can

You will feel better in a situation knowing that you are doing what you can. Even if you don't know another thing to do, you can always watch your thoughts and attempt to shift them to be in alignment with the best possible outcome for your life... given the things you cannot change.You can always pray.

3. Trust that there is always a bigger picture. Ask to see it.

Remind yourself often, the angels say:
I am sourced in love, moving towards a greater understanding of the love that I am. Absolutely everything that happens in my life is attempting to help me remember the truth of my being, so at long last I can experience nothing but love.

This one isn't easy when life hurts. It isn't easy when looking at life through human eyes. I often sit during difficult times and pray, "God let me see this through your eyes. Let me understand the bigger picture." The I attempt to surrender my judgments and be open to new understanding.

4. When you can, try to avoid people, things, and situations that disrupt your peace and seek out situations frequently where you know you will find peace.

We can't always avoid disruption and chaos – some "classes" are mandatory! However, when we can it is prudent to avoid things we know will disturb us. If the news disrupts you don't watch it. If reality shows upset you, turn them off. If Facebook posts bother you switch away from them. If a person is upsetting and you don't want to engage, remain silent or walk away.

Then find things that help you access that vibration of peace. For me it is being out in nature. For some playing with the dog... It is different for all.

Just as we feed our body, we must do our best to feed our spirit what nourishes it and avoid what doesn't, when we are able.

There are times when life is unthinkably challenging and it is hard to find peace. There are times when we witness the unthinkable, or worse it comes into our lives. But even then with diligence and a great faith, we can lessen the upsets, and find a peace that truly surpasses all understanding.

Saturday, April 01, 2017

Breathing balance

Like many of us, I'm guilty of rushing around and forgetting to breathe deeply some days. I notice the effects quickly. My body tenses. I don't hear my guidance as easily. I feel contraction rather than expansion.

Soon as I catch myself I stop, slow down, and breathe. Immediately in that one moment of conscious presence, peace fills me. I feel the energy of love rushing into my mind, heart, body, and soul. I feel expanded.

I haven't spent much time breathing in specific energies as the angels recommended this week, so I thought I'd give it a try. As I write this it is my home office day. I had several appointments, groceries, yard work, three newsletters to write, Facebook posts to queue, calls and emails to make, new ads to create for upcoming events, a website I'm working on... and the list goes on. It sometimes feels a little daunting.

So I chose to breathe in peace, balance, and the energy of being efficient and productive. I just focused on those feelings and breathed them in, at breakfast, while sitting at red lights, in line at the grocery store, etc. I found myself slowing down and going about my day in a relaxed manner. The entire day flowed so smoothly that I not only accomplished my list but was also able to be centered and at peace when I heard some very sad news and had the desire to send love to the family involved.

I'm going to play with "breathing" specific energies more often. Now it's your turn... Here are a few pointers to help you use your breath as a tool to "tune" yourself into the loving energies you want or need right now.

1. Pick something you'd like to experience today – peace, love, joy, inspiration, vitality, balance, productivity

You can have as many as you want, but for practice, pick one to focus on each day. See if you can imagine what it would feel like to feel that way - peaceful, loved, joyful, etc. Now in that space breathe in slowly and deeply, a few times.

Breathe in this energy throughout the day when you think of it, always feeling the feeling while doing the breathing!

2. If you like, imagine the color and texture of the energy you are breathing in

Ask yourself, if the energy I am breathing in had a color and texture, what might it look like? Smooth, bubbly, effervescant, flowing? Go with what comes to you. There is no right answer since energy appears differently to differen people. For example, as I imagined "peace, balance, and productivity," I saw a soothing electric blue.

If you're breathing in multiple energies you can also imagine what they look like together. Are you breathing in a rainbow? A candy-like swirl? Bubbles of different colors. Just ask yourself, "What might the energies I am breathing in look like?" Or if you perceive musically, maybe you can imagine what they might sound like.

Make this as vivid and real as you can in your imagination because when we focus on something that way we actually connect with it!

3. Breathe on behalf of someone you love

Think of someone you want to help. What energy would you like to send them? Hold them in your heart and breathe in that energy using the techniques above. Breathe in that energy. Exhale.

You have just sent them a gift of loving energy. This works for those on earth and in heaven. Breath is a way our physical vehicle accepts and shares energy and energy transcends time and space.

4. Breathe for health & vitality

Intend to breathe in the frequencies of all the nutrients your body needs to be healthy and vital. Do this several times a day for a week and see how you feel.

I've used breath work for years to breath in energy but this was a slightly new twist on the technique for me, and a lot of fun! I'm going to add "breathing frequencies" to my daily repertoire.

In fact, I'm breathing in love now, and exhaling it for all of you!

Saturday, March 25, 2017

You never failed love

I was sitting in silence the other day over breakfast when the angels started talking. "The world thinks the notion that you're not good enough is beneath every problem. That is not the deepest fear however."

"Beneath the illusion of not being 'good enough' almost every human heart has a deep-seated unconscious feeling that they have failed love or failed God."
 I felt a lump form in my throat and tears rise up from somewhere deep within. "Say more," I asked them. "You cannot fail that from which you are made. You all know this. But deep down, almost every human being – you included –  feels that at some point in their existence, in this life or others, they have failed God, failed Love, failed... This is why you are on earth – to realize you are One with Love."

I let their words sit within me, feeling the truth of them, but not quite seeing where I thought I had failed love. I've examined this lifetime in great detail and have forgiven myself for anything less than loving that I've seen. Still, the feelings that came up indicated there was more.

It happened to be the week Amma Karunamayi was in town giving blessings. She is known as an embodiment of the Divine Mother in India and she is the closest thing to Jesus I have met in human form. Her love and compassion are boundless. You get to write down "blessing requests" and then she reads them and gives you energy to assist. I wrote down a request to stand in my light, and to be able to share Divine love with others. Inwardly I asked to see myself through God's eyes.

She touched me, looked deep into my soul with compassion and shut her eyes. The loving power I know as God flooded through her being and blasted me in the kindest way, burning off lifetimes of misunderstanding. Suddenly I saw the misunderstandings and feeling of undeserved guilt I'd carried from past lifetimes. I saw lifetimes in which I wanted so badly to help people, but became disillusioned with their lack of willingness to help themselves. I saw lives where I gave up and got killed due to arguing in public rather than silently remaining loving. I saw lifetimes where I abandoned spirituality and tried to manipulate my way through life. I saw lifetimes where my dreams turned to dust. In each of these, I felt the feeling of failing God, failing love, and failing myself.

These lives flashed before my eyes, until I was propelled into a vision above them all, where I saw myself through God's eyes. I've been here before. All I saw was love –  pure blinding unconditional love. All I felt was compassion for this "small self" –  the woman who wanted so desperately to be loving but found it too difficult to maintain in some lifetimes. I felt the exquisite tenderness of the source beckoning me home as I journeyed through the eternal matrix of Divine mind, seeking only myself. In this love, I was instantly home again, bearing witness to the perfection beneath all things.

I heard the angels say once again, "You cannot fail that from which you are made..."

It never fails that in weeks following a mystical experience I receive tangible validation in my life. I recently paid a person to make my newsletter more responsive on mobile phones. I thought it would be a good idea to help more people read it easily. It didn't turn out that way! It worked on phones but didn't look as well on as many devices as the old one. I had to go back to the original format.

Angels being angels, they didn't miss a chance to show me the divine coordination in the universe... "See Ann, you don't have to be responsive to everyone and everything in life. The Original You is Enough! You cannot fail that which you are." Giggles. No matter how long I teach, there will always be deeper levels to learn!

Here are a few pointers to help you embrace the fact that you have never failed love....

1. Every night, think of three things you're proud of that day
These can be great or small. Maybe you had one kind thought about yourself, held the door for someone who had their arms full, felt compassion for anoather soul, made a loving dinner, prayed for a stranger. Anything loving counts.

Many of us were subtly trained to focus on what we did wrong, rather than what we did right. If you give yourself credit for the good that you do, it will be easier to embrace the fact that you are nothing less than love inside!

2. Now think of something you're less than proud of and see how you were trying to love

Maybe you got angry at someone. Deep down you were trying to love yourself. Maybe you "messed up" and forgot to do something you promised. You were perhaps trying to do something that mattered more and had just over committed. Maybe you said something you regret. Perhaps you were trying to protect a fragile heart.

While there are always more elegant and loving ways to express love, the desire to love and be loved lives beneath all thoughts, words, and deeds... no matter how far removed they seem from it. 

3. Look in your own eyes in the mirror and say, "I am pure love having a human experience."

Statements of truth help to remind and awaken the soul. Use them frequently until something deep within awakens and you feel the magnificence of your being.

I love you all. You are enough. You have never failed. 

The sticks, the thorns, the leaves, the rain... none of those have failed the rose. They have only shaped and guided its blossoming.

Saturday, March 11, 2017

Gladly I will jump

This has been the year I’m challenging myself to “Try something new.”When a thought doesn't make me happy, I remind myself to "try something new." For example, earlier in the year when I created a health challenge, I caught myself saying, "How many more times do I have to do this to learn!" The thought didn't make me happy so I changed it. "Thank God I've learned and I'm done with this!" I could feel my energy rising immediately and my entire body relaxed.

I caught myself one week, dipping into a very, very old whine, "No one cares about me," and immediately changed it to a better thought, "Life loves me!" I got the sweetest outpouring of thank you notes and kindnesses shown to me within days!

I've been challenging myself to give up old stuff in the house that is past its prime and treat myself to upgrades. I've been trying new foods that appeal, new books... and it has been fun! 

Change breathes fresh air into our minds, hearts, homes, bodies, souls, and lives. But it isn't always easy. I may want new towels, but giving up my old ones was like giving away old comfy friends! I may want new thoughts but giving up my old ones requires some willpower and dedication. I may want to try new foods but that meant I have to branch out a bit and risk a little failure here and there. Change requires letting go. 

I was pondering the joy of being like a child and "trying something new” on Monday, while making hard boiled eggs for snacking this week. They're really yummy with a drizzle of olive oil, a dab of Dijon & Dill, and a sprinkle of Hawaiian black salt!

Back to the point, the eggs were cooked and I was carefully dumping them into a strainer in the sink, trying not to crack them prematurely, when I heard the most delightful voice in my head…

“See how gladly the eggs jump out of the pot, releasing themselves from the boiling water, joyous about being cracked open and released unto their new life!”

The language was quaint but the message was clear and beautiful! The angel in my head was reaffirming my desire to release old patterns, habits, etc… to leave the "shells" that had both protected and confined! Sweet!

See how gladly we can leap from situations that are behind us, and no longer work. See how gladly we can release the shells of our old past programming and release ourselves into delicious new thoughts, new circumstances, and new life. See how gladly was can embrace change! 

I felt the familiar angelic warmth embrace me and radiate from my heart with an exquisite tenderness. To the angels every single moment is new, never before experienced, and never to be seen again. Change is exciting, an opportunity for a new experience, a new joy!

I smiled, thinking of all I wish to create this lifetime, all I wish to experience, and all the change that will required. Gladly, in God’s time – just like those eggs – I will jump!

Here are a few tips to help you "gladly jump" this week... 

1. Pay attention to your loving desires
When you feel a desire in the moment to do something, say something loving, or try something that appeals and feels wholesome (because your guidance is always loving), say it, do it, try it.

Pick up the phone and call that person you are thinking about. Write the email. Sign up for a class. Get outside and take a walk. Take a ten minute nap. Look at that new career online. Go up to that stranger and compliment them! (You know you want to!) Get the food that sounds appealing and healthy. Politely bow out of a conversation that is annoying or boring you.

I rarely call clients because I have a wonderful assistant, but once I had an urge so strong to call a particular person that it was positively urgent. I picked up the phone and dialed... and interrupted a suicide in progress. This person is still alive today due to that guidance.  

When you feel something that sounds loving, wholesome, appealing… say it, do it, try it. Trust. The heart has its reasons.

2. Use Your Mind, but Don’t Let it Rule You

Sometimes we’re disconnected from our hearts. We’ve ignored them for so long we can’t hear our true desires. Instead you hear secondary desires that don't really satisfy.

For example, say you’ve ignored your desire to eat food that nurtures you for so long that you are now low on energy. Now your body wants sugar, carbs, and things your mind already knows from past experience don’t feel so good. Thank the mind for reminding you. Now sit quietly and ask your heart… Heart what does my body really want right now? You’ll get the answer.

Suppose you have ignored your need for joy. You meet someone. Your heart really wants this person to be “it” because you're lonely. The mind tells you, “You’re seeing red flags, things that aren’t right. Be careful.” Thank your mind for pointing out the warning signs. Next, ask your heart, “What do I want in life for my own joy? What do I want in relationship.” Listen. Then use the mind to see if your true desires are being met in this current situation or not. Be honest with yourself. Ask your heart, “What next?”

Your mind is a useful tool for analyzing current situations against knowledge, past experience, and desired outcomes. Used correctly, it can inform you and let you know whether or not something is in alignment with your heart. 

3. Every now and then have a little “heart time”

In this age of so much information, we all need a little time to get back in touch with our hearts. We know when we’re disconnected. We feel stressed, tired, angry, upset, ill, etc. At these times it is important to spend some quiet time alone.

Journal, ponder, walk in nature, listen to beautiful music. Ask your heart, “What do you need? Where am I listening? Where am I ignoring you? Given my desires, what next?”

Have a beautiful week listening to your beautiful hearts, and may you “Gladly jump” when the time is right for delightful change! 

Saturday, March 04, 2017

Which heart to follow?

I was in need of a refill by this Monday. It seems that the week prior, people were bombarded with challenges, angry energies aimed at them, inner turmoils resurfacing, etc. It was a pretty exciting week in the energy! Because I often get 100+ emails a day, I get to bear witness to the patterns in human consciousness. I do so with love, and I'm honest when I cannot, but after all these years, I know how important it is to maintain my own energy.

So Monday, after working all weekend on projects I'm passionate about, I awakened with my head trying to convince me that I absolutely needed to hunker down and handle a very full day of work. My heart, however, would have none of it. I needed to get outdoors. My heart won.

I spent two hours two hours hiking in the cold windy desert, without a soul around. Nature and the energy warmed me. I got to sit and just "be" in the arms of the mountains, with the earth firm beneath me and the sky allowing me to expand into its infinite blue. I heard my angels, got insights for future teachings and felt my body come alive with the pure and vast energy of nature. At one point some sweet guide in my head told me to leave... "Make haste or you will be rained upon!" I smiled and "made haste" before the rain came!

Needless to say, everything else got done... and more.

People are so afraid that if they listen to their hearts, their lives will fall apart. I have witnessed just the opposite. You get recalibrated. Life starts to work. You are happy, energized, and fulfilled. Cooperative interactions arise. You feel connected... to self, life, and others.

The heart was meant to guide you in your life and the brilliant computer of a mind was meant to help you figure out how! 
My to do list is "ta done" and I've got time even to help a friend... unanticipated by my mind, but perfectly orchestrated by my heart!"

Here are a few tips to listen to your heart this week...

1. Find time to listen
You cannot hear your own heart if you don't take time to do something you enjoy. It doesn't have to be meditation. It can be anything that gets you in the present and happy. Cook, walk your dog, spend time with loved ones, anything works as long as you a) enjoy it, and b) it draws all your attention into the present while you are doing it

2. Acknowledge everything you feel / even if you don't act on it

Sometimes as we are getting reacquainted with our heart, we hear the heart of the hurting child within as well. "I just want to quit my job!" the child's heart says impetuously, or "I just want this person to go away and leave me alone!
The adult heart says, more honestly, "I want to quit my job and find something fulfilling in a graceful easy way, without financial hardship." "I would like help bringing peace into my heart over this relationship. Either end it gracefully or transform it please." Both hearts live inside of you. One is just a little more emotionally mature!

Your "adult heart" will be the one that wants an elegant, not an impetuous, solution. It is your true heart of hearts, that wants solutions to not only the immediate problems, but one that fit beautifully in all areas of your life. You may not know how to fulfill these hearts desires, but that's OK. Just acknowledging them is the first step.

3. Act upon the desires of the heart that feel inspiring and joyful.

If you are too afraid to act, or not yet ready to trust, or if you don't know how you can... pray to be shown the way.

In my case, it was easy to set aside office work and take a hike. 
When I wanted to quit my job in engineering, however, I still needed income. I prayed to know, beyond a shadow of doubt, the most graceful, perfect time to quit, given all my various needs. Three years passed. I grew tremendously. The, finally, one day I clearly heard voices telling me to turn in my resignation. Even though I didn't know how I'd make a living, by that time I had grown in faith, created enough savings for some time off, and was emotionally ready.

The heart is your "tuner" to the Divine, your access to angels, and the compass which points you to your inner wisdom. It tells you exactly where you need to be to grow in faith, trust, and a greater love for all – including you!

Saturday, February 25, 2017

Loving the unkind

I got an angel reading through my friend Summer Bacon, at the end of last year, just for the comfort of hearing my friends "outside" of my own mind! "Next year," they said, meaning 2017, "will be the year you learn to be attacked and not take it personally." Oh joy! I can honestly say I didn't do the happy dance over that proclamation! It has proven true, however, and the lesson hasn't been as painful as I thought.

Within the past month I've been called a charlatan, divisive, commercial, clueless, unaware, uncaring, etc. Some of these were misunderstandings. I Some were true (I am clueless about many things!). And some were simply unfounded. In years past, I've been told several times I should kill myself. I've been offered a "boob job," told I should "stop writing such senseless drivel and stop the spread of the north American union" (whatever that is), and so much more attacks upon my spirit. Happily, for every unkind comment there are hundreds of beautiful, kind, and loving ones.

Somehow it is all too easy to forget the kind words and let the unkind ones stick... but only if we have "Velcro" for them, the angels say!

Most of you have seen Velcro It's a strip of fabric with tiny hooks on it, that almost every other piece of fabric will stick to - especially a matching piece of Velcro Our spiritual "Velcro" is our own pain, insecurity, and unclarity. If we were 100% rooted in peace and self-acceptance, we'd have none of this "Velcro" and no unkindness would "stick" to us at all! 

Even the hurtful folks serve a purpose. If they trigger our anger, they show us where we need to grow. While that is, admittedly, not an easy truth to embrace, they help us in our spiritual evolution. They show us where we are not yet in total self-acceptance, where we have not yet rooted our spirit in self-love, where we are not yet solid in peace, and stabilized in clarity.

Our job is not to stop the unkind souls by killing off their perspectives or ideas, or by making them wrong. Nor is it our job to immediately kill off our own ideas by deferring to all others. The fight/flight response IS biologically programmed into us, but we can rise above it. Our job is simply to own our own truth, let others have theirs, and walk away (with no Velcro!) from what does not resonate.

As we look at the unkind statements of the world, whether aimed at us or others, we can look for shreds and kernels of truth, look for the love the person is attempting to bring forth, and disregard the rest. 

This process is very much like digestion... and this is why I've had so many digestive problems as I learn to process the world's energies at greater levels!

Ideally, you take it all in, chew it all up, absorb what is useful, and release the rest! I know first-hand, from tough lessons, that when you don't exist in this natural flow of energy it hurts. When you are able, however, to leave your heart open, take it all in, savor what is good and true, and release the rest, you do indeed exist in that peace that surpasses all understanding
I'm not there all the time... but when I am it feels blissfully loving!

Here are a few tips to handle the unkindnesses of the world this week...

1. Look for kernels and shreds of truth
Try, if you can to look at the message and ignore the "packaging." If someone says something unkind, ask yourself, "Is there any bit of truth to it." Set your ego aside and see if there's anything to learn. 

The ego wants to be right. The soul seeks greater love and truth.

2. Look for the love the person is attempting to bring to the surface.

Most of the time, when someone attacks a perspective, they have a strong need for acknowledgment, solidarity, validation, or approval. If they were secure in their view they might come across firmly but they would not need to call names, belittle, or make wrong. They would simply share their perspective with conviction.

Caroline Myss, a great spiritual teacher once said, "True power is inspiring. False power is intimidating." I love that. I've seen it time and again.

So if someone has been mean-spirited or unkind to you, or you witness an attacking missive, pray. Ask to see through "Angel Eyes." "Show me what part of that person's soul needs love. Show me how they are trying to bring love to the surface". It takes surrender, prayer, and practice, but in time you may see the wounded child within, the frustrated angel, the person who cares so much it hurts...

When you see through "Angel Eyes" you can send light to empower that part of their soul that is good, beautiful and true.

3. Let it Go...

It doesn't nourish you to gnaw on a bone with no meat. I love dogs, and dogs love bones... but we're not trying to sharpen our teeth. So when you've done the previous two steps, and you've "digested" the love from an unkind exchange the next thing to do is release the unkind energies from the exchange... and let it go.

There are several ways you can do this: (1) Journal until you get out all your feelings and then burn, shred, or delete the pages. (2) Symbolically wash your hands and see the icky energy running down the drain. (3) Hold a stone or point your hands to the earth and drain off the angry energy into the earth. She neutralizes it. If you are willing, (4) pray for the person and yourself to find peace. Do this until you release any upset. It might take days in some cases, but the goodwill will eventually replace the upset. Love always wins if you let it.

And, if humor works for you, sing Disney's song from Frozen... "Let it Go! Let it Go!" 

The world is pretty stirred up now. Everyone has strong opinions. And while that is a good thing, not everyone is sharing them kindly. I hope this helps you find peace, even in the face of unkindness. 

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Pissy vibes, Peaceful prayers, & Thoughts on the World...

A Sunday morning rumination on undying love that lives within it all...

I woke up this morning after only 3 hours sleep craving a glass of water. The craving turned to one for Kombucha, which I do like, however I wasn’t awake enough to discern whether the new craving was coming from another or me. As I reached for the glass bottle in the fridge, an angry spirit pushed me. The glass bottle flew from my hand and shattered all around me. I remained unharmed. Not wanting to give the prickly, staticky vibration another bit of energy, I peacefully cleaned up the mess and prayed for whomever was sending this unkindness.  I celebrated the opportunity to clean my floors, and gave thanks for my life.  I prayed for the upliftment of all angry souls.  The light bulb above me started to hiss and wine and blew out!  I noticed the roses on the table had wilted and when I put my hands over them to send light I felt an angry spirit coating them spitefully.  I knew it was time for some big light and prayers to be sent, and walked through the house filling it with love and praying for whomever or whatever was sending me the unkindness to know God’s love or to leave.

This is my life.  This is part of what occurs when you attempt to leave vibrations that have been able to manipulate and derail you for centuries.  They just try harder for awhile, showing up in many different forms.  It doesn’t matter who or what form they appear in. Anger is anger. Unkindness is unkindness, and love is love. I knew someone was in need of love.

So I got my original glass of water, sat on the patio and prayed some more.

Afterwards I was contemplating the current anger on earth over the politics of the day, and praying that someday the world would come to know that the only way our outer dramas on earth would be solved permanently was to solve the inner dramas.  What we witness in the news today has gone on in ancient Egypt, ancient Rome, and  in and most governments throughout history.  We have cell phones and iThings and Internet now, and so we see what used to be hidden. History and herstory repeats.  As the angels say, “Earth is a school and the students cycle in and out but the classes tend to repeat until there is no longer a need.” 

We are the students here.  If we don’t want to see manipulation and lies, we must not allow our heads to manipulate our hearts. We must not lie to ourselves. If we don’t want to see bigotry, we must avoid judging even the judgmental.  If we don’t want hatred, we must learn to love ourselves… exactly as we are.

What I judge in another is always what I judge within myself.  What one judges in me is what they judge within themselves.

People ask me all the time, “How can that be.” I’m not a violent, angry person.  The angels respond, “You judge your anger and do not allow for it when it arises naturally. While we don’t encourage anger, sometimes it is there, and you don’t allow yourself to feel it. You feel less than Divine when it arises. And therefore you will always judge anger in others.”

People say, “How can I be bigoted,” and the angels will lovingly point out where we judge parts of ourselves as having “no right to be.”

People say, “I can’t stand the ignorant! I’m educated. How can that be a mirror?” and the angels kindly point out that the person would judge themselves when they don’t have all the answers, or when they made a mistake.

This mirroring of judgments is often subtle, rather than a direct and obvious mirror,  yet it is spiritual law.  At some level whatever we judge in another is what we have not yet owned and made peace with inside of ourselves.

I’ve seen many of my past lives and know this to be true within myself. I’ve been a spiritual innocent that was killed by those “in power” and so the next lifetime I incarnated “in power” to explore that ideology.  It was a thankless job. I found that the masses didn’t want to assume responsibility for their own lives but rather just wanted someone to fix their lives.  So I tried other lifetimes, both spiritual and material. I tried being an unobtrusive peasant but the one time I spoke my mind I was thrown in a dungeon and rotted to dust. 

I tried lifetimes of being “a normal person” and was horribly victimized in those because I attracted it. I carried within me a vibration and judgmental feeling that I had failed God in other lives and so I allowed others to beat me up as subtly, I had been doing to myself.  This lifetime, my angels told me that I argued about coming to earth. I didn’t want to come back to such an angry place and get attacked again, but they convinced me that if I could do so, avoid attacking anything within myself, and stand in my spiritual truth in spite of the varying opinions and unkindnesses… then I would not only help the earth, but achieve my own soul’s liberation as well.

It is easy to love in private, among kind souls. It is big growth to love in public when those who both hold you to impossible standards and those who disagree will attack. Luckily the love far outweighs the hatred and judgment, but the hatred and judgment stings nonetheless.

So there is always vibrational justice in the greater scheme of eternity.   Those who judge people of a certain religion will almost certainly reincarnate within that group in a future life.  Those who put down women or men will surely choose their next life as the ones they judge.  If we beat ourselves up without mercy, we may find ourselves attracting attack. If we feel we must martyr ourselves to be loving souls we will attract those willing to assist. There is always a vibrational match in this life and others.

This is not God’s punishment or cruelty. Reincarnation, and anything that happens to us in fact, does not occur because we get an “eye for an eye” but rather is a result of the soul’s desire to learn about loving those it did not love, and those vibrations within itself it once judged.

The soul seeks, through its many incarnations to find what it already and always has within it.  The Soul seeks “enlightenment” and tries to find “Love” only to find it already and always has been enlightened, and it is sourced and indelibly therefore, connected to love.  We are the ones we’ve been looking for, as the saying goes.  When we reach that space we see only love, feel only love, and feel the incredibly sweet bliss of Divine love no matter what is going on around us, we are free. We listen to our guidance and trust that we are where we need to be to contribute to the good of our own souls and the whole of creation.

I’m not there yet all the time. I have periods of time in this space and it is heaven on earth. It is my unfolding journey… and all souls’ journey… to eventually seek to reunite our awareness with the truth of our being, sourced in Love and the value of our individuality as created and directed, with love, by the Divine.

We are waves seeking an awareness of the ocean, colors seeking an awareness of the light that sources us. We are notes seeking to love all music created within us and by us.

We are nothing less than those we love… and those we judge.

So what do we do with this practically speaking?

Use those who bother or upset you as a mirror. Ask yourself, “What part of their vibration will I not love and allow for within myself?”  If you judge the angry, do you judge yourself less than worthy of love when you are angry? If you judge the bigoted, what part of yourself would you kill off, if only an errant thought?  If you judge a certain person, ask yourself, “If I knew their vibration lived within me,” because it does, “have I judged that” or “am I willing to love it into the light.”  We all have inner Trumps and inner Hillary’s. We have the inner Christ, which is our deepest truth, and the inner Lucifer, that urges us to hate, judge, and buy into illusions of separation.

These lower vibrations are certainly not our deepest truth, but we will never rid ourselves of their influence until we embrace, all that lives within us, with Love in its totality.  Can a screaming parent calm an angry child?  I witnessed this the other day in a store. A child was crying in upset and the parent, obviously tired and frazzled was loudly and angrily telling the child to be quiet. The baby screamed even more.  Another parent in a similar situation picked up their screaming child and had the emotional fortitude and strength of love to hold and hug their child in the midst of a monumental tantrum until the little one’s upset subsided and the baby rested and fell asleep in the arms of love.  We have these screaming children inside of us.

Within each of us, we have the hungry child, the tired child, the angry child, and the child that wants its way and screams when it doesn’t get it. Will we judge these children within? Will we angry at these parts of self, sending them slinking off into the background of our consciousness only to reappear at the next available opportunity, or will we instead, love that part of ourselves we don’t like until at long last it subsides, relaxes into the arms of love, and transforms into a higher state of being?

When you are angry, stop. Breathe. Ask yourself first, ”What is it I want to kill off within myself or another?” Next, ask, “What is it I’d rather see within myself or another.” Then bring those qualities to the surface in you, and in your life. You can’t change anyone else, but you can change a vibration within you, and for each soul willing to do so, our world truly evolves and becomes a better place.  Through a shift in vibration, we create a better, more evolved human race, one soul at a time.

The journey on earth is about you – your enlightenment, your connection the Divine, your willingness to embrace love, or not.  You could change everyone else, feed the poor, stand for political change, and while that is beautiful, good and loving, it is of merit, only if you do it with love.  For in truth, others will incarnate in this endless school called earth to learn from poverty, upheaval, etc., but if you LOVE, and truly allow your actions to come from Love, then the souls you love will know they too are worthy of love… and so will you know this as well. We will find ourselves and our “classmates” here in this life raised up in spirit, not just in body and life situation.

The political climate and state of the world is indeed tumultuous, chaotic, and filled with upset.  We get to choose whether or not we participate in these vibrations. You can be a peace-filled and loving activist or a hateful pacifist. What you do is of no consequence to the soul unless you do it with love.  So try… do your best, to first love yourself in these “uncertain” times and from that place of self-care and self-love you will be better able to contribute your love and light  - if not your “like” – to all souls equally. 

For in truth, no matter how the waves look – weak or strong, angry or peaceful –  they are all part of one Ocean. And we, no matter how we look, are all part of one love.

Love you all. Happy Sunday.