Saturday, December 31, 2016

Embracing the past

The angels sent so much love to you as I channeled their message today, that it reduced me to tears. I hope you can feel the energy behind the words.

Every year, on New Year's Eve, I take time to look back as the angels have taught me, to appreciate what I've done well and to acknowledge Love's attempts to surface in those things I'm not so proud of. It has been a year of deep growth, challenge, beauty, and change for me. 

I finished filming 84 episodes of Ann & the Angels this spring and can't believe how much we managed to pack into 21 months of filming. Looking back. I feel I've got my life's work to date online now, at least the core of it, guiding people through seven series that take them on a spiritual journey into Oneness. I couldn't be happier with what I've heard back from viewers in terms of the miracles and shifts in their perspectives and their lives. 

I got redirected more into the gazing than I thought I ever would. That energy still continues to scour my soul clean of illusions. In fact, the reason I take breaks from gazing online from time to time is that I am going deep within, dealing with the spiritual, physical, and emotional detoxes that such beautiful light seems to catalyze within me. I want to be a pure and clean vessel to the best of my ability and my body continues to be forged to allow for that. 

The desire to know the Divine intimately has grown ever stronger this year, and with it has come a commitment to love relentlessly. Being upset is now a driving call to love more deeply. Being uncomfy in my body is simply a wake up to examine where I am blocking love. Being anything less than joyful is a reminder that I'm not in truth at the moment. 

I've embraced, more deeply than ever this year, the power of being present to my heart and my joy in order to turn everything around in a heartbeat.

I've had human fun too! Through the generosity of others, I've travelled with free airline passes to meet out-of-state friends for lunch and flown back the same day! I've hiked waist-deep in crystal waters miles from anyone with just the glorious silence and beauty of nature around me. I've played with butterflies, hosted a visiting coyote in my backyard, enjoyed celebrations with dear friends, and walked for miles on the beach in stillness until I merged with the ocean and felt as if all of life was making love to my soul. 

I've struggled as well - to release my expectations of life and others. I've gotten my stomach all twisted up over unkindness, and relaxed deeply when I forgave what never even needed forgiveness. I've chosen to be kind to myself when others have not. I have worked very hard to focus more on being loving, and loving myself, than to focus on people and situations in the world that are less than loving.

I can't wait to see what the new year brings. I have big dreams, things I want to experience and contribute. We shall see how life unfolds. As always, I dance between my human desires and the calling within, and look forward to seeing where this marriage of human and spirit will take me! 

Here are a few tips to embrace the past year and open to the next... 

1. List 5 (or 500!) Things You are Proud of This YearSelf Appreciation Tunes you into Divine Love

Make a list of all you feel good about this year. It can be grand, like getting a degree or getting married, or it can be "tiny" in the eyes of the world – holding the door for a stranger, giving change to the person in line at the grocery store, or choosing to love yourself when you didn't feel so great. It can be cleaning out a drawer that bothered you or building a house. Scale does not matter. What matters is looking back at those moments where you chose to love yourself or contribute something to life. I bet you can come up with a very long list if you try! 

2. List 5 things you wish you could do better & Acknowledge the LoveLove is attempting to surface even in our painful & ungraceful moments 

Looking back over the year, find a few things you didn't enjoy, didn't feel proud of, or want to change. Before resolving to change, first take time to appreciate and acknowledge the fact that love was trying to surface. Can you find it?

In pain, for example, there is a need to slow down and look at what the body needs. In sadness is a need for comfort. In anger is a need for change. In all those situations that didn't work, love is whispering... 

3. What would you like your life to look like this time next year
Dreaming opens the door to guidance & miracles

Let yourself go... What would you LOVE your life to look like this time next year? Are you committed to it? You don't even have to know how to get there, but are you committed to focusing on this to exclusion of doubt, fear, discouragement, etc? Are you willing to believe? Are you willing to spend a few minutes each day imagining, feeling, breathing it in? Are you willing to act when guided... If the answer is yes, get ready for the loving ride of your life! 

I give thanks for a year well lived, a year where all of us witnessed a world in fear, a world of change, a world in which Love is attempting to surface through the chaos. We can find peace in simply acknowledging this love, focusing on it, and breathing it in. 

I wish you all the Most Magical & Miraculous New Year that you can dream, and an experience of Divine Love beyond your wildest dreams. I love you all so much and appreciate our journey together.

Saturday, December 24, 2016

Be the light, feel the love

I love Christmas. I have ever since I was a little child. The lights remind me of heaven. In the songs I feel hearts reaching out to share good cheer. In the food I find an excuse to nourish others. I love to give presents, not because material objects have meaning, but because the love behind them does, and I know when someone enjoys a gift, they are reminded that they are deeply loved.

It is Divine love that wants to pour through each of us into this world, and Divine love that is allowed to shine more clearly this time of year.

That said, I know there are many who don't feel special about the holidays. It seems to hurt if you've lost someone, feel alone or unloved, are going through a hard time, or just don't share the same enthusiasm for the glitz and glitter. We are all unique, and the greater the love on the planet, the more we feel everything else. 

I have spent Christmases alone. I felt sorry for myself, years ago, being so far from family, newly divorced and in an apartment that I decorated but not nearly as beautifully as the home I left. Most of my friends had abandoned me after my marriage ended and I left my job in engineering. I had only one friend left from my old life and a few new ones. I sat in meditation asking the angels how to make my Christmas beautiful and the thought came to invite my girlfriends over for a special Christmas eve dinner. It was simple, beautiful, and filled with love and laughter.

In choosing to love others I was choosing to love myself. In giving to others I received. In creating a special Christmas celebration for friends, one of whom admitted this was the Christmas she never had, I filled my heart and home with the spirit of the season. Twenty years later, these same friends and I still gather for a dinner over the holidays. We don't see each other too often otherwise. Our diets have changed and we no longer go crazy with presents, but the love and support for one another's journeys remain. The spirit of the season and our time together has carried our friendship throughout the years.

So if you find yourself among family and friends, count your blessings and send a shout of joy up the heavens. If you find yourself alone, reach out to others. Buy Christmas angel gifts, volunteer at a shelter for humans or animals, or sit in silent prayer for those not as well off. In giving we receive. In receiving we give. The cycle of love and life is most poignant in this season of light.

I often think of tonight's humble beginnings – a young, scared, unwed couple in a cold manger, giving birth without pain pills, without nurses and doctors, or even a bed – without anything but a trust in the process of life itself and the light that lives within us all. Can you imagine? 

Give thanks for the love in your life. If it isn't coming from others, give thanks for the love in your own heart, for we are never ever without the light in the darkness and the love that is birthed within us with each breath.

Here are just a few thoughts to make the season special...

1. Give the gift of sharing your heart with someone
Whether your share your love deeply with a family member, spouse, child, client, or total stranger, open your heart a tiny bit more and share the love within it. Say what you are normally afraid to say. Tell someone how much you admire them. Compliment a stranger. Offer hope and your faith to someone who is having a hard time. Give the gift of your love.

2. Receive Graciously

Don't just open your presents... open them with Presence. Hold them to your heart. Feel the love that the giver intended. Soak it up. Express your appreciation and, if you're as old-fashioned as I am, send a thank you note or email. Gracious receiving is a gift to all.

3. If you don't feel the spirit of the season, give yourself permission to create whatever type of holiday you wish

There are years of change, pain, grief, loss, when you just don't feel like celebrating. It is part of the human condition. Give yourself permission to abandon tradition and do whatever you feel is most kind to yourself, whether it is escape on vacation somewhere special, or to sit at home and clean the closets, or hold the hand of one soon to leave this planet. You don't have to follow tradition if that is not in your heart this year. Give yourself the gift of doing whatever you wish, traditional or not.

No matter what you celebrate, or whether you celebrate at all, I wish you a blessed, peaceful, and holy holiday. Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah may the light within your heart shine brightly.

I love you all,

Saturday, December 17, 2016

The way out is up

There have been many times in my life when I did not feel free. When I was working in engineering and wanting to get out, I felt trapped until the angels taught me to pour all my love into my job and the people I worked with. It was a fantastic lesson for me. I learned that choosing to bring love into a situation that I didn't like transformed it... and more importantly, transformed me. I discovered deep satisfaction in service, and after truly embracing this lesson, I was guided to quit.

There have been times I felt trapped in my body due to illness or pain. I once wrote a friend and asked for a few words of encouragement. "Fear not, we will not be in these bodies forever," he said. I laughed so hard! Of course I didn't want to wait until dying to feel better! Nonetheless, I knew he spoke truth and was reminding me to appreciate the experience of being in a body no matter what! The laughter itself began to heal me.

Now, I rarely feel trapped. The way "out" of a situation is always to go "up" in vibration – to find the good in each moment, and to bring as much love into the situation as you possibly can. In this reality you become a beacon for love everywhere you go, and sooner or later, in one form or another, love always comes back.

I had a beautiful example of that recently. Three years ago I was standing in a long line waiting to get into a Braco gaze in Portland. I knew it would be an hour wait. I was like a puppy waiting to go for a walk, because I was so eager to experience the energy. To pass the time, I started chatting with the gentleman behind me in line. It ends up he had just received a diagnosis of terminal cancer. I'm sure nothing could make a person feel more trapped than to hear you are in a body that is going to kill you. 

Nonetheless his attitude was amazing. I was inspired to inspire him. I told him all about Braco, how to best receive the energy, encouraged him to believe he would be healed. Another woman with wonderful energy and resources chimed in, also lending support and encouragement. The hour in line flew by, and soon we parted ways to find our seats. I saw him on and off throughout that day but never knew what came of him.

Last weekend I was in Santa Monica at a live Braco event. I saw a man who looked familiar sitting a few seats from me, but I couldn't figure out how I knew him. He got up in front of the room to share. "Three years ago," he said, "I had terminal cancer and I went to see Braco in Portland for the first time, not sure what to expect. I stood next to this lady named Ann and she told me all about him..." and he went on to share his story of receiving miraculous help and healing. I burst into tears. 

A boring wait in line turned into a chain reaction that not only helped this dear soul receive the energy that kept him alive, but now he was an advocate for others with cancer, helping them on their journey. His amazing attitude and willingness to receive freed him from the bondage of his disease. He came back to his seat, and in front of the whole room, we hugged and cried.

Here are a few tips to experience your freedom this week... 

1. When you feel trapped, remember, the way out of a situation is always to go up in vibration.
There is a tendency when we feel trapped, to desperately trying to figure out a way "out." Better to stop, breathe, and go "up" by raising your vibration. Ask yourself, "What is good about right now?" "How can I bring love into this situation?"

2. Choose thoughts that free you to create your future, rather than thoughts that enslave you to your past
Our conditioning can be like a jail cell that holds us captive in a very limited reality. "My life will never change." "I'll be stuck in this job forever." "I can't do what I want because I have to be there for others." I hear these things in my office frequently. 

In reality, these are conditioned beliefs. Question them. Are you really as trapped as you think? Ask friends for alternate solutions. Search the Internet for stories about people who have overcome the situations you feel trap you. Be open to new ways of thinking.

3. Imagine the reality you want to create

The minute you imagine and feel the reality you wish to create, you begin to vibrationally free yourself from present conditions and attract miraculous help from the universe. Free yourself to dream new realities!

This week, even with all its fun, obligations, and intense feelings that the holidays tend to bring, stop and breathe every now and then and remember you are eternally, in each moment, free to embrace a loving reality!

Saturday, December 10, 2016

What does love want

I was born almost directly between the two most opposite signs on the Zodiac. I barely squeaked into Aries. I'm inwardly sensitive, psychic, artistic, and emotional, while being outwardly strong, capable, intellectual, and no-nonsense. I like to joke that I'm "Bi-soul-ar!"

This frequently has me stuck in an almost humorous mental tug-of-war between opposites. I want to be with others, and I want to take off alone in nature. I want a cozy collection of decor in my house and yet I want it to be clean and orderly. I want to take charge and yet sometimes I wish someone else would... and so it goes. This used to drive me crazy!

Now however, when this inner conflict starts to grip me, I turn to the guiding light within, and ask, "God, Love, what do you want for me now? How do you want to be birthed within me?" I trust the first thought or feeling I get. Even if I can't figure out why I get a certain answer, it always makes sense later!

Last weekend, the folks that film my show were in Phoenix live streaming an amazing conference by the Academy for Spiritual and Consciousness Studies. They invited me to attend the conference during the weekend since I didn't have clients. It sounded fun. However, I desperately wanted to get out and going hiking... at the same time!

When I focused on my heart and asked "God/Love what do you want for me? Love how do you want to be birthed within me today," the answer was clear. "Go to the conference." I surrendered, trusted, and went.

It didn't take long to figure out why I was there. I connected with so many people, many of whom had died and come back to tell about it. Their energy was so loving I felt among family. I ran into the conference organizers with whom I also connected very deeply and to my surprise they invited me to speak at an upcoming event. I certainly didn't dream up that idea when I was stuck in indecision! God did.

This is how I live my life. I ask Love to guide me and I trust. Sometimes my guidance is obvious... I just feel like doing something. At other times I'm conflicted between too many good choices and I simply have to ask. In all cases, when I listen to my heart and my guidance, life flows in a magical, synchronistic, and beautiful way.

So this holiday season when we have so many choices, and so many things to do, take time to drop into your heart, and ask what love wants for you!

Here are a few tips to practice this week...

1. When you feel like doing something naturally, do it. When you don't, don't :)

That sounds so simple and obvious, and yet how many times do we want to rest and push through it? How many times do we have a sudden inspiration and feel like we have to finish a chore before we take action?

Try to listen to your natural impulses and inspiration and act on them.

2. When you feel overwhelmed, or indecisive, stop. Take a deep breath. Imagine focusing on your heart. Ask, "God/Love what do you want for me now? How do you want to be birthed within me?"

Just trust the first thought, feeling, image, or knowing you get. Guidance comes quickly and subtly and without any strong feeling attached.

3. Trust

Your guidance may or may not make sense. You may want to figure out a present for someone and be guided to rest instead. Maybe you'll wake up with an idea. Maybe you'll find one later. Maybe you'll be delayed and run into someone you need to meet! You may have plans but suddenly feel like changing. You may think you "should" do something but love dictates something else. The Creator has reasons we can't even see... Trust.

I love you all. Let love lead you this holiday season and you'll be filled with heavenly peace :)

Saturday, December 03, 2016

Open to adventure!

In early October, Braco – the man from Croatia whose gift of channeling energy through his gaze has transformed the lives of thousands – was in California for the premiere of a documentary about his life. Unfortunately the show was originally scheduled for the day before I taught a class in Sedona. There was no way I could attend. I sent out the signal to the universe, "I'd love to be there but I can't. Maybe next time." Soon I found out the date had changed to one day earlier! I was elated! I could fly to California Thursday morning, attend the even Thursday night, fly back Friday and drive to Sedona the following day to teach my class!  

A dear client gave me free standby airline tickets. I found a cheap motel. I got tickets for the event to the late show and later when a dear friend couldn't go, she gave me her tickets to the early one. I was going to meet friends early for coffee then lunch, and just see what showed up in terms of which show I would attend and who I'd go with. Everything seemed like such a beautiful plan. 

I got off the plane and the friends I was going to meet for coffee had a change in plans. So I did as I always do and went inward. The guidance was to sit at a coffee shop and review my class material. In the two hours hadn't anticipated having free, I rearranged the class to be more to my current state of understandings and was quite pleased with it! Sitting outside of a coffee shop;, enjoying the cool California air wasn't a bad place to work either!

My friends showed up and to my surprise one of them told me she was going with me to the Braco event. We left for Hollywood early and had a delightful afternoon skipping along the stars on the sidewalks, exploring vintage clothing shops and finally making our way to the premiere. Neither one of my tickets was on the books so they let us in to the early show. Innocently we, and a few others, went to the theater early and got good seats before they let everyone else in. 

Braco came out for a live gaze after the movie, and once again I surrendered completely to the adventure, trusting God to bring through whatever I needed. Before he even walked out, my energy expanded way beyond my physical body and began pulsating as if I was a giant heartbeat in an infinite energy field. I turned to light and watched him turn to light then saw everyone else dissolve in a sea of white light... while only eyes connected. I would have been satisfied with this miraculous day as it was, but the icing on the cake was meeting friends for a dinner I had not expected.  

I got on the standby flight the following morning without a problem, flew home, studied for the class and was filled with energy to teach the following day!

Life can be such an adventure when we dance with it, releasing ourselves from plans if things look differently and just anticipating that God is up to something good!  

Here are a few tips to enjoy life as a joyful adventure this week... 

1. Make your plans but if something doesn't look as you wish, open to the loving adventure of life
If something doesn't go according to plans, rather than assuming the worst, wallowing in disappointment, or fretting that everything is ruined, stop. Take a breath. Ask a simple question, "OK God, what do you want for me right now?" Trust the answer.

2.Assume the best

The Divine and the angels really do want to love us more than we could ever possibly even begin to imagine! Think of someone you love. Think of how much you desire to share with them, how much you want to give them, how much you would love to make their lives easier. Now multiply that by infinity and you'll know how loved we all are! Its nearly inconceivable!

However, there is one catch! We have to stop trying to control how everything must look! By all means, intend what you want but be open to more. Assume you are being guided always to the most loving experience. Adopting this attitude alone, this truth, will change your life! 

3. Listen to your own heart, even if it disagrees with your own plans

Sometimes we think we really want to do something and then we change our minds. You get all dressed up to go out and figure out you don't really feel like it. You have this huge ambition to send holiday cards but then you think of something more fun to do. You dream of cooking a "Martha Stewart" meal but you really just want to order out and spend time with friends. Let your heart rule your head even if that means changing your plans!

Here's a wish for a blessed and joyous beginning to the holiday season. May it bring us all a more loving adventure of life!