Saturday, April 25, 2015

Just add love

Last week's health adventure ended up being a huge blessings. If I had to do it all over again, I would have made different choices and not put myself through the incredibly painful ordeal. But as the saying goes, "When you have lemons, make lemonade." I figured if I had placed myself in such a position, I was going to make good use of the opportunity to grow.

So while I was awake and fasting for five days, because you just can't sleep in that condition, I took a lot of time in silence, chatting with my body and learning from its wisdom. I spent time with every little ache and pain, not to mention the big ones, and asked my body to talk to me. I asked it to tell me what emotions it was storing and stuffing and how to release them. I spent hours in the middle of the night in deep silence, just listening... and I learned a lot about areas in my life where I still harbored self-judgments, where I was still trying to like people I did not, where I was not taking care of myself. It was a real eye-opening education.

After one particularly intense discussion with a rather large fibroid that has grown and shrunk throughout the years, I reached the core of its wisdom. Within 24 hrs, this painful growth, that has been with me for over fifteen years,simply disappeared. It didn't just shrink. It was gone, without a trace. I've prayed for this with all my heart but I had never quite been able to get to the heart of the matter. I had been holding judgments against myself for less than loving relationships I had over two decades ago, and when I saw that and forgave myself, the hardened energy left me entirely and abruptly. I simply had to soften up towards myself.

It is amazing how quickly things can change when we find the areas in which we haven't loved ourselves, and choose to bring the love back into the situation. I have experienced, and witnessed, numerous physical miracles such as these. I have had my entire life suddenly change to become more abundant and joyful. I have had miracles flow through me suddenly when I shifted my view of my own spirit. The past only exists insofar as we carry it with us. When we release it into the present state of love, it dissolves, along with all its unpleasant side effects.

So this week, see if you can find something in life that pains you, whether it is a physical or emotional condition, a situation, or a circumstance. Ask repeatedly, "What is this trying to teach me?" Write down the answer. Ask again, and again, and again until you feel the energy within you shift, until you feel love flood your being. Then witness the miraculous changes that come about in your life. As the angels like to say... Instant healing... just add love :)

Saturday, April 18, 2015

Live, learn, love!

Totally embarrassing. I did it again. I let a nasty energy surprise me, freak me out, and twisted my intestines late last week. Not fun for a spiritual teacher to admit she hasn't quite learned a lesson. Nonetheless, although it would have been easier to whine and feel sorry for myself, as painful, and un-fun as the situation was, I did as the angels preach, and asked myself, "OK, what did I learn? Where is the love?"

For starters I'm learning to swim in some really big energies that require me to listen to my guidance, body, mind, and heart impeccably. I was guided not to open up the website of a person who has been very unkind to me in the past. I clearly heard the guidance strongly right before I did, "Don't go there," Yet driven by curiosity, I didn't listen. A powerfully negative force came at me in such a startling way that it affected my entire body. I woke up the next morning looking like a walrus and in deep pain. I've been there before, and I know how to heal. Dear souls came forth to pray and offer assistance, but I took most of the time in silence to look at myself and to really dig into the areas in my life where I was still letting old patterns that don't work,hurt me or hold me back.

About four days into this adventure, while still in pain, and hadn't eaten or slept much, etc., something guided me to go outdoors. By this time I was listening to every little nuance of guidance! "This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad!" I heard the angels singing the quote in my head that I knew so well from my childhood. I felt it to the core of my being. Yes, it was a beautiful spring day. Yes I was in pain but so what! Look at those roses blooming! Look at the primrose. Listen to the birds. Feel the wet grace even as I waddled around. The sun was warm. The breeze cool. Let us rejoice and be glad indeed! I was alive! Suddenly Love flooded me. I felt joyous in spite of the discomfort and knew healing was on the way. Love does cure all.

So by all means, when things get tough, give yourself time for a human reaction, then as soon as you are ready, willing, and able, find the love. It colors your life with grace.

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Loving others & self

I thought I knew what love was before I started working with angels. I was conditioned to think it was being nice, making people comfortable, showing affection in certain ways, etc. However, after years of working with angels, I know a deeper love and that is, as they have described this week, to see the innocence and the light within people, no matter what they show me in the moment. That never means you have to stay around someone unloving, nor does it mean you have to enjoy people's choices. It simply means that beneath it all you can acknowledge the innocence and the light.

For example, I made plans with a friend recently, and was all excited about giving them a big Easter basket loaded with goodies. I planned, shopped, and baked a basketful of goodness. At the last minute, my friend canceled. In my past I would have been disappointed, and upset. I would have felt like I wasted my time making the gifts, and would have been frustrated that there was no time to make other plans. Instead I was happy for my friend who had decided to take some personal time to rest. I saw the light there tending to the soul. It was a good thing.

As for me, I trust God. Instead of moaning about how the Easter basket ingredients would be wasted, because many were perishable, I simply said to God, "OK, what do you want me to do with all this?" I got the guidance to freeze some of the things I made so I'd have extra food when I was busy. "OK God, what are Your plans for me, since mine didn't work?" I got guidance to take some of the baked treats to the Botanical Garden and share them with the beautiful souls who were working there. It was such JOY to see their faces light up.

I still had a basket and candy left to give. I prayed again, "Send me the person you want to receive the rest of these goodies." Right as I got home, a dear client was stopping by to drop something off. The angels got in my head, "Give her the Easter basket." She was thrilled and we both enjoyed the heavenly synchronicities at work.

There are times when people will disappoint you, or you will disappoint yourself. I've disappointed myself so many times! I've made choices that have resulted in serious physical conditions that could have derailed my work, my show, or as some have pointed out to me, even my life! But I chose to look at myself as the angels do, a work in progress, light seeking to reveal itself, and sometimes just a normal human female whose choices could be so much better :)

So go easy on yourself this week - look for the light and love trying to emerge even when you think you've made a mistake. And then see if you can extend that awareness to others too because no matter how awkward, the love within everyone is seeking to find its way to the surface. It truly does feel better to love!

Saturday, April 04, 2015

Keep the faith

I used to be a "do it yourself-er." I learned to pray for the big things in life, for the things that we learned were "holy," for family, friends, and everyone else. But when it comes to asking for things for myself, I had to learn to turn to God rather than trying to make my own dreams come true. One by one I learned to surrender to the higher power that loves us more than we can imagine.

The angels' message this week reminds me of a story from years ago. The first time I taught manifesting I decided I'd demonstrate the concepts to the class by creating a vacation where I'd learn something about shamanism - native spirituality. I had no idea how I'd afford it, where I would go, or even how I'd find such a thing! But it was in my heart for some strange reason, so I said, "Yes please God. Show me the way," and waited. Weeks passed and a beautiful vacation in South America led by a shaman I'd read about came to my attention. It looked perfect, and was affordable! I signed up. Within a few weeks, it was canceled. The voices of doubt began to rise from within. "Are you crazy? Maybe you're not supposed to do this. Where are you going to get the money for another trip? Do you even have a passport?"... and so on. I spoke faith. "No, God is going to show me the way. I'll get my passport. I just need to be patient." I waited.

Another trip came to my attention, this one to Peru. A shaman I had met at a conference years ago called to tell me he was taking a small group on a tour of the ancient mysterious spots in Peru and Bolivia. I wanted to go with everything in my heart. I told him I didn't know how I'd afford it but would get back to him if the way was revealed. The day I had to let him know I had the urge to go to the mail box. In it was a statement from some stock I had purchased years ago. The stock was worthless for years. This year it issued dividends - enough, exactly, for me to go to Peru!

And while vacations and stuff hardly seem like "holy" pursuits, according to the way I was raised, the angels point out lovingly that anything offers us a chance to grow in greater faith and greater love. So if you want something trust God. Speak words of faith in the love and goodness of the creator. Trust divine timing.

It is so easy to give up on our dreams, our hearts, and ourselves, simply because we don't see proof that what we desire is coming to fruition. But as the saying goes, "Faith is belief in things unseen." And as the angels remind us, it feels better to love! It feels better to expect good in your life! We don't because we fear disappointment, but if we don't have faith, we guarantee disappointment! Give love a try this week... this month... this year. Have faith in a God that is nothing less than a greater love than any of us can possibly imagine. Mm... truth feels good!