Saturday, February 28, 2015

Look for the best

I've said this before. I often jokingly pray when things do not look as my wish, "OK God, you know what you're doing!" I accept that even when life doesn't look "perfect" or "as I wish." In that simple acknowledgment and that simple choice to believe I AM loved, things flow with amazing grace, no matter what the situation. It is a discipline we practice, to trust in this love, one choice after the next, in all things great and small. It is a mental muscle that we flex, that makes us strong in our ability to choose love one moment at a time and therefore to have a happier experience of life.

As I created and filmed my next Series of "Ann & t he Angels" which is on "Living in the Flow of Grace" I challenged myself to practice this discipline even more deeply, and as a result everything flowed so beautifully. I waited until I was impulsed to put episodes together. In spite of what appeared to be "reasonable" I took time off, slept when tired and stayed up when not.

While filming, I surrendered any need for a rigid schedule and when timing changed here and there I found it worked to my advantage. A late start gave me time to rework an episode. The urge to go to bed early when I "should have been" studying my episodes one night, turned out extremely well as I was awakened at 2:30am by some very happy people in the hotel room above mine!!! So I studied in the middle of the night instead, napped when they quieted down, and awoke refreshed.

These are small silly examples, but when you trust that love is present in all things, then you stop wasting your time on drama and resisting life, and start to dance with it instead. When I have a big bill, rather than whining, I say, "OK God, you have a bill. Let me know what to do when." I trust, and it has always worked out just fine. When someone is unkind, by all means, allow yourself your feelings, but then get on with life. They said what they said, did what they did... now what? Now what is the next most loving choice you can make, first to honor your own bright spirit and then by default theirs too. Sometimes honoring a person's spirit means you will not dignify their darkness. You turn away, set a healthy boundary, allow yourself the grace of knowing that you can choose kindness.

So this week give it a try. Dance with life. When something you don't like happens, do the most loving thing for yourself that you can think of then and there, whether it is a kind thought, turning away from insanity, or just projecting love. There isn't only one right and wrong way to live life. There is only a loving and unloving way. And as the angels say over and over... "Love feels better."

Saturday, February 21, 2015

It all leads to love

One of my favorite country songs is “God Bless the Broken Road” because it talks about how every perceived failure, every tough relationship, every thing on the path leads to love. From my own life experience this is true beyond measure. I spent four years in college and eight in a career I didn’t love and yet the skills I learned there enabled me to live in a grounded way and support myself while having my head in “the clouds” talking to angels most of the time! I lost a marriage, a home, a life and found my soul. I spent a decade in really tough and abusive relationships and as a result, learned to learn to truly love myself and help others do the same. I spent four years nearly killing myself taking care of my aging dogs and found a strength and ability to love that was so beautiful I am still moved to tears by the gift I was given.

Often life doesn’t look the way we want. Sometimes we make choices that hurt us. Sometimes other bring their dark and nasty energy into our space. But if we just keep choosing love, choosing to keep our hearts open, at least to ourselves, then we are guided, as the angels say, into streams of grace and back to a greater love.

I once had a night in which my entire support structure fell apart within minutes. I had been guided to meditate and do a kind of life review in which the angels asked me to look at my life and appreciate everything and everyone in it. I went out that night and sat under the moon by the swimming pool, shut my eyes and went into a state of being very much like we do in the afterlife, where key points in my life flashed before my eyes and I witnessed them all with gratitude and grace. I felt wonderful! Life felt beautiful! By the time I finished, I was humming with life and grateful for everyone and everything in it.

I went to answer emails and in the next five minutes discovered that almost everyone in a group of people I considered dear friends had been talking behind my back, judging me and my work. In the very next email I discovered that my other primary group of friends was judging and criticizing me for the fact that I had chosen to heal my soul before I focused on the healing of a physical condition. My emotional world, which only minutes before had been at an all time high, crumbled into pieces.

To make a long story short, misunderstandings were healed with difficult but honest conversations. My real friends stayed in my life. We became more authentic and deeply honest, and as a result, more loving. Those individuals with whom I could no longer resonate with, fell away. Did I grieve? Yes, absolutely, I grieved. But at the same time my life became cleaner, clearer, and more filled with authentic love.

I am blessed right now to be feeling wonderful in my life. I’ve had all sorts of illnesses, betrayals, disappointments, and incredible, unthinkable darkness aimed at me. I've made plenty of what we call "mistakes" and had more than my share of what we call "failures." (The angels call these learning experiences!) However, no matter what was going on I always turned back to the fact that God was there, the angels were there, and love was there, just waiting for me to sincerely ask for help. All I had to do to get back into the streams of grace was to keep my heart open and choose love again and again and again, for myself first, then for all involved.

As our mental muscles becomes stronger, the trials pass more quickly, the darkness does not beat us down, and our "mistakes" and "failures" no longer become just cause for us to crucify ourselves. Thee disappointments and betrayals become nothing more than a broken glass of water to be cleaned up and swept away... to make room for the love that is always there; the Divine Love that is just waiting to be poured into a new and beautiful container in our lives.

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Living in love!

People ask me all the time if I’m “in love” and I giggle and answer, “Yes! I’m in love with life!” Years ago I thought being “in love” meant having to have someone special who would validate me, support me, share joy with me, and make my life easier! But I signed up for a different set of lessons and they’ve made my life so amazing that I wouldn’t trade them for the world. Love IS everywhere.

When I take a bit out of an apple, sip some good coffee, or taste the sweet tart amazing grace in fresh orange juice, I feel the amazing love the creator has for us in that one sip or that one bite. When I go out in nature I feel embraced, not just by human hands but by the solidity of the earth, the expansiveness of the sky, the quiet caress of the breeze and the intangible but nonetheless real energy given to us by the trees. When I hug a dog, a friend, a client, a family member, or a stranger, I remember that I am Love looking into the eyes of Love. Truly God is in a dance with him/herself in all the beautiful faces of creation.

So practically speaking, when you get lonely, or feel down, or want someone to love you, that’s beautiful! There is a natural human desire for the warmth of companionship and shared existence, but don’t forget – Love does not wait for a date! Love does not reside or hide only in the eyes and face of another. Love is present in all of creation!

The angels taught me a very simple, humorous exercise once. Some of you have heard this. I was stuck in traffic one day, feeling rushed and unloved and they said, “Ann pretend that Stop sign is the love of your life.” I thought they had really gone crazy, but I know everything they guide me to do has purpose, so I went along with the game. What would I do with the love of my life? Well I’d admire and be grateful for everything about them. So I looked at that stop sign and summoned up all the love within me and proceeded to admire it. I admired its color, its shape, the bright contrasts of the letters, the strength of the metal holding it together…and before long this silly angel game, had drawn out the love from within and had it pouring through me. I had to laugh. They challenged me another day to go about my entire day that way, imagining that everything I came in contact with was “the love of my life.” I can’t even describe how silly, how fun, and how amazing I felt. They reminded me later more seriously, “Ann the vibration of love, is the vibration of love, no matter how you find it or cause yourself to feel it. Love is love and love is what you are all made of.”

So play some loving fun games with creation today. If you have a human (or furry, feathered...) love of your life in front of you admire and appreciate everything about them. Make that a game. If you’re around someone who is irritating and don't like their bad habits, imagine those are the best habits in the world. I had a friend once who was being very cranky. I decided to love him as I would a little grumpy child. “You’re so cranky! You just need a hug!” Suddenly he was trying so hard to hang on to his grumpiness but couldn’t! We burst out laughing. Another time a man I was dating in my younger years was yelling at me, as he did every day, and suddenly I was able to find the love. I started giggling at the absurdity of the tantrum and felt compassion. “Why are you laughing?” he demanded. “Because you’re so angry and you’re yelling at me and its so silly! You’ve been mad since childhood. I’m so sorry you’re so mad. Its not about me.” I started laughing more, probably from feeling the freedom of not taking it personally. He couldn’t stay angry. He burst out laughing. “You’re right,” he said! “I’m mad at my mother.” From this realization he was able to do some healing!

Love is the most amazing catalytic, creative force in the universe. There are times when it is so easy to summon up within us - when faced with beauty, kindness, and the love of others. There are times when its not so easy and the best we can do is first love ourselves enough to get away from the unpleasantness. But in any case, as the angels say, Love is Love!

Happy Valentine’s to those of you who celebrate. I love you! Shut your eyes and see if you can feel it... I'm so grateful we're on this journey together!

Saturday, February 07, 2015

Love... because it feels good

I post inspirational messages on Facebook every day. Like my newsletters, I often queue them up in advance when I know I'm going to be busy. It always fascinates me to get to the day in question and discover that what I have “randomly” written speaks clearly to my heart and the issues of the day!

On the first Monday of the new year, the message I had queued up in advance was simple - Happy First Monday of 2015! Instead of groaning and saying, "Oh, back to work," try this out: "Oh! Another day to live and love and laugh and create and enjoy dancing through life."

It struck me, when I read what I'd written, that every day is another day to live and love. It is a privilege to wake up and breathe! I decided this year that I would make every act an act of love, and when I started rushing around, I promised myself I would slow down and focus on putting love into what I was doing once again.. no matter what.

So here I am today, with an entire series of Ann & the Angels, plus 12 new outfits to create, the need to create several newsletters, new Facebook posts, and work full time, among other things I must do to remain in balance, maintain a home, deal with unkind people, etc. Instead of feeling rushed, stressed, and thinking too much about how I am going to get it all done, I started to just surrender to love.

I really do love connecting with the angels and all of you. I love the shows I’m creating and what they are doing for people. I am not a fan of the logistics involved so I'll just find creative ways to love the grunt work too! When I clean my home I think of it as loving my home. I fill it with positive energy and it loves me right back. When I randomly think of people who have been cruel and upsetting to me, I stop and realize that, even in their cruelty, they were coming from their pain. I say a prayer and send them love. Every time I start to worry about how on earth I’m going to get it all done and still find time to sleep, I’m making myself stop, and focus on love again.

By choosing love, over and over, I feel God’s love flowing through me, more strongly than ever before. I’ve felt nothing but bliss even when there was ill intent aimed my way. I’ve been able to breathe deeply, sink deeply into the moment and find new levels of productivity. Best of all, all those things we think we need to be happy disappear from our concern when we are happy… and then they come anyway. We’re no longer getting in God’s way with our fears.

So try it this week. Keep choosing love. Flex that mental muscle… and feel the bliss that comes with loving, not for the sake of being loved back, but simply because it feels amazingly good to have love flowing through you!