Saturday, October 24, 2015

Trusting

Years ago when I wrote "Love is the River: Learning to Live in the Flow of Divine Grace." the angels gently reminded me that if the Divine could handle my breathing, the Divine could also handle my life. It seems so simple. And yet it is so easy to get worked up about all we must handle in life. How are we going to pay the bills, fit the things in that we want to do, get our work done, be with our friends and families? it all seems quite overwhelming at times.

So the minute I start to feel overwhelmed, I slow down. I stop. I breathe deeply and remind myself that there is a force that gives me life, that loves me, that planted the desires in my heart that I am now trying to fulfill, and who wants to help me fulfill them. I stop, breathe, and ask, "OK God what do you want for me now?" and then I pay attention to what is in my heart right then and right there.

This week on my home office day I was tired. In addition to a lot of driving and a lot of work, I had been watching Braco's Online gazes last weekend and as always when I participate in stretching my capacity to give and receive energy, it takes awhile for my body to acclimate to the new flow.

I woke up with grandiose plans! I wanted to work on the next series of my show, do my newsletter, get to my phone calls, and manage a whole lot of other office work. I got quite a few things done when I started to feel as if I could not keep my eyes open. I know better than to push. I stopped, breathed and said, "OK, God, What do you want for me now?" I got the "spirit call" as I call it - it feels like pressure on my third eye - and then it feels like I am being drawn inward. I laid down quickly and was instantly I was out of body and dreaming. Of course, later, the rest of my work got done, but had my mind planned my day, a nap would not have been included!

This has been happening a lot lately. As I learn to surrender more while gazing to let more healing love through my body, I am also learning greater levels of surrendering my plans in my life. I am learning to trust the divine coordination more and more. I am learning to trust more deeply that if God puts something in me, all the strength and resources I need will be given if I just keep trusting. I've gotten over the "who me?" question about the healings. It isn't the "Ann" me. Its the power that runs through us all. I've gotten over, "Where will I find time?" and am just making time because it compels me to do so. I will have to work with God and the angels to be more efficient. I have no idea how! They do! There are many more questions I have around this – both emotional, practical. and financial, and yet I'm surrendering those to God too. Can I handle the growth that will come of it on my end? Can we somehow pay for the streaming and bandwidth used? God must think so. Am I committed enough to deal with all that will come of this – both the beauty and the challenges. With God I am.

So when you don't know how to handle a challenge, or a dream, or something in your heart, stop and breathe and ask what to do, right here and right now.Guidance is always best in the moment. Trust that when we don't know how to do something, God does. When we don't know how to handle something God does. When we don't think we have the resources, God knows how to provide. I'm still going deeper and deeper into this reality. It isn't always easy between the ears, but I can vouch for the fact, that the more I trust, the more the love deepens, and the more I get out of the way and allow the Creator of the Universe to demonstrate that truly, "All things are possible with God."

Love you all! Have a blessed week. Perhaps I'll "see" you on the streams on Wednesday :) We've tried to include times that might be convenient for various time zones!

And this is hilarious! I "accidentally" sent the message Sunday and heard from a ton of people that it was perfect timing! Minutes later plans for Monday got rearranged! Too funny!

Ann

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