Saturday, July 25, 2015

Keeping it real

It struck me one night as I visited the backyard that I’ve been accepted as part of its ecosystem. What an honor! The pigeons wander around my chair as I sit and eat on the patio, and just walk away from me when I get up to walk around. The butterflies do fly by’s and occasionally attempt to land on me! The hummingbirds and I sit in quiet respect for one another. Even an angry big black bee settles down when I speak to him, “Hey! What’s up? I love you!” He lands and looks me in the eye! It amazes me how all aspects of God’s creation regard one another with curiosity and wonder when we are all just accepting ourselves as is. In nature, I feel complete acceptance. I am nothing lesser than anything else and nothing special. I am just an integral part of the whole.

Amidst the diversity of humanity it is a little more challenging to be ourselves. I have learned to do so over the years, by degrees. When I started writing this newsletter, I tried to sound educated, smart, like I had it all together, but that left quickly! The angels told me to be real and to my surprise the more real I got, the more everyone enjoyed the work and told me they found value in it. Well not everyone! The more real I got the more I got a few scathing criticisms too. That's the nature of being real. Many will love you and some will walk away in hatred, disgust, or condemnation. As the angels say, let them go. They're not your tribe.

Happily when you are real, people sort themselves out around you. If some leave, don't chase them and work harder trying to earn their love. Real love, must be given freely. Bless and release them. You want people in your life who accept you the way you are, naturally.

I now prefer only people who are honestly themselves in my private life. I'll never forget when I was forming a friendship with a soul who is now one of my best friends. I brought him some Christmas cookies. He liked most of them but upon eating one he promptly spit it out! I must have looked shocked because he started laughing and apologized. "I'm sorry. I just don't like the dry kind of cookies," he said! I started laughing too and knew we'd be awesome friends. I could trust him to be real with me even when it might not be something I'd want to hear. He was both honest and kind, and completely comfortable with himself. I like that sort of authenticity! Another person might have decided then and there that this wasn't the kind of friendship they wanted. As the saying goes, "Each to their own," but if we are honest with ourselves we know where we naturally fit, and we know who naturally fits our life and who does not!

So this week, try to be honest with yourself and life. That doesn't mean telling everyone else what you think they should do! It simply means sharing your heart about what you think, how you feel, etc. with no attachment to agreement whatsoever. See what happens. Many relationships will deepen and some may drift or drop away. But in the end you discover your place in the greater ecosystem of humanity. In the end, it is a joy to attract people who naturally love you as you are, and to release the ones that don't.

Saturday, July 18, 2015

Some dreams take time

I often joke that we live in a "fast food" society. I don't mind fast food and I'm not judging it, but the phrase seems to apply to how we live. It seems like many have become dependent on instant gratification. We've grown impatient, and therefore anxious. We want what we want here, now, immediately. While that is natural when we're excited about a dream, it is not natural to feel as if we've failed, God has failed, or life has failed if our dreams don't happen instantly. Nature has seasons. Fruit has to ripen. Rains have to fill the streams. Not everything was designed to happen instantly. It is beautiful and fun when it does, but some things are better when created over time.

Sometimes we must grow into the person who can handle the dream we are dreaming.

When I was working 90 hours a week in engineering I wanted to quit and have a new career instantly! I wanted out of there! I wanted the pain and suffering of working so much to end. What I didn't realize is that I wasn't ready for my new career yet. I had to learn to bring love to the moment, to embrace the gifts of my present situation, to be a leader, to deal with diverse and often negative personalities, etc. Had I known how to do all that back then I would have had an instant change! But I didn't. I had to grow into the kind of person who could handle being self employed, working amidst the world's pain and grief on a daily basis, etc. It took time for me to ripen into the person who could handle the dream I was dreaming of a new and loving career. I had to grow spiritually, emotionally, professionally... Had I just dreamed of a different job I'm convinced that would have happened more quickly.

Likewise my dream of getting my work out to the world took time - a lot of time! Again I had to grow into the person who could handle being in public. I had to learn to love myself so when people wrote in with nasty attacks it would not cause me to shrivel into my shell and quit my work. I had to learn to love others enough to act with grace and dignity and to send love, in such cases. I had to learn that I was not a body so even when I didn't feel I looked so great I could get in front of a camera and share good material.

I have seen so many clients, who were terribly impatient, look back and realize they too had to "ripen" before ready for their dreams. Some had to learn to manage money before they made more. They would have given it all away and wasted it, had more come earlier. So many have to learn to love themselves before being in a relationship or even the best of relationships would have fallen apart in the face of the pain and neediness they carried inside. At times I've seen people who thought they wanted one thing, grow and figure out there was something deeper, richer, and more satisfying that they wanted – a woman who wanted a man to help her survive for example grew into a self-sufficient person who wanted true love. A man who wanted a woman just to keep him company found satisfaction in the company of friends and realized he wanted a real partner. Someone who wanted to create a job that they thought they "should" want realized they just wanted to work for someone else and rest outside of the 9-5 workday.

So when your dreams don't come right away, live now! Love the moment and work happily towards them or re-evaluate them to see if they're really what you want. When you really want something, its worth the growth, the work, the effort. But when struggle and misery are present, backup, go in and see what's in your heart, right here and right now. We all need little tune ups. We all need time for some dreams to ripen. Fast food is great, and so is instant gratification when its really gratifying. But sometimes, some dreams take time... As the angels like to say, "A slow simmer makes a savory stew."

So if you feel you are working hard at anything, take a step back and remind yourself.. I love what I'm working towards. And if you don't ask what you might love more.

... And I am laughing right now. I just looked at how long this article turned out to be. I guess it was worth the time and effort to read it if you are still with me! The angels are giggling too!

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Love and trust

A few weeks ago I flew on standby flights on a short little vacation. The way it works is that you show up at the airport, get on a list, and hope there's room on the flight. Flying out, there was plenty of room. Flying back was a different story. I was #8 on the list of a flight that was pretty full. There were no guarantees, the agent told me. If I didn't get on, I'd have to buy a ticket at full price for the next one because there weren't many seats on that one either.

So I gave it to God. "Ok God, I'd like to get on this flight. If not I'd like you to pay for the ticket I'll have to buy somehow.I surrender." I visualized myself getting on the flight, surrendered that if I didn't it would all be ok, and proceeded to transmit loving energy to everyone in the terminal. My heart felt huge! The energy was running through me like a river, and I started to feel joyous. Everyone started to look like family! Suddenly the gate agent called my name. "You're on!" she said. I had a second of doubting my good fortune. In that SECOND of doubt, an employee of the airlines walked up. "I'm sorry," the gate agent told me, "We have to put him on first. Maybe you'll still get on." I started to berate myself for doubting, then realized I'd never get on the plane with an attitude like that. I went back to visualizing myself walking on the plane, surrendering to a higher will at the same time, and sending love. Within minutes the agent turned to me. "Well, you're in luck!" she said. "We had a no-show!" I got on the free flight, reminded to stay in that blissful space of love and trust, always sharing my preference with the universe, but surrendered to anything wonderful God chose for me. Truly we do fly when we live in that reality!

So when you really, really want something in your life, picture it or feel it as if you KNOW and believe it will happen, and at the same opt to believe that if God has better that looks different you are just going to choose to trust! Then just love your now. Send love to those around you. Find something or someone to love. Grab a cup of coffee, a piece of fruit or chocolate! Enjoy a color you see around you... loving your now lets love stream into your life and that current carries you to joy! Sometimes I get my way this way. Sometimes I do not. But in all cases, Love gets its way and that is always a wonderful feeling!

Saturday, July 04, 2015

Eternally free!

I have mentioned this before. I once heard the Dalai Lama interviewed. Someone asked him why he didn't hate those who had taken over his country. His reply was illuminating. He said that they had taken his country, killed his people, ... but he was not going to give them his mind. He was free to love. I try to remember this always.

My life circumstances the past few years have presented many challenges, especially in the health arena. I take responsibility for these and yet the after-effects have been less than fun. I can't eat most bread - even gluten free. I can't each much sugar. There went two of my greatest pleasures! I can't hike in my beloved forest in the summer at the moment because my allergy to poison oak has gotten enormous and I don't like the itching. I won't list of the rest, but there are just a lot of life's pleasures that seem to be taken away. Sometimes I have felt trapped by circumstances, finances, etc... But the angels, always remind me that the mind is free.

So rather than whining over what I can't have and can't do, I find other things to love! Check out the recipe below for sugar free cherry chocolate yogurt Popsicles! I would never have sought out healthier ways to eat and treat myself had I not had these limitations. Not being able to connect with nature as easily during the heat means I have to connect with the light of God more directly on a regular basis. So no matter what comes, we always have love available.

I remember feeling utterly trapped in my job in engineering. I was working 90 hr weeks, 7 days a week with no respite in spite. I was exhausted and people were, of course, complaining all the time. Coached by the angels I chose to add love however I could in the workplace - to brighten up my office, to bring treats to meetings, to be kind and humorous when I could muster it. And in that space, I learned that it is not the outer world that dictates our inner, but exactly the other way around.

So when you feel "trapped" in any way, try to add love. Try to remember that choosing to love yourself even is a huge start, choosing to say, "Yes I want better, let me be kind to myself as best I can, right here, right now." When I've been deathly ill, I played beautiful music and let it carry me into realms where there was no pain. When I've been financially challenged, I went outside and felt the grass under my feet, smelled the roses and listened to music on the Internet. When I couldn't eat anything I wanted, I created healthier recipes. When I was in a relationship that wasn't working I chose to love myself, set healthy boundaries, and love life, until love catalyzed change.

The real movement does always begin within our own hearts, where we are, the angels remind us, eternally free!