Saturday, December 26, 2015

Happy New Year!

I hope you had a blessed and peaceful holiday. As I write this it is Christmas day. In all the holiday busy-ness, I forgot to write it earlier! At first I thought to myself, "Oh no! I have to work on Christmas!" but soon the perfection of the moment dawned upon me. Here I am filled to the brim with the love of the season. I enjoyed a beautiful time with people who are dear to me, ate until I thought I'd burst, laughed until my sides hurt, and shared beautiful conversation. I've written my cards, sent my presents, and stood today in a depth of silent Presence, giving my one lasting gift to the world – surrendering to the love that longs to flow through us all. It was such a beautiful feeling to feel the love of God pouring through my being to those I know... and those I don't.

If I could wish upon the Christmas star, I'd wish for every soul on earth to know they are never alone, are deeply and dearly loved, and always cherished in the heavens. I have felt that love and it is unconditional - there for all of us. We don't earn it, merit it, or even need to seek for it. It is already and always there, waiting for us to become the empty waiting manger, the willing heart open and ready to receive. It is always in our depths waiting to rise up and share itself with the world. It can never be taken from us. It is never withdrawn. It is never "offline." It burns brightly inside of us, just waiting to be revealed.

A few years ago on New Year's eve, I was "praying in" the New Year. I had been standing outside in the chilly night air wrapped in fleece blankets, in silence, communing with the earth and the stars, feeling the presence of life around me, when I realized it was almost midnight. I went inside, sat down, and prayers began to arise from deep within. I prayed for myself, my loved ones, and for the whole world. While lost in that state of ecstatic love, blasting Josh Groban's rendition of the "Ave Maria," on my computer. I popped into heaven... I literally left my body and found myself among family and friends who had long ago departed this earth. I felt the love of the heavens engulf me. This is a love so profound that it accepts everything in you, celebrates every little fragment of your mind, body, and soul, and dances in your heart with a desire to share. I was only there a few minutes in normal time, but it felt like eternity.

So this holiday I wish for all of you, the experience of this love, the love that is yours simply because you exist. Perhaps sometime during the holiday, you can turn on some beautiful music, breathe deeply and to open your heart to receive the gifts that heaven wishes to pour upon you. The angels really are there, and they really are just waiting to love you even more deeply and dearly, every time we open to receive.

I wish for you a happy and holy holiday, and a new Year of knowing you are never alone – that love lives and abides within you and is there for you in every moment, with every breath. Happy New Year! May 2016 be a year of illumination, love, peace, and joy.

Saturday, December 19, 2015

Love is the eternal gift

Happy Holy Holidays to you! Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Blessed Kwanzaa and forgive me for not mentioning all the other wonderful holidays we, as a human race celebrate. I love this season. I love that people allow me to love them more and to bake for them, gift them, and surprise them. I love that people in the stores smile back when I smile with pure joy while I'm running my errands. For just a few weeks instead of "Ann & the Angels" I become "Anta Claus & the Elves!" It has been a joke for years.

I give because it delights me to do so. I smile thinking of the smiles that my little creations will bring. I could care less if a person tosses what I make, regifts it, or passes it along. I only wish for them to receive the love, for it is the light of joy that I long to share with the world. There is such a beauty in the light of Divine love, in that the more we give ourselves, and the more we are able to receive... the more this love longs to pour through us into the lives of others – "randomly," beautifully, and just when needed.

I was in the grocery store the other day and overheard a lady saying she had trouble making chili and really wanted to learn how. Without thinking I was offering to email her my recipes. Things like this just come out of my mouth! I can't help but help when I hear the need. We had a moment of Christmas camaraderie and then went our merry ways. I went home and emailed her recipes, which hopefully will fill her holidays with yummy goodness. A moment of love exchanged can create a ripple effect we will never see while we are alive.

I recently received a very sweet thank you note from a woman I've never met. I admire her work and have helped spread the world, just a little, but she took the time to tell me it mattered. No expensive gift is worth more than that... to know we can touch a heart. Her words and her heart touched mine right back.

This is why we are alive - to realize we are all one in the great big love that creates us. When we help another, share with another, or simply love another, we give on behalf of all creation. When we receive some help, a gift, or some love, we receive on behalf of all creation. So whether or not you exchange gifts, always remember, that the greatest gift of all, the only lasting gift we can ever exchange, is our love. And in these exchanges, small or large, lasting or fleeing, for just a moment... we touch the Divine.

Happy Holy Holidays. May you feel the presence of love every day of your life.
I love you all.

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Savor your moments

I am SO excited! I recently finished filming Series 6 of Ann & the Angels - "Abundance with the Angels - Living with the Currency of Love." The energy that went into it is delightful. I lived the material thoroughly for 11 weeks, then after fixing my Thanksgiving dinner for friends and getting the house decorated for Christmas, I finally felt inspired to get it all structured and on paper. Good thing - I had only one week to create 12 episodes, 12 outfits, and pack before going out to film! During that same time I also spent a day gazing, worked full time, and had several other commitments.

It seemed impossible to my limited human mind!

However, as the saying goes, "All things are possible with God," and I knew that if God had not motivated me to begin putting these episodes into a structure, there was a good reason! I soon realized that I had embraced "abundance" in terms of having bills paid, and having stuff I needed miraculously flow into my life in ways I could not even imagine! However, I had yet to embrace having an "abundance" of time! I was always feeling as if there were never enough hours in the day to do all I wanted and needed to do! So I challenged myself to embrace all the principles that I am teaching in regards to money, but to apply the same principles to my time.

I focused on appreciating all the time I did have! Time on earth. Time to eat. Time to sleep enough. And then I got more present than I have ever been! I focused intensely, and only, on the task at hand. I eliminated distractions. I stopped running to the kitchen to snack every time I reached a spot where I didn't know how to proceed! I kept affirming, "I have all the time I need to get this done smoothly and gracefully." Guess what... I did. I thought I was going to have to stay up all night, one night, but got so focused and present I was able to get enough sleep to feel rested. Somehow, miraculously, I ended up with both a series... and outfits (!) in time to go film. I couldn't be happier with the outcome!

Arriving at the airport in California, I saw a big banner advertising an event. In huge red letters it said SPARK OF LOVE! I smiled, knowing I'd passed my own tests! Filming went without a problem. Memorizing episodes was easy. Even my hair behaved! I have never packed so much in and yet felt so unrushed! The angel energy in the room was so strong I was nearly reduced to tears on several occasions. There was just so much love. At one point, I actually felt viewers in the future having an "ah ha" moment. More tears... It touches my heart to touch hearts.

So here I am home again, working full time, packing clients in morning till night to prepare for time off during the holidays, and yet feeling unrushed, happy, and in the holiday mood. Presence truly is a present we give ourselves first,and what a delight it is!

So this week, try to breathe. Focus on what you are doing with all your heart... and you may just find as I did, that we really do have an abundance of time, when we savor our moments, and fill them with love, rather than rushing just to get through our days.

Saturday, December 05, 2015

Love knows how

I love the holidays. I love to give all year, and I love to share love in any form. In spite of preparing to film my next series I've been crafting in the kitchen these days, making homemade bath and beauty potions for friends, cooking simple treats, and a variety of other fun things. The Christmas cards haven't even been a thought yet, but I trust they'll get done after some really awesome meditation where I feel full to overflowing! I try to make my entire life a labor of love.

I have no idea, as usual, how I'm going to pack in all I want to do, and film the next series! But then again I never have any idea how I'm going to accomplish all that gets done! God does thankfully. I just trust in love to guide me. I promised myself that I would start early in committing series 6 to paper, but the calling wasn't there. Instead I was too busy happily living it to take the time to get in sorted out into episodes until about a month ago. I felt such joy doing it at that time I knew the time was right. Happily, like all the other series before it, the energy of what I'm teaching it goes into it since I've been living it. Love knows what it is doing with our lives.

Love knows how to guide us to easily and joyfully get or make presents for those we love. Love knows how to make time to have friends over. Love knows when I'll write out my Christmas cards (I do not!). Love knows when it will trigger me to sit still, play "Silent Night" and marvel like a child at the lights on the tree. Love knows all these things. And Love knows how many clients to schedule, and when so I can both serve these dear souls, and pay my bills. Love knows who needs what from me, in a way that is authentic to me giving too. Love coordinates all of our lives.

So this season, trust in Love's guidance. Trust that you don't "have to" do as much as you think you do... Instead check out the authenticity of any activity by saying, "I want to... I love to..." and if its true your heart will leap forward and draw you into inspired action.

Saturday, November 28, 2015

All things are possible with God

Years ago I prayed for a job that would allow me to wake up happy, go to bed grateful and help people while making a living. Doing readings was the last thing I ever expected to be guided to do, and yet I love it.

While I was doing readings, I heard so much wisdom I prayed for a way to share the angels tips for living a happier life online for those would couldn't come to my classes... and the streamingforthesoul.tv guys showed up! Livestreaming didn't exist when I started praying that prayer.

Because I witness so much pain in readings, I've prayed for years for God to grant me a way to help people shift into joy more easily, and to experience how much they are loved. I never expected gazing to be the answer to that prayer. I didn't even know what it was when I started praying.

Those are big things, but God and the angels will help you even with the small stuff. I needed a pair of jeans that fit, so I asked for help. Within a few days I got the urge to go to a local thrift store and there were the jeans in my size, brand new, and costing barely more than a cup of coffee!

I take the angels' advice daily, and ask for help with everything... even my schedule! I have no idea how I pack in everything I do and love, but it somehow works. I get up each morning... "Dear God I need to do four newsletters, queue up a months' worth of Facebook posts, and get some work done on my next series." That was the prayer a few months ago. Suddenly I remembered, I needed groceries, a birthday gift for a friend, and there were various other errands. My to do list seemed impossible. Instead of rushing, I sat and got peaceful and prayed again, knowing I'd get done whatever God thought was important. Ideas as to how to combine errands, groceries, and the gift arrived swiftly. I was able to focus in a very concentrated way to get the newsletters and Facebook posts queued. I even had a little time before bed to work on the next series. God knows...literally... how all this gets managed.

So when you have a prayer – great or small – try to be open to all sorts of ways it might be answered. Being in control is highly overrated. Having to have everything look the way we think it "should" limits the good that can occur in our lives. Whether the prayer is for healing, help with a tough life situation or attitude, or simply for the smallest of treats, know that the Divine cares. The angels care. Pray, anticipate the best, and let the Divine take care of the reset. Surrender the "how." And then trust, trust, trust... Rest in the arms of the Divine until you receive inspired guidance, and then spring into action.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Love yourself

Years ago my mother had a teacher who told her to go in front of the mirror and simply say, "Thank you God for making me the beautiful soul that I am." It helped to change her perspective about herself, the way she treated herself, and therefore positively impacted her entire life.

While self love and self appreciation seem uncomfortable to many, they are absolutely necessary if we are to navigate the intense energies coming into the planet now and in the new year. If you are not treating yourself with dignity and kindness, the universe, by its very design, echoes that back. If you are treating yourself like a being of light and love, no matter what's going on in your life (because that is who you are at the core), then the universe will echo a much kinder reality back to you.

That may not seem "fair" because we all learned that if we're good, we get rewarded and if we're bad we get punished, but that's not exactly the way life works. That is how parents and teachers and social institutions must operate, but God designed the material universe with the laws of vibration. So if you mess up but learn from it and love yourself anyway, you'll get love. If you give to charity with bitterness and resentment, you'll get people taking and taking with bitterness and resentment that it can't be more... or something similar. What we do with love returns love, even if not from the same physical source. What we do with anything less than love causes us to get a less than loving response from life.

This doesn't mean that if you love a particular person, they'll love you back. It simply means that if you love, life in some form will love you back. "Giving to Get" doesn't always work :) Giving because it is a joy feels good in the present and allows the universe to echo that joy back kindly in some fashion, even if not the way you thought.

So take time to love and appreciate yourself, no matter what space you find yourself in. After all you chose to be alive. You chose to wake up. You chose to read something that might inspire you :) You chose to receive the angels' love and mine too. You can be proud of that. And I bet there is SO much more you can acknowledge yourself for as well... if you just take a few moments and give it a try, you will find plenty inside of yourself to appreciate. I agree with the angels... may every day be a day of Giving Thanks!

Happy Thanksgiving to all who celebrate and so much gratitude to all!

Saturday, November 14, 2015

What next?

There are many reasons in my life, on a regular basis, not to be peaceful! I swim in the world's pain in my work every day. I have a busy schedule and often don't know how I'll fit everything in. And I love the holidays. I joke that I bring out my inner Martha Stewart around Thanksgiving and Christmas! It is part of what gives me joy. Given the sheer volume of activity, It would be very easy to get stressed.

However over the last two decades the angels have worked with me, and continue to work with me, on accepting life as is in each moment and creating better the next. So when I find myself getting frazzled, I take a step back and simply say, "OK what do I want and what next?" Its better than wasting time wishing something that already has happened did not. Its done. Its better than wishing someone was not as they are... they are! Its wastes far less time and energy than guilt, shame, blame, and drama between the ears. Life just is... now what?

None of us are exempt from times when we wish things were otherwise. I still make plenty of decisions that could be a lot smarter! I banged myself up on a roller coaster while not listening to my guidance both last year and earlier this year. Instead of beating myself up, I focused on healing. I did the martyr-thing and got shingles while wishing I could take it away from a friend a few months ago! Same story - I didn't waste time beating myself up. I just focused on learning, loving myself through it, and healing. I've made uneducated financial decisions in the past. When I was in my late twenties doing very well as an avionics engineer, I made an investment without doing my research and lost a lot of money. I didn't waste a tear over it. I learned and moved forward with greater wisdom. I called it my "college education in financial naiveté!"

The angels once said, "Ann if you are driving and want to see the view ahead clearly, you look through the front windshield, not the rear-view mirror!" What a great analogy!

So yes, peace comes from saying, "Here I am now. This is how I feel now. This is what the people around me are doing." No resistance. "It is what it is," as they saying goes. But I would add... "It does not have to be that way in the next moment!" If you're sad cry. If you're upset, vent privately. If you're worried, pray or call someone comforting. Think about what you want to create next and make choices accordingly. If I don't like something, I don't waste time resisting it, I decide how to respond instead. I try to see the situation through the eyes of love. If I don't like myself at the moment (it does still happen occasionally!) I try to see myself through the eyes of love and then make a choice to improve. This way life moves forward more gently, gracefully, and lovingly.

Try it this week. Life is as it is. You feel as you feel. What next?

Saturday, November 07, 2015

God's plans

I keep learning deeper levels of surrender to life, to love, and to my own heart. I went up north for a fall hiking trip last weekend. I arrived on a Friday afternoon and had some time before sunset so I started thinking about what I would do. The heavens intervened. A strong thought to go to a very specific location kept popping in my head. It was so compelling I gave up on "my" plans and surrendered once again. Once I arrived at the park, I had a strong compulsion to park in a very specific space. After parking, I looked up. In front of me, sitting on a park bench was a very dear lady I know and adore. We had not talked to each other. She had no idea I was coming to town. I had no idea she would be there... in front of my car nonetheless! Of course we squealed with delight, marveled over the miracle and she had time to introduce me to another friend she had wanted to meet! This friend and I both did healing energy work so we sent her a loving dose! We were all thrilled and delighted once again by heaven's coordination.

The entire weekend went that way. I ran into clients I saw 20 years ago who needed a little love, a lady who knew my other friends who had wanted to meet me, a person I worked with 20 years ago in the middle of the forest! I did Online gazes with Braco in the middle of the night since he was broadcasting on European time. I caught myself drifting to sleep before a few... usually I would have been irritated with myself and fought to stay awake, but instead I surrendered peacefully, and had vivid dreams of gazing in my sleep! I woke up feeling wonderful!

The more I surrendered, the more the coordination in the universe becomes apparent. These days I just trust that everything that happens is for the greater good. The more I accept that, the more good I see!

I have dreams too, things I'd love to have happen in my life, so I'm surrendering even those to God. Being able to put my shows together more easily is one. You would think that would mean making more time to sit in front of the computer. Instead I'm outdoors more...where I think more clearly. Brilliant... but again God's plan was better than mine!

So when you don't know what to do, surrender to the heart, because in there, you will find the most loving thing to do now, and now, and now again! It may not seem related to your problem or challenge. It may not seem related to anything at all. Sometimes I've been sent to Starbucks just to change my energy to a vibration more compatible with my joy! Sometimes I am sent there to cheer someone up. Sometimes I just want coffee! These are small things but when we trust on the little things we learn to trust even more so on the big things.

So this week, honor your hearts and see what comes of it! I love hearing these "miracle" stories... they will never cease to amaze or delight me!

Saturday, October 31, 2015

Never gone

I certainly never thought I'd speak to those in heaven as part of my work! I started out channeling angels, but one day, when I was psychic in the window at a local bookstore, a whole new world opened up. A young woman sat in front of me, and instead of angels, I started to feel the presence of an older woman in spirit. She was kind, but very insistent on getting her message through. "Tell her I am SO grateful for how she took care of me! I am so grateful for her visits!" The young lady confirmed she had just lost an elderly friend whom she visited and cared for. The lady in heaven continued..."And tell her I LOVED my bon bons!" The young lady started to smile broadly. She had indeed, snuck little chocolate candies into the nursing home for the older woman. It was their secret. I was in awe of how the little things mean so much.

When my grandma died, she showed up to me very strongly! "Annie, its grandma! I'm in heaven with the Virgin Mary! Check your emails. Your mother needs you!" My grandma never touched an email but she did love Mary, her namesake. I checked my emails. Sure enough my dad had written to say that grandma passed and mom needed me. I was able to tell my mom that her mother was feisty and happy as ever!

When my grandpa died years before, my dad's father this time, my phone (an old fashioned one with a DIAL!) chirped for weeks. RRring, no one there. Rrring, no one there! I finally figured out he was telling me he was doing great!

Over the years, the sheer volume of people I've spoken to in the heavens, as well as my own experience of popping into heaven a few times, has shown me beyond doubt that life after death is a beautiful thing, that love lives for eternity, and that even the most hard-headed and hurtful folks on earth can soften up and become kinder after death. This job has given me both hope and peace. I know that whoever I lose, I will find again. My dogs that "died" a few years ago are very present. Animals psychics who come for readings see them as much as I do. My grandpa comes and holds my hand at times... I always warm up on the right side when he's around. My grandma... mom's mom, sometimes interjects her opinion in readings and it is almost always hilarious!

So while it is SO sad to lose someone we love, and it IS hard to not see and feel them on this earth, the thing that I have seen heal people in deep grief is to first, allow themselves their emotions, but then also to realize that their loved ones are still here. Heaven is not far away. Heaven is not a place on a cloud. It is a different channel on God's radio, in a way, a different dimension only. Our loved ones, if we want them to, can stand right beside us, hugs us, help us, and love us just as easily if not more so from the heavens.

If you like you can cultivate the ability to speak to your loved ones. You can sit quietly and hold out a hand and start there and ask them to touch you. Give them feedback.. "I feel a little buzz. I feel heat. I feel nothing." Spend just a few minutes and try again another day. Tell them what time you will sit with them. Maybe ask a question and trust the very first thought or feeling you get. It takes dedication and practice but anyone can cultivate a relationship with their loved ones in the other dimensions. It just takes time to wait and see how they get through. Some are better at it than others. The shy ones are harder to hear! The loud crazy ones almost always find a way to get through. Give it a try... they love you dearly and would love to let you know they're alive and well! And if that's too spooky, just ask the angels to comfort you and they will do everything they can.

And Happy Halloween to those who celebrate!

Saturday, October 24, 2015

Trusting

Years ago when I wrote "Love is the River: Learning to Live in the Flow of Divine Grace." the angels gently reminded me that if the Divine could handle my breathing, the Divine could also handle my life. It seems so simple. And yet it is so easy to get worked up about all we must handle in life. How are we going to pay the bills, fit the things in that we want to do, get our work done, be with our friends and families? it all seems quite overwhelming at times.

So the minute I start to feel overwhelmed, I slow down. I stop. I breathe deeply and remind myself that there is a force that gives me life, that loves me, that planted the desires in my heart that I am now trying to fulfill, and who wants to help me fulfill them. I stop, breathe, and ask, "OK God what do you want for me now?" and then I pay attention to what is in my heart right then and right there.

This week on my home office day I was tired. In addition to a lot of driving and a lot of work, I had been watching Braco's Online gazes last weekend and as always when I participate in stretching my capacity to give and receive energy, it takes awhile for my body to acclimate to the new flow.

I woke up with grandiose plans! I wanted to work on the next series of my show, do my newsletter, get to my phone calls, and manage a whole lot of other office work. I got quite a few things done when I started to feel as if I could not keep my eyes open. I know better than to push. I stopped, breathed and said, "OK, God, What do you want for me now?" I got the "spirit call" as I call it - it feels like pressure on my third eye - and then it feels like I am being drawn inward. I laid down quickly and was instantly I was out of body and dreaming. Of course, later, the rest of my work got done, but had my mind planned my day, a nap would not have been included!

This has been happening a lot lately. As I learn to surrender more while gazing to let more healing love through my body, I am also learning greater levels of surrendering my plans in my life. I am learning to trust the divine coordination more and more. I am learning to trust more deeply that if God puts something in me, all the strength and resources I need will be given if I just keep trusting. I've gotten over the "who me?" question about the healings. It isn't the "Ann" me. Its the power that runs through us all. I've gotten over, "Where will I find time?" and am just making time because it compels me to do so. I will have to work with God and the angels to be more efficient. I have no idea how! They do! There are many more questions I have around this – both emotional, practical. and financial, and yet I'm surrendering those to God too. Can I handle the growth that will come of it on my end? Can we somehow pay for the streaming and bandwidth used? God must think so. Am I committed enough to deal with all that will come of this – both the beauty and the challenges. With God I am.

So when you don't know how to handle a challenge, or a dream, or something in your heart, stop and breathe and ask what to do, right here and right now.Guidance is always best in the moment. Trust that when we don't know how to do something, God does. When we don't know how to handle something God does. When we don't think we have the resources, God knows how to provide. I'm still going deeper and deeper into this reality. It isn't always easy between the ears, but I can vouch for the fact, that the more I trust, the more the love deepens, and the more I get out of the way and allow the Creator of the Universe to demonstrate that truly, "All things are possible with God."

Love you all! Have a blessed week. Perhaps I'll "see" you on the streams on Wednesday :) We've tried to include times that might be convenient for various time zones!

And this is hilarious! I "accidentally" sent the message Sunday and heard from a ton of people that it was perfect timing! Minutes later plans for Monday got rearranged! Too funny!

Ann

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Family is everywhere!

When I do a new series of my internet show I challenge myself to live it. So, while we are airing "A Romance of Life" about finding and creating love everywhere in life, I've been particularly open to those magic moments. I just had another one a few weeks ago... and humorously enough, it created a story for my next series too... but that will be for another day!

A few weeks ago I got "the call" to go to Goodwill, a thrift shop nearby. It comes as a sudden urge to drop everything and get in the car. I know better than to argue. So I dropped everything and went to the thrift store! I knew I was there for a reason but didn't know why. "Perhaps I was there to get some new outfits for the next series," I thought to myself. That seemed likely... until I started running into a lady over and over, almost literally! Hmmm... I was here to meet this beautiful soul.

I started a conversation. I learned that this delightful woman from Hawaii raised orchids. Many had died while she was taking care of a family member who was also dying, so she was in the process of raising new ones. After awhile, she told me she was writing a book on native, natural cures. Now she had my attention! I love natural remedies! I offered her the name of my publisher and asked her to let me know so I could facebook it when she was ready. She started to realize I wasn't some crazy "haole" (white woman!) but rather a kindred as well! The connection was beautiful. I felt compelled to share a little more with her as my angels told me she was on a tight budget but helped so many. She had tears in her eyes. I had tears in my eyes. She called me "sister" and we exchanged numbers and went our separate ways. I felt so blessed, she felt blessed and our global family expanded just a little bit more!

The next week – logically unrelated, but spiritually connected – the orchids started to arrive. Clients started bringing me orchid plants! The picture advertising Braco's gaze showed him among orchids. I was seeing signs of Hawaii everywhere! I felt like the Divine was celebrating our exchange.

So when you feel yourself drawn to speak to someone, don't hesitate. You may look crazy. You may be ignored. But maybe you'll find a kindred spirit. God does not make mistakes and we are often guided to cross paths with those whom we can assist and those who will inspire us as well. I reconnected with an old friend this week and we were overjoyed to talk about the growth we've both accomplished over the last decade, as well as how we can help one another in the future.

We are all family. We all crave connection with the Divine, with our deepest truest selves, and with one another. The Creator lives and breathes in all of our hearts and seeks to reveal itself through our beautiful and loving interactions.Open up this week and see what family members you discover here on this beautiful earth. Whether you make a friend for life, or a friend for a few seconds... love is love, and love feels beautiful!

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Love my inner voice!

I love my inner voices! Sometimes they give me what appears to be "big" guidance. "Go to Texas next weekend," ... where I meet the film crew I'm now working with. Sometimes they just delight me, in ways we might consider "small" but in truth, any guidance towards a loving experience is worth heeding.

I was hiking up north a few weekends ago, and feeling extremely peaceful. I love the solitude, walking amidst the trees that were just beginning to turn colors, and hearing nothing but the whispers of wind. I love dissolving into nature where I am not a spiritual teacher, author, healer, but rather just part of creation moving amidst itself... regarding the diversity of life's many forms with a sense of wonder and awe. I have no thoughts. I am just pure Being. I feel the energy moving in me, to me, and through me, in a beautiful dance of life.

Suddenly the inner voices spoke. "You are going to see a deer." "Cool!" I couldn't help but fall back into thought. How wonderful! Suddenly the guidance got very loud. "Turn left here. Go to that rock. Sit on this log and get into gazing energy. Stay in that energy for a bit. OK, now, now get up and walk to that rock, turn right...." OMG! There was a young male deer not twenty feet in front of me, gently munching on ferns.

He looked up, regarded me peacefully and went back to snacking. I stood in reverent awe of such a beautiful being. He looked up for a bit and we both stood there, locked in a loving gaze. I felt my heart expanding beyond its boundaries as I sensed his peaceful and beautiful soul. Eventually, another hiker in the distance spooked him and he ran off. I, however, had to sit down and give thanks and praise for the glory of that beautiful moment while I continued to bask in the blissful feelings of shared connection. There is nothing so sweet as the divine presence within your own heart touching that same energy in another being or aspect of creation. It is what we all crave so dearly, to feel this love, to share this love, to be this love...

I feel like I'm living the "Romance of Life" series that I'm doing on the Internet now. These moments are happening everywhere. Not just for me either. The gentleman filming the show wrote in his newsletter that he had the sudden urge to go get milk and as soon as he stepped out of the car to go to the grocery store he was transported to heaven by a young violinist in the grocery store parking lot. Who would expect that? Nonetheless, the creator of the universe knew that a need for groceries could lead to a magic moment... if only we listen.

Love is everywhere. Life wants to love you. The creator wants you to experience the goodness in the world. When we listen to those impulses and urges, and sometimes voices that kindly guide us, then we find ourselves having more and more of these magic moments. We all look for the "big" things to make our lives happy, but in truth life is made of far more "little" things. Why not enjoy them, and give thanks for the beauty that exists right here and right now? After all life is happening now. And love is here for you now... and now again.

Saturday, October 03, 2015

Perfect as is

The angels worked with me for years, and still do, to help me catch myself in even the slightest self-criticisms. It is fine to acknowledge when we can do better, be better, look better, or act better, but we can make those decisions, without beating ourselves up, judging and criticizing ourselves.

Every time I teach "Magical Self Love" I make mistakes either in or before the class, and am challenged to not feel stupid about them. The first time I taught the class, I asked the audience to share their worst "flaw" or "self criticism." A woman in the front raised her hand. As I went to give her the microphone, I slid down four stairs and landed on my back, then popped up laughing. I had no clue why it was funny. Rather than running in embarrassment, changing the topic, or apologizing profusely, I continued on with the class. This wonderful woman looked at me strangely and said, "That's odd. I was going to tell you my worst flaw was that I'm uncoordinated!" We howled with laughter. I could have judged myself and not even given her the chance to share. Instead, because I had learned to trust in the perfection and love beneath all things - that perfection and love was revealed!

When I filmed the "Magical Self Love" series, my face broke out the night before! I knew as soon as I woke up and saw myself, that this was all about me knowing who and what I really was and getting over any silly small concepts of self... which was exactly what I was teaching! Those breakouts had a purpose and a mission! They forced me to walk my talk! Probably because I embraced them rather than judging, by some technological miracle, the editing process managed to make them disappear. There is perfection in all things. All things are trying to lead you back to love.

There have been times when, quite unconsciously, I've said things that weren't meant to hurt, but did hurt people. Instead of beating myself up, I apologized, learned from them, and became more sensitive with my words. The angels won't let me indulge in self-criticism. They ask me only to learn.

So this week, try to love yourself rather than judge. If you want to change something about yourself, that's fine, but do so with love. I've had women in my workshops lose weight when they stopped criticizing themselves and instead chose to love themselves as is. I've had physical conditions heal when I sent them love and thanked them for teaching me. I've seen people suddenly find they had talents they couldn't believe when they stopped putting themselves down and simply made the commitment to try.

We are all perfect as is, even as we grow into a greater awareness of the beautiful light that we are! As the angels remind us... the acorn is perfect even as it grows into the oak! We are too.

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Accept yourself.. all of you!

I have worked for years with the angels to learn to love and accept myself exactly as I am. That means I celebrate the times I am doing well and I have compassion for myself when I am not. I cry when I'm sad, and vent in private when upset... although after working with the angels for years, I find that love comes easier than upset and sadness passes quickly.

As they've worked with me to accept myself, both in my so-called positive and negative spaces, I've learned to love myself unconditionally... even on those days when I don't really like myself! As a result I've learned to love others too, even when I don't care for their behavior. I feel as if my heart has been freed from the bondage of our human conditioning that say we can love ourselves and others only when we "look right," "behave right," etc.

This level of self acceptance has created miracles in my life. It guided me to people with whom I love working. It has helped me open up to channel energy that does things for people that I could not have imagined. It has blessed me with people in my life that love and accept me for all of who I am.

Most recently it helped me film my next series! I had shingles two months ago, worked over time to make up for it, had to delay filming, went to a conference, came back and had four days to work, prepare 12 outfits, create the remaining episodes, and get on a plane to film all 12! I didn't have the episodes memorized and therefore took much more time between each to memorize them. I could have beaten myself up for getting off schedule, but instead if gave me opportunity to start gazing in public. I could have beaten myself up for not having been as prepared as I'd like, but it ended up that the filmers had time to accomplish other tasks. I could have picked on myself for having hair that to this day, frizzes the minute I get in font of the green screen! Instead we laughed. It has become a joke!

There will always be reasons to criticize ourselves. There will always be reasons to feel we have "fallen short" of where we'd want to be. There will always be a deeper and more loving self that we "could have been." However, if you can truly love and accept yourself, as you are, trusting that all is in divine perfection, you will grow so much more quickly into better and more beautiful spaces. You will accomplish more, waste less energy, and feel happier. You'll stop putting the pressure on others to love you more than you love yourself... and as a result you'll be able to accept them exactly as they are too.

So, as the angels say, if you are looking for love, start by giving it to yourself. Start treating yourself the way you'd like another to treat you. Start being compassionate to yourself when you're not at your best, and celebrate when you are. We can truly become the love of our own lives, and in that space, others and Life itself will echo so much more love back to you!

Saturday, September 19, 2015

Love is everywhere

A few weeks ago I had the pleasure of attending the yearly conference for the International Association for Near Death Studies in San Antonio, TX. It was a little bit of heaven on earth with the lovely river walk outside the hotel and a few hundred people running around who had died, been to heaven and returned to tell! The energy was palpable and the speakers who shared their stories, so inspiring! The message from everyone who had been to heaven was the same. We are love. We are here to love. There is nothing more important than to love ourselves and love others! The angels were cheering! We cannot hear this message enough upon our earth.

I have been putting together my new series of Ann & the Angels, "A Romance of Life" and living it while doing so. It has been so much fun! Its based on the premise that with or without a "special someone" in your life you can have love and feelings of romance, if you are willing to put in just a little effort to change old habits and seek love, see love, and be love. I've made friends with total strangers, connected with people in airports more intimately for even a few moments than some men I dated in my younger days, and have had hilarious connections even with animals in my backyard. A pigeon and I fell in love so deeply that I caught him trying to stick to my stucco and flapping his wings so he could press his little face against the window and watch me in the kitchen! I had to run outside... "Honey! You need a birdie girlfriend!" The next day he brought his new feathered friend to show off! It is such a blessing to know that love is just everywhere we look. And better yet, what a blessing to know love lurks inside of us, just wanting and waiting to pour out into the world the minute we get out of its way!

So this week, see if you can look around and tell yourself that love is everywhere you look, sometimes more deeply beneath the surface than in other cases, but always there!

Saturday, September 12, 2015

True service

Self love doesn't come easy to those of us who were raised in the martry-is-holiest culture. Some people on earth were called to be martyrs. Jesus and Joan of Arc were amazing souls who did agree to take on the pain of the world to help transmute it. Somehow, so many of us thought that was the way to go too!

However, after working with the angels for years, I realize that each of us receives different direction from the Divine and very few are called to martyrdom. That's why it hurts when we self-sacrifice for others if we are not guided to do so! When the Divine wants you to serve, the joy, the desire, the resources, indeed the calling will be there. You will not feel used, bitter, empty, exhausted, and all those other things that arise when we volunteer to be victims in the guise of helping others. Instead you feel inspired, energized, joyous and as if a greater force of love compels you when you are truly called to do something.

Some people serve through conventional service - serving the pool, counseling, healing, etc. Some serve through quiet but completely essential tasks – accounting, legal services, managing our electricity, taking out the trash, trimming trees.

Some people serve through inspiration – living beautiful lives of love and joy, being amazing parents, traveling the world and sharing the diversity...

This list of ways we can serve is over 7 billion long because there are that many people on earth and each of us serves most authentically by simply being ourselves. Each of us has a calling in our hearts at any given moment in time and it is almost too simple... it is what you feel like doing that feels like love and joy. I was going to get up and exercise this morning and then do errands. It felt more joyful to do the newsletter, shower, run errands, then exercise later. How is that service? If I take care of myself, then I am energized to do all else.

I just got back from an amazing conference and will share more on that in future newsletters. I have four days to create six more episodes for my series, come up with 12 outfits, memorize 12 again and film. By the time you read this I'm in front of a camera serving through my joy, sharing through my show how the angels have taught me to live. It is more work than I have ever agreed to before. I still work full time with clients, do my newsletter, daily Facebook posts, and now this healing gaze that is causing even more grown on my end but creating some amazing healings for others. I am not doing these things because I think, "I want to serve," I am doing these things because my heart compels me. And some days... my heart compels me to go to Starbucks or to hike, or sleep so I honor that too :)

Serve through an authentic life! You are of value if you are happy at the grocery store! Your vibration ripples out into space and time when you are in a loving vibration! You are a lighthouse and a beacon of Love! And if you feel like joining in my class next weekend, I'd love to share more. This is one really awesome way to live!

Saturday, September 05, 2015

The power of focus

When I was sick with shingles several weeks ago and asking the angels about whether or not I'd be well enough to do all sorts of things on my schedule, the angels kept asking me, "What are you creating? Make a commitment? Focus on perfect health." And so every morning while doing all my self care routines, I also did beautiful visualizations - imagining light flooding every cell in my body, dissolving dark patches and programming my cells to respond only to love. I imagined beautiful skin growing over the hurt patches, and I imagined my system taking in only the frequencies it needed and releasing all it did not. It is amazing how very little scarring I had, how quickly I healed, and how responsive even the body is to the energies we imagine it accepting. I think I just may keep doing these visualizations frequently to help program me for vibrant health!

When I ask if something is going to "work" in my life, the angels always respond, "What are you creating? What are you committed to?" They are loving but tough with me because they know I want to step into a deeper and deeper understanding of my true being. What am I creating? I ask myself that now, often, daily, hourly. When reality does not look as I wish, I stop, sit, breathe, receive, and ask the angels to help me get both my energy and my attitude into a space to create what I want... or better, of course. Sometimes the Divine has an even better idea of what we would love or need than we do, so I always leave room for that!

I suspect none of us would ever worry about a thing if we knew that all we had to do was live in a space of being honest with ourselves, honest with God, and honest with one another. We'd know that the love of the universe flows through us, give to us to aim in any positive, loving direction we like. And while it is true that there is sometimes a "higher plan," tuning into the reality we want is often just saying "yes" to that, because if there is a true, heartfelt desire in your being, the Divine is the one who inspired it!

So this week, challenge yourself. Are you tuning into what you want or what you don't? A world of chaos, or a personal life of peace regardless of what the world does? A body informed by love, or plagued by fear. A financial situation reflecting the abundance of your soul and faith in the Divine, or one wrought with worry? We are powerful. We are nothing less than Divine love shaped into different forms and personalities and that love does live and breathe within us. The more we access that love, the more amazing our lives can become!

Saturday, August 29, 2015

An abundant universe

I no longer try to create anything of significance from the outside in. Instead I do as the angels have instructed me for years and make sure I'm ready to receive what I'm asking for. I wait for guidance, patiently trusting in God's grace and know what I've wished for will come at the perfect time.

Recently I had the desire for a few home decor items that I thought were going to be too expensive. I spent a small fortune on first aid supplies and supplements when I was sick. I didn't work as much, and took days out to rest. I was unable to film my next series and had to postpone that. Spending anything other than paying off the credit card seemed financially unreasonable. So I just envisioned my house with more of my photos on the wall and let it be. God would deliver me perfect frames at the perfect time.

Earlier today instead of writing this newsletter I had the urge to go to a local craft store. It made no sense. I almost didn't listen. But since I was in the area, I dropped in. There in front of the store were the exact frames I had wanted - 65% off, and totally affordable. I had not searched for sales. I had not said I couldn't afford them. I simply got in the frame of mind that I'd receive in God's time. And while this was a small thing, I applied the same principle to my healing. I pictured myself made of light. I affirmed love. I trusted even that tough situation to bring me love. Sure enough it did. I have used these same principles over and over again to allow things to flow into my life in perfect timing.

We are an impatient society. We want it all now... but in truth we really just want to be happy. So if something or someone you want isn't in your life yet, get your internal energy right and enjoy your life, waiting for further instructions.In that fashion, everything comes in perfect order, at the perfect time, in the perfect way.

Saturday, August 22, 2015

Your Soul is Whole!

Thank you for all the love and prayers. I am totally healed of my weird case of shingles and counting the numerous blessings that came from an unpleasant adventure. Since I created it by intending to "take away another's pain" I sat still for hours looking at every area in my life where I'd been willing to sacrifice my joy if I thought it would help someone else. I had previously thought I was done with that pattern, but once I committed to digging the habit out by the roots, I found subtle nuances of it all over my life! There were times when I was willing to worry instead of have faith, times when I felt sorry for someone rather than affirming a person's power, and the list went on. These were all subtleties, but nonetheless, they robbed me of my God-given power to see love, be love, and share love.

I did all the right physical things to get rid of the condition. I was bathing in Epsom salts and separately water with apple cider vinegar three times a day. I took supplements. I meditated, rested, watched Braco DVDs and asked for prayers. Dear ladies in Croatia gazed for me with Braco, which helped greatly. I changed my diet. But the deep healing came when I finally said, "Ok God. Ok Angels. I know there's a lesson here to feel your love even in the midst of this and to focus on who I really AM!" I affirmed the light of perfection in my soul and one night, feeling quite ready to be done, I simply told the angels, "Take me to heaven tonight. Immerse me in the truth of my light, and plant me back in my body tomorrow morning with the awareness of the light and joy within and nothing else." The following morning, upon awakening, with the very first awakening breath, I felt like I was a baby taking my first breath. I felt my entire soul - me - the love, the joy, the humor - slide right into my body and I felt joyous. I knew the condition was energetically gone. Within days I had healed completely except for a few scabs and scars that are on their way out.

I went to see Summer Bacon, my friend who channels a beautiful spirit – Dr. James Martin Peebles – in deep trance. He is a spokesperson for angels. At her gatherings only some people get called on, when their names are picked out of a basket. I intended with all my heart to be one of them. Sure enough, my name was picked. Dr. Peebles, the spirit who comes through her, spoke to me. "You are done... and finally that demon that has been riding around in your spirit for centuries clawed itself out." I was in shock. My shingles wasn't a typical rash in one area as most cases are. Instead it was all over me in odd places, and I would literally feel a sting, then watch as my skin ripped open in razor like cuts from the inside out. It hurt, but I kept feeling something awful was leaving! Apparently it was.

Looking back I know that this "demon" he spoke of was simply some piece of my soul that carried a deep misunderstanding of its own worthiness of love. This was likely created lifetimes ago and was usually dormant except when something really wonderful was occuring in my life, whereupon it would rise up and create self-sabotague. Although this was one un-fun situation, I'm singing and dancing for joy because at long last the energy inside of me that tends to trip me up every time I feel the bliss of God is gone. I'm so happy! My healing abilities have increased, and so has my bliss! What an adventure!

So yes, yes, yes!! Adding love to any situation transforms it! As soon as I got back in that divine consciousness, aware of the truth of my soul's light, even the darkest energies left my body - a bit dramatically - but nonetheless, gone! And if you feel you are in need - lost, lonely, broke, dealing with difficult people, unhealthy, depressed, whatever the challenge, remember... Your soul is and always will be whole! Your soul is pure light, pure love. All the rest is just born of some part within that misunderstands, feels unworthy, feels unlovable. Sit in silence. Breathe and receive help from the angels. Ask to be returned to the truth of your beautiful perfection... and enjoy the blessings that come from freeing yourself from even those illusions you didn't know existed!

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Love the light

Last week we talked about finding the love in all things and all beings. We know this isn't easy, because this is not the way humanity is programmed. We say "programmed" because we know that your true nature is to see the light within every soul and every situation, but it is your cultural conditioning that teaches you to protect yourself and to survive.

This is understandable, and at times, humanly necessary. Children who are too trusting could easily find themselves in trouble, and yet dear ones, as adults you can discern without judgment, love without liking, and choose to focus on the light within an individual even if you choose to walk away. You will live a far happier and more powerful life if you strive to do so.

There is great confusion between judgment and discernment. We have said this before, but "Judgment says 'No right to be.' Discernment says, 'Not right for me.'" So when someone is acting in a way that you do not agree with, by all means we say, discern! Decide who and what belongs in your life. Get away from the offensive individual as soon as you can, or if you can't get away, at least make a decision to stay in your own positive energy rather than succumbing to the ill-behaved individual's desire for company in their misery. Ignore them, send light, work to remember that even within this wounded or unconscious soul there is a spark of divinity.

Likewise, there is a great deal of confusion between "love" and "like" on your planet. Love, in the heavens, simply means recognizing the divine spark within another. Like means having warm feelings towards another. You can love the soul without ever having to like the personality or the behaviors. Love the light within them, no matter how dim or hidden. Choose to believe in its presence. And yet you do not have to feel warmly about an individual. You do not have to want to be around them. You do not have to agree, accept, or even have anything to do with someone you don't like, but please dear ones, don't hate. Love the light within them, because no matter how awkwardly it is trying to emerge, it is the same light within you. As you focus on that light, sometimes you can actually, energetically, fan the flames of their soul.

So when we say find the love, we are not asking you to feel warm about everyone, nor to have everyone in your life. We are not asking you to put up with behaviors that do not resonate with your joy. We are not asking you to stay in situations that hurt or are uncomfortable to your spirit. We are simply suggesting that you will feel better, more powerful, and more in integrity with your own spirit if you can say, "Well no matter what anyone is doing, there is light in their soul trying to emerge, and I can love that light." Dear ones, then you will begin to see humanity as the angels do.

Saturday, August 08, 2015

Love Emerging

The angels have taught me over the years to see love even when its very difficult. A dear one snapped at me once. "How wonderful," they said! "You've been wishing he'd get more real with you! Yes, it was awkward but that was the best he could do." I wasn't so evolved at the time. "Awkward," I thought. "Rude!" Now however, when people send me angry emails, I see beneath the surface and know they're just trying to express their truth. I take care of myself of course and decide if I am going to respond lovingly or set a boundary, but I don't have to waver from love.

I'm often asked, how is there love beneath war? The angels say that both sides love their perspective, love the people they are trying to protect, love their ideals. It is love, but just love expressed in an unloving way. Focus on the love beneath it, the angels say. Send light to those involved and pray they find a kinder way.

How is there love beneath acts of violence? Most often the one perpetrating such crimes is a wounded soul, either wanting others to see their pain, or reaching for innocence in inappropriate ways. Of course we must set boundaries, have consequences for atrocities, and walk away when we can, but... the angels beg us not to hate.

So recently when I had my little physical challenge, the angels told me to see the love beneath it. Yes I did care about my friend when I wished to take away his physical challenge. There was that compassion underneath it all. I could admit that. "Look for more," the angels suggested, eager to not only help me heal, but also help me find every last drop of goodness in a difficult situation. I realized I was in training to help others have miraculous healings in their lives. I have been for some time now. I gazed for a lady with pneumonia a month ago and she was out of the hospital and miraculously healed in two days. At that time, I didn't wish to take her pain away. I simply prayed for it, allowed God to decide, and allowed myself to be a conduit for Divine love. I finally admitted to the angels, "OK, I love even this illness because I can use it as a training tool to learn to create miracles. And If I can figure that out, maybe I can help others too!"

"Find more love!" they persisted! I had to think. "Well this has had me focus a lot on self care. I've had to be careful not to get stressed one bit or I hurt. I've had to watch my thoughts and make sure I was being kind to myself." Now they were happy! Lessons learned. And in the meantime I've had a massive, miraculously quick healing too.

So this week, try to find the love trying to emerge from beneath life's challenges. If you can't see it pray and in time it will be revealed.

Saturday, August 01, 2015

Focus and faith

I'm busy having another not so fun lesson on how swimming in big energy means that I must be careful with my thoughts! I had a friend with shingles. This person handled it with such grace, that I felt such compassion I woke up one night wishing I could take it away from him. I really do know better! My friend got better. I got shingles. It was completely a vibrational resonance with that energy!

It started as a crazy rash on an ear, then on one arm. I bundled it up and didn't think much of it, and luckily out of precaution didn't touch anyone or anything so as not to share. But when lightning storms and shock treatments started going off in my body, and my skin started to look like I'd been in a cat fight, I knew I was in a predicament!

I am never one to believe in the physical laws of the universe are more powerful than the spiritual laws. Yes, I did have a moment of panic. I have so much going on, and if I do the textbook version of this thing I would not be able to accomplish half of what I want to do. I couldn't settle for that! So I did all the right physical things to heal and decided I wanted a miracle. I prayed for the angels to remove any little last traces of energy in my system that contributed to this illusion of illness, and asked them to help fill me with radiant love and health.

I got guided to ask for help. I used to be too proud. I didn't want to bother anyone. In the past I would have been embarrassed, being a spiritual teacher getting myself into such a challenge. However, pride is gone. The need to look "perfect" is gone, and I knew if I was going to have my miracle I'd need help. I wrote many people asking them to picture me radiantly healthy. I didn't write to anyone who would worry because worry is like a curse that would make it harder for me to heal. I asked two very dear ladies who gaze with Braco in Europe to pray for me as they did and the next day I took a radical turn for the better! Still, I battled occasionally between faith/focus and fear. Every time I started feeling afraid, I stopped myself. "What are you creating Ann?" I'd ask. "A miracle," I'd remind myself.

Even amidst pain, work, and putting together episodes, I focused on love - helping others, thinking good thoughts, sitting outside in the sun for fifteen minutes a day getting my Vitamin D and nature healing. I got guidance to websites that helped. Who knew Eucalyptus oil would be such a great healer? And apple cider vinegar, and a variety of other supplements. And after one particularly brutal night of wrapping in apple cider vinegar, I demanded a more comfortable treatment and was inspired to try wrapping myself in Manuka honey. Ah bliss!! It sped up the healing tremendously.

So, as I write this, several days in advance of when you'll read it, I am happy to report I'm healing miraculously fast. I'm just focusing on a program of extreme self care, positive attitude, and an impeccable focus on radiant health. I'm looking forward to filming my next Series of Ann & the Angels and am hoping it will happen soon, but am surrendered to God's timing as always! I'll give you a sneak preview - Its called "A Romance of Life - 12 weeks of Living in Love with Life"... no matter what. It has been an absolute joy to create... and live this material!

So the moral of this story is... no matter what situation you get into, remember you have the power of God and the angels behind you to create something better. Focus with all the faith in your heart on the desired outcome and listen to the whispers of guidance - thoughs and feelings, that are part of your miracle.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Keeping it real

It struck me one night as I visited the backyard that I’ve been accepted as part of its ecosystem. What an honor! The pigeons wander around my chair as I sit and eat on the patio, and just walk away from me when I get up to walk around. The butterflies do fly by’s and occasionally attempt to land on me! The hummingbirds and I sit in quiet respect for one another. Even an angry big black bee settles down when I speak to him, “Hey! What’s up? I love you!” He lands and looks me in the eye! It amazes me how all aspects of God’s creation regard one another with curiosity and wonder when we are all just accepting ourselves as is. In nature, I feel complete acceptance. I am nothing lesser than anything else and nothing special. I am just an integral part of the whole.

Amidst the diversity of humanity it is a little more challenging to be ourselves. I have learned to do so over the years, by degrees. When I started writing this newsletter, I tried to sound educated, smart, like I had it all together, but that left quickly! The angels told me to be real and to my surprise the more real I got, the more everyone enjoyed the work and told me they found value in it. Well not everyone! The more real I got the more I got a few scathing criticisms too. That's the nature of being real. Many will love you and some will walk away in hatred, disgust, or condemnation. As the angels say, let them go. They're not your tribe.

Happily when you are real, people sort themselves out around you. If some leave, don't chase them and work harder trying to earn their love. Real love, must be given freely. Bless and release them. You want people in your life who accept you the way you are, naturally.

I now prefer only people who are honestly themselves in my private life. I'll never forget when I was forming a friendship with a soul who is now one of my best friends. I brought him some Christmas cookies. He liked most of them but upon eating one he promptly spit it out! I must have looked shocked because he started laughing and apologized. "I'm sorry. I just don't like the dry kind of cookies," he said! I started laughing too and knew we'd be awesome friends. I could trust him to be real with me even when it might not be something I'd want to hear. He was both honest and kind, and completely comfortable with himself. I like that sort of authenticity! Another person might have decided then and there that this wasn't the kind of friendship they wanted. As the saying goes, "Each to their own," but if we are honest with ourselves we know where we naturally fit, and we know who naturally fits our life and who does not!

So this week, try to be honest with yourself and life. That doesn't mean telling everyone else what you think they should do! It simply means sharing your heart about what you think, how you feel, etc. with no attachment to agreement whatsoever. See what happens. Many relationships will deepen and some may drift or drop away. But in the end you discover your place in the greater ecosystem of humanity. In the end, it is a joy to attract people who naturally love you as you are, and to release the ones that don't.

Saturday, July 18, 2015

Some dreams take time

I often joke that we live in a "fast food" society. I don't mind fast food and I'm not judging it, but the phrase seems to apply to how we live. It seems like many have become dependent on instant gratification. We've grown impatient, and therefore anxious. We want what we want here, now, immediately. While that is natural when we're excited about a dream, it is not natural to feel as if we've failed, God has failed, or life has failed if our dreams don't happen instantly. Nature has seasons. Fruit has to ripen. Rains have to fill the streams. Not everything was designed to happen instantly. It is beautiful and fun when it does, but some things are better when created over time.

Sometimes we must grow into the person who can handle the dream we are dreaming.

When I was working 90 hours a week in engineering I wanted to quit and have a new career instantly! I wanted out of there! I wanted the pain and suffering of working so much to end. What I didn't realize is that I wasn't ready for my new career yet. I had to learn to bring love to the moment, to embrace the gifts of my present situation, to be a leader, to deal with diverse and often negative personalities, etc. Had I known how to do all that back then I would have had an instant change! But I didn't. I had to grow into the kind of person who could handle being self employed, working amidst the world's pain and grief on a daily basis, etc. It took time for me to ripen into the person who could handle the dream I was dreaming of a new and loving career. I had to grow spiritually, emotionally, professionally... Had I just dreamed of a different job I'm convinced that would have happened more quickly.

Likewise my dream of getting my work out to the world took time - a lot of time! Again I had to grow into the person who could handle being in public. I had to learn to love myself so when people wrote in with nasty attacks it would not cause me to shrivel into my shell and quit my work. I had to learn to love others enough to act with grace and dignity and to send love, in such cases. I had to learn that I was not a body so even when I didn't feel I looked so great I could get in front of a camera and share good material.

I have seen so many clients, who were terribly impatient, look back and realize they too had to "ripen" before ready for their dreams. Some had to learn to manage money before they made more. They would have given it all away and wasted it, had more come earlier. So many have to learn to love themselves before being in a relationship or even the best of relationships would have fallen apart in the face of the pain and neediness they carried inside. At times I've seen people who thought they wanted one thing, grow and figure out there was something deeper, richer, and more satisfying that they wanted – a woman who wanted a man to help her survive for example grew into a self-sufficient person who wanted true love. A man who wanted a woman just to keep him company found satisfaction in the company of friends and realized he wanted a real partner. Someone who wanted to create a job that they thought they "should" want realized they just wanted to work for someone else and rest outside of the 9-5 workday.

So when your dreams don't come right away, live now! Love the moment and work happily towards them or re-evaluate them to see if they're really what you want. When you really want something, its worth the growth, the work, the effort. But when struggle and misery are present, backup, go in and see what's in your heart, right here and right now. We all need little tune ups. We all need time for some dreams to ripen. Fast food is great, and so is instant gratification when its really gratifying. But sometimes, some dreams take time... As the angels like to say, "A slow simmer makes a savory stew."

So if you feel you are working hard at anything, take a step back and remind yourself.. I love what I'm working towards. And if you don't ask what you might love more.

... And I am laughing right now. I just looked at how long this article turned out to be. I guess it was worth the time and effort to read it if you are still with me! The angels are giggling too!

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Love and trust

A few weeks ago I flew on standby flights on a short little vacation. The way it works is that you show up at the airport, get on a list, and hope there's room on the flight. Flying out, there was plenty of room. Flying back was a different story. I was #8 on the list of a flight that was pretty full. There were no guarantees, the agent told me. If I didn't get on, I'd have to buy a ticket at full price for the next one because there weren't many seats on that one either.

So I gave it to God. "Ok God, I'd like to get on this flight. If not I'd like you to pay for the ticket I'll have to buy somehow.I surrender." I visualized myself getting on the flight, surrendered that if I didn't it would all be ok, and proceeded to transmit loving energy to everyone in the terminal. My heart felt huge! The energy was running through me like a river, and I started to feel joyous. Everyone started to look like family! Suddenly the gate agent called my name. "You're on!" she said. I had a second of doubting my good fortune. In that SECOND of doubt, an employee of the airlines walked up. "I'm sorry," the gate agent told me, "We have to put him on first. Maybe you'll still get on." I started to berate myself for doubting, then realized I'd never get on the plane with an attitude like that. I went back to visualizing myself walking on the plane, surrendering to a higher will at the same time, and sending love. Within minutes the agent turned to me. "Well, you're in luck!" she said. "We had a no-show!" I got on the free flight, reminded to stay in that blissful space of love and trust, always sharing my preference with the universe, but surrendered to anything wonderful God chose for me. Truly we do fly when we live in that reality!

So when you really, really want something in your life, picture it or feel it as if you KNOW and believe it will happen, and at the same opt to believe that if God has better that looks different you are just going to choose to trust! Then just love your now. Send love to those around you. Find something or someone to love. Grab a cup of coffee, a piece of fruit or chocolate! Enjoy a color you see around you... loving your now lets love stream into your life and that current carries you to joy! Sometimes I get my way this way. Sometimes I do not. But in all cases, Love gets its way and that is always a wonderful feeling!

Saturday, July 04, 2015

Eternally free!

I have mentioned this before. I once heard the Dalai Lama interviewed. Someone asked him why he didn't hate those who had taken over his country. His reply was illuminating. He said that they had taken his country, killed his people, ... but he was not going to give them his mind. He was free to love. I try to remember this always.

My life circumstances the past few years have presented many challenges, especially in the health arena. I take responsibility for these and yet the after-effects have been less than fun. I can't eat most bread - even gluten free. I can't each much sugar. There went two of my greatest pleasures! I can't hike in my beloved forest in the summer at the moment because my allergy to poison oak has gotten enormous and I don't like the itching. I won't list of the rest, but there are just a lot of life's pleasures that seem to be taken away. Sometimes I have felt trapped by circumstances, finances, etc... But the angels, always remind me that the mind is free.

So rather than whining over what I can't have and can't do, I find other things to love! Check out the recipe below for sugar free cherry chocolate yogurt Popsicles! I would never have sought out healthier ways to eat and treat myself had I not had these limitations. Not being able to connect with nature as easily during the heat means I have to connect with the light of God more directly on a regular basis. So no matter what comes, we always have love available.

I remember feeling utterly trapped in my job in engineering. I was working 90 hr weeks, 7 days a week with no respite in spite. I was exhausted and people were, of course, complaining all the time. Coached by the angels I chose to add love however I could in the workplace - to brighten up my office, to bring treats to meetings, to be kind and humorous when I could muster it. And in that space, I learned that it is not the outer world that dictates our inner, but exactly the other way around.

So when you feel "trapped" in any way, try to add love. Try to remember that choosing to love yourself even is a huge start, choosing to say, "Yes I want better, let me be kind to myself as best I can, right here, right now." When I've been deathly ill, I played beautiful music and let it carry me into realms where there was no pain. When I've been financially challenged, I went outside and felt the grass under my feet, smelled the roses and listened to music on the Internet. When I couldn't eat anything I wanted, I created healthier recipes. When I was in a relationship that wasn't working I chose to love myself, set healthy boundaries, and love life, until love catalyzed change.

The real movement does always begin within our own hearts, where we are, the angels remind us, eternally free!

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Surrender is bliss!

It is such an easy concept to surrender to the heart in each moment, and yet such a challenge to unlearn all our old programs and allow ourselves this natural flow of life. I've been working so hard lately on projects I truly love - with clients, the newsletters, Facebook posts, the Internet show, and I'm now setting up to do healing transmissions on the Internet eventually. It is a juggling act. But when the hot weather started to arrive I thought to myself, "Dear God, I want to enjoy this summer too. I want some lazy days. I want time to do all these projects that I have a passion for and still feel like I'm living a balanced life. I have no idea how, but You do. Adjust my life. Adjust my heart... I surrender to your wisdom. I choose to believe so I can receive!"

I prayed this over a month ago. At the time I had the sudden urge to block off a weekend on the calendar in June and make sure I prepared as if I were going to be taking a few days off. I didn't know why, but I did it. It didn't make sense because I've been saving up to go film my shows. Nonetheless, when I get these feelings, I trust. I queued up my Facebook and newsletters in advance. Three days before the time off I didn't have any guidance as to where I was going or what I was doing. Two days before, the guidance came. A client whom I am deeply grateful for gave me some free airline passes and suddenly I knew that I could spare two days to go on a little excursion to the beach. I trusted that even flying standby I'd get on flights. I trusted that even during the summer I'd find an affordable room and car. Two hours later a coupon for rental cars came in the email. A little motel came to my attention. Within hours I had a little trip to the beach scheduled. Needless to say I did get on the flights... in fact there is a wonderful story about that which I'll share in a future newsletter .

And after two days off work, even with getting up at 3am to fly early, playing all day for two days then flying home, I feel like I've had a great summer vacation before summer had even arrived! I'm rejuvenated and have more to give. It was "irresponsible" of me to take time off at the moment, according to conventional standards, but completely in-response to my soul's needs to get grounded after some huge energy work, and to refill before preparing the next series. So while it is not always "logical" to listen to the heart, if you trust in the Love that wants to love you... really trust... you open up to better possibilities than we can even imagine!

Saturday, June 20, 2015

An answer to a prayer

The more I surrender to my heart, the more I find that God is sending me help – not only with challenges, but also with dreams in ways I couldn't have imagined. Most of you have heard me speak of Braco, the man who transmits God's love and healing through his eyes. A week after I first had an amazing experience of his work, my angels told me to start gazing similarly for clients in private session. My first thought was an immediate, "What? Who? Me?" However after working with angels for so long, I trust them.

Each time they advised me to do this in a session, I dropped into my heart, surrendered my entire being, and let love flow. People started healing, some instantly. Migraines, sciatic, pains, grief, disappeared before the love coming through. The angels told me to start practicing every night, just opening up to allow this love to flow to all whom I've agreed to pray for. So every night I stand before the mirror, drop into my heart, and get my "Ann-self" out of the way, allowing love to flow. I also continue to gaze with Braco every time he live streams on the internet in an attempt to allow the energy coming through him work on me. His gift is amazing. People heal from fatal diseases, terrible life situations, etc. His website is www.braco-tv.me if you want to check out times for his next gazes. I highly recommend it. Even if you don't feel much, there is tremendous love pouring through. I always notice positive changes in my life afterwards.

Nevertheless, I've not met Braco except nearly literally running into him a few times at public events. He doesn't speak to anyone except his private circles, nor does he teach, endorse, or share his beliefs. I stood before him, the same as thousands do worldwide. And so when it started happening through me on a smaller scale I was surpirsed, a little scared, and not sure about what it all meant in my life. Nonetheless, I love channeling energy. I love helping people... and I trust God. I've prayed for years for ways to help more without burning out and I pray daily that I be able to help people know God's amazing love for them and to experience the joy of feeling heaven on earth. Here was an answer to that prayer in a way I never imagined.

We did a test gaze online a few times while I was out filming my show. I stood in front of a camera, got my small self out of the way, and let energy flow through me. People watched and reported back. Some had pain go away, some saw spiritual figures and angels in the energy. Most felt an intense and beautiful love overcome them. Recently some people have seen their deceased loved ones appear in the energy. And just this past few days, a friend asked me to gaze for a family member who had pneumonia and she healed in two days. It is not me-Ann doing this. I have no control over what occurs. I'm just opening up to a Love that lives within and loves us all.

So when you have a challenge or a dream, trust that if you just take life one day at a time, praying and surrendering to your heart, the solution to your challenge or manifesation of your dream may end up looking much different and even more beautiful than you might ever imagine. You might have to stretch and grow beyond who you thought you were. However, as the angels like to tease us, the creator of universe does a pretty incredible job or managing our lives!! :)

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Transformative love

I was taught that "loving" others meant "pleasing" them, "agreeing" with them, and "helping" them in the way they wanted to be helped. Sometimes that is true. However it is not always the most loving choice. The angels say that loving others means simply acknowledging the light within them – looking for the love that is trying to emerge – and acknowledging how that same love wants to move within us. In other words, saying, "Others have a right to be as they are. I have a right to be as I am. Given the way we are, do I want to dance... and if so, how?"

Here's a practical example. I recently found myself in the company of a someone who was profoundly negative, nervous, and annoying. I couldn't get away immediately, and so I was "stuck" in their company. In my younger days, I would have tried to fake politeness and agreement. Then I went through a phase where I would have tried to ignore them, since that was a little more honest. Now however I pray as the angels have taught me, "How can I bring love into this moment." It became a game. "How can I be the angel here and bring love into this, given that I'm temporarily stuck?" This person kept complaining. Suddenly loving words came to me and through me. "Wow, life has been hard on you. You need a hug." I gave this hurting soul a huge embracing hug while calling on the energy of the angels to hug them through me.

The person calmed down immediately, became quiet, walked away for a little while. When he came back, he started telling me about a project near and dear to his heart that had once brought playful joy to others while creating quite an income for himself. I couldn't believe it! Moments ago he had been complaining about his horrible life and terrible lack and now he was telling me how much money he used to make, creating things that made people happy. In my mind, I thought to myself, "Amazing! He's gifted and talented, and he forgot!" I encouraged him to resurrect his project. He left inspired. I left blessed by seeing the light within his soul come to the surface.

I am constantly amazed at the power of love to turn things around. I've seen hundreds of such cases - where a simple prayer - "God how can I bring love to this situation, for me and all involved," is answered in a truly simple and yet miraculous way. Sometimes you add love and the other person walks away. Sometimes you add love and they transform. In either case, you feel that you have been true to your deepest and most beautiful self.

We have incredible power to be a force of love, truth, and goodness in the world. Sometimes we can find it in ways that look loving as we have been taught. Sometimes we must add love simply by allowing ourselves to be sad, upset, or whatever we are in the moment, in a way that doesn't hurt anyone else. Whatever it looks like, adding love to the moment is a wonderful recipe for the happiest now... and an even happier future!

Saturday, June 06, 2015

One step at a time

I am glad that twenty years ago when I listened to my guidance and quit my job in the avionics industry, that the angels didn't tell me where my life would lead. Had they said, "Ann you will be talking to angels, doing readings in a metaphysical bookstore, going out on your own when the store closes, teaching classes, speaking at conferences, and eventually ending up doing a show on camera, then facilitating healing by allowing God's light to come through your hands and eyes." I would have run! I would have resisted! I would have said, "No way!!! That's too weird. I can't do that!" I was acorn with no concept of the oak! It was better that I was guided to live my life, one step at a time. I often joke that God tricked me into this life that I now love so much.

There are so many times when we don't know the reason we are doing something. It just feels right and you find out, sometimes months, sometimes years later, that there was purpose. I used to write a daily e-newsletter for hundreds of engineers to keep everyone informed and coordinated. I even included little inspirations. I had no idea I'd be sending out a newsletter world-wide someday! I ended up on a management team sending out inspirational posts. I had no idea I'd be coaching. I thought I was giving a lecture to 10-12 people the first time I spoke in public about angels. Thank God no one told me the entire second floor of the bookstore would be packed with no room to spare and over 75 people! I would have run! Thank God again no one told me I'd be standing in front of a camera for hours! It takes hundreds of selfies for me to get a good photo. I would have insisted there was no way I could do it!

So sometimes you do something and wonder why. Sometimes you are guided without knowing the purpose. I can honestly say after two decades of living in faith and trust that if you just take the next loving step... the Divine knows a greater and more beautiful plan for your life than you can imagine. As at the angels like to say, "The power that moves the stars in the heavens and makes the seasons turn... can surely manage our lives!"

Saturday, May 30, 2015

The Real Self

It would be impossible to work with angels and avoid hearing the phrase, "we are love and light of God" in some form or another, hundreds of times a month! So I know this... intellectually. Nonetheless, the challenge is always to connect with this reality and feel it deeply, even when life or we do not act or look as we wish.

A few weeks ago I wrote about my experience of seeing the light that you usually see when you are dying. It touched me, changed me, and deepened me in way that I'm just beginning to understand. It was alive and spoke to my hear – not in words – but in feelings of acceptance so profound and deep that I have come to accept myself at entirely new levels. It reminded me, via deep feeling, to identify with the love that lives within us all. And of course, in Divine Perfection, this experience occurred the night before I began filming my next series of Ann & the Angels entitled "Magical Self Love!"

We have a tendency to think of our "selves" as our appearance, our personality, etc., but in truth these things are just containers for the greater "Self" – the love of God – that lives and breathes in all of creation. I still look in the mirror and see "Ann." I still have "Ann's feelings and thoughts." But I am experiencing, more often, the greater reality in which "Ann" abides... as if "I-Ann" is the glass of water, but there is a greater reality called "water" poured into all of creation, or "I-Ann" is a unique container for love and there is a greater reality called "Love" from which all of creation is made. The same is true for all of you... for all of "we" I should say :)

So next time you start to judge or criticize yourself, stop. Be compassionate with yourself. You are seeking to remember the love that lives within you. We make what we call mistakes - things that don't have the results we want. The angels called them "opportunities to learn." We do and say things that aren't so loving at times. The angels remind us that we are seeking to experience or express love even in our most un-glorious and unkind moments.

Love always lives within us. We either experience it or not, but we are always – no matter how awkwardly – trying. To the degree we see that, and allow this love to surface in our lives we experience joy. Even in the depths of anger, pain, sorry or a thousand other so-called "negative" emotions and situations, love is there, present in your depths, attempting to surface. Next time you are prone to be unloving towards yourself, judgmental, or critical, remind yourself, "Love is attempting to surface. How might I allow it to do so more kindly. How can I accept myself as I am and love myself more deeply? How can I bring more love into this moment." This type of thinking changes your life, transforms your pains, and helps guide you to kinder realities.

And if you are inspired to learn more, I look forward to guiding you in my new 12-week series on "Magical Self Love." It premiers this Wednesday and if you can't watch now, it will be available as Video on Demand afterwards. I am offering both the concepts, the visionary experiences of journeys before birth, after death, and connecting with your Light, as well as very practical, human, down to earth ways of loving yourself in life, in relationships, etc... no matter what the world around you is doing. I think this is some of the most important material I teach. If everyone really loved their Truest, Deepest Self... then our earthly lives world would be so much closer to heaven :)

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Synchronized seating!

I love watching how the Divine creates this beautiful dance in which we are all set up to help one another. A few weeks ago I was flying home from filming my latest series of Ann & the Angels (Magical Self Love!) and even though the flight was pretty full, I found a seat between a sweet lady and a very kind man. Sometimes I am quiet on flights... this time we all wanted to talk. Talk about Divine Orchestration...

The lady and gentleman started comparing their careers which were amazingly parallel in some very unlikely ways! All of us had started out in one profession and changed our lives completely for things that felt closer to the heart. I love to write, and it ends up the gentleman, who still had a "regular" job had also taken a leap of faith to represent wonderful children's books that are spreading like wildfire while teaching children to be safe in an entertaining and inspiring way. The enchanting stories feature "Annica" the good witch who learned not to text on her broom, and had quite an adventure learning to beware of web creepy crawlers!

The books are for kids 6-13 to start teaching them good habits from an early age... that could easily save their lives. It ends up that big organizations loved them and so do teachers, social workers, etc. I've talked to plenty of people on the "other side" who have died from lapses in attention while driving and was thrilled to see someone sending out such a positive message without being preachy! (You can check out the books here! I read both on the flight and they're wonderful rhyming stories with great characters and beautiful illustrations.

So there I was, right after airing an "Ann & the Angels" series on "Living in the Flow of Grace" and right after filming a series on "Magical Self Love" – treating yourself with the respect your soul deserves and allowing your light shine – and I was flanked by two beautiful souls who were doing just that! A segment in the upcoming series is about not hiding your gifts, talents, abilities etc. Because these two wonderful souls did not hide theirs, I was blessed not only with good conversation, great stories, good books, a whole hour full of smiles about divine synchronization, and the ability to share something wonderful with those of you who have children and want to teach them to be safe. As I like to say, "Go Angels! Go God!!" When you open your heart, and if guided, open your mouth...wonderful things can transpire!

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Heaven's light, eyes open

Once again I have stepped outside of my comfort zone, taken a risk in being more vulnerable, and touched heaven. I went to film my show last weekend. The schedule is intense. We film 12 episodes in two and a half days. In spite of this however, we decided to livestream me doing a healing "gaze." As many of you know I'm a huge fan of Braco - a man from Croatia with a gift of channeling God's love and healing energy through his eyes. People have miracle healings while "gazing" with him by the thousands. And after I stood in his presence for the first time, the angels began to lovingly push me to get out of the way, as they say, and allow this love to come through me.

When they first told me to do so in a client session, my first thought was, "Who me?" The desire to assist my client, however, was stronger than my small-self. I surrendered. The love came streaming through my eyes and my heart, and this dear lady received assistance. In subsequent sessions people received both physical and emotional healing . The energy continued to get stronger each time I gazed with Braco and received the benefit of his gift, and each time I gazed on behalf of someone else.

When I told the team who films my show – the same team who used to film and livestream Braco in the US – they decided it would be a good idea to do a "test livestream" a few times, with me gazing and allowing this love to come through, just to see if people felt anything. It ends up they did. Some saw Jesus appear. Some saw angels. Some saw lights and auras, and some had their pain go away. Even I received a great gift...

The gentleman who films, set up the stage, set up the cameras, and got all the computers ready to go. He counted me down... "5-4-3-2-1, and the cameras were rolling live. At first I felt awkward doing my own introduction, but words soon came more easily. The energy was already starting to flow, and when it was time for me to gaze, the energy came on so strongly that I felt paralyzed, glued to the floor, and felt a river - a huge force - of love running through me. I saw nothing but blinding white and gold light. It was a state of "no-mind." A few times my own thoughts came back briefly. “Am I still looking into the camera? I can’t see it. Be Quiet Ann. Trust.” Silent mind returned.

It was beautiful to be engulfed in such light and love. That would have been more than enough. However, at the very end, right after the music ended... something so profound and mystical happened for me that I will never forget it. I've seen the light of heaven in visions. I have seen it emanating from Braco too. I have never seen it appear in front of me, in mid-air, as it does when it comes to bring us home at the point of our earthly death.

Yet, there right above the camera, a pinpoint of light brighter than a thousand suns began to appear out of thin air. It slowly, tenderly spiralled open. It got larger, and then rays of blinding white light started emanating from it, reaching back and forth and coming closer to me. My entire being remembered this light. It was alive, tender, sweet, loving and oh so accepting of all that I am. It was the light that exists before birth and after death. It was as if God's love was breathing, emanating from, and reaching back into this light, and reaching towards me.

I remembered this profound and deep and inexplicable love – this feeling of being loved beyond measure, beyond human reason, not for a reason but because this is the only reality that has ever existed no matter what, no matter how deeply we forget....

It was time for me to get off camera. I will always wonder what might have happened if I had stayed there and allowed the light to engulf me, but I trust and knew it was time to stop. I walked off the stage into the control room, sat down, and because the sound was still on, silently cried my eyes out. These were not sad tears, but tears of profound gratitude and humility. How was it that I get to experience “near death” not only in visions in the past, but here, with eyes open, fully alive? I cannot answer that question but I know it touched me so deeply in a way I will never forget.

The next day I filmed six episodes. The following day I was gifted by an experience of being able to attend a session with yet another miraculous healer and transmitter of God’s light. Abdy discovered he had a gift when he touched people and they started to heal. He gives energy as guided, and his guidance directed him to give me a big hug. I always ask my angels for hugs! Yet another wish granted! I felt that sweet light again – that love that exists in all of us – ignite even more deeply in my heart. Later, as Abdy continued to transmit energy to the group. I felt the spiraling of creation moving through me, incredible heat, and an electrified feeling that I know was an increase in my ability to channel healing energy. The session I was blessed to attend is available on "streamingforthesoul.tv." If you enjoy healers and energy transmitters you might like it since this energy exists beyond space and time and his intent was to transmit to all who watch. He also does shorter free hourly transmissions on his website here.

There are times when we are given the choice to listen to our guidance, leave our comfort zones, take a risk, and trust. So often, it is in these moments of surrender, that the greatest gifts of all are allowed to unfold. When we get ours small selves out of God’s way - our fears, doubts, unconfident areas, etc. - and trust that if we are guided or drawn to something, it is right, then we walk past our fears and walk into the realms of the miraculous.

Love you all so dearly, thank you for being with me on the journey.
Next time I do this on camera, you are all invited - I promise I'll let you know!