Saturday, August 17, 2013

Guilt free!

Sometimes reaching the next step in our evolution involves crossing a few rocky areas in our consciousness. I have been praying to channel God's healing love and energy in ever expanding ways and I know this means I have to clean out any illusions that make me feel undeserving or incapable of that. Water cannot flow clearly through an crusted pipe and pure spiritual energy cannot flow as easily through a soul still clinging to to anything less than love. As I have often said, spiritual growth is not for the faint of heart!

A few weeks ago I prayed for the root causes of any tension in my body to be exposed, shown to me, and healed. Old stuffed tears came up. The angels told me I was still allowing guilt to plague me. "Guilt? About what?" I asked. I couldn't imagine. "All sorts of things," they replied. I couldn't see it. "Show me then," I asked, remembering at the last moment to add, "kindly please."

The following, through a comedy of errors, which were half guided, I missed an appointment I really wanted. The next Wednesday due to a temporary distraction, I backed into another car in a parking lot. In both cases, my automatic reaction was to feel horrible about inconveniencing another human being. I live to uplift people, not disrupt their days. "Meet your guilt Ann," the angels kindly suggested. I've had no guilt about mistakes that only affect my life, but I saw clearly how I have harbored guilt about "mistakes" of mine that seem to adversely affect someone else.

I saw it. I stopped it, and prayed for abundant blessings for the souls involved in my "mistakes," both of whom could not have been more gracious, kind, compassionate, and understanding. In fact I have had far less loving interactions with people whom I've helped. In both cases, they did not allow my "mistake" to ruin their days. Furthermore, the car repair place ended up being three miles from home. The estimate took a half hour. The insurance company handled everything including my rental car and other than an expensive deductible which I will just pay off in time, the entire incident took less than a total of two hours of my life. Guilt would have propelled me into crazy mental dramas. Just handling things was easy.

God/Source cares deeply about each and every one of us. When things look "wrong," look again. Look at your prayers, your intentions. Maybe there is something to learn in these so-called "mistakes" and "wrongs." I still do not like inconveniencing other human beings. I still would rather not make what we call "mistakes" but I have seen quite clearly that the guilt I used to automatically enter into was not only not necessary, but highly unproductive. Better to live, learn, move on, and save my precious energy for doing more good in the world. Better not to let guilt dim my light. Live, learn, move on. And a bit of my humor from the angels - one of my all-time favorites…. "Ann, if you're standing in the toilet… don't flush!"

So next time you start engaging in guilt, stop it. Ask yourself simply, "What do I have to learn here?" Don't even bother to analyze why you feel guilty, whether or not you should feel guilty, etc. That can distract you from the real issue, which is simple. "What did I learn?" And when the lessons are learned, congratulation yourself. Celebrate! You just got a little closer to the truth of your soul... guilt-free.