Saturday, August 25, 2012

Peace is inside

Giving has always come naturally to me but receiving has been a learned skill! Like many of us I grew up with the old adage, "Tis better to give than to receive." However the angels have taught me that this is ridiculous because for every giver, there must be a receiver to support their giving! We, as human beings, are meant to exhale AND inhale. Our hearts pump out and in! In truth, we were meant to allow the energy of God's love to flow into our lives, through them, and out to others. We were meant to live in a flow of Grace. There are times when our lives and hearts feel full and we are guided to give, and there are times when we are also guided to graciously receive.

Over the years, the angels have helped me remember that it is always fun, and sometimes very necessary to receive. Furthermore, sometimes it is necessary to ask for help, no matter how strong we may be. A few weeks ago when I messed up my health and simultaneously had a little kitchen fire, the guidance to ask for help was clear. As I've mentioned, I called friends who willingly ran errands for me. I called Cherie Landgraf whose amazing frequency machine cleared the smoke smell mostly out of my house and relaxed my body. James Walker did energy work on me, and Dr. Shawn Warwick untangled my twisted up solar plexus. I had to take money allocated for other things and spend it on my own healing. I had to cancel clients and take time to rest. For a few weeks there was hardly any energy going out of my life and a lot pouring in. It was all about receiving.

Miraculously, I healed from a very serious physical condition very quickly, so much so that I was ready to go hiking again only a few days after being able to eat solid foods once again. The desire to be out in nature was so strong in my heart that in spite of feeling a little weak, and in spite of the fact that the weather looked rainy, I decided to go anyway. My dear friend and dog sitter, Daniela Roth, was available and so I hit the road, rainy weather, fatigue, and all. I knew in my heart, this was where I was being guided.

I ended up hiking three miles in the sweet and gentle rain. The forest was perfumed with the vanilla-y smell of the ponderosa pines. The sound of the gentle rain dripping of rain from the trees was a meditation, and the gloriously feel of air below one hundred degrees rejuvenated me so much I was filled with energy by the end of my walk. Just as I'd seen in my vision that morning, the sun broke through the clouds and all of the sudden I felt inspired to take another hike - this one up Cathedral Rock in Sedona. It was sunny, hot, and strenuous but as I felt my heart and body expending energy, and felt the rush of air in and out of my lungs, my entire energy field finally burst open and once again I felt that flow of God's love running through my body, mind, and heart. I was overjoyed!

This entire experience has forced me to learn more about "Radical self love" before I teach the class. I have to love myself enough to reach out for help, put amazing food in my body, take the time in silence each day to connect with God and my angels. I have had to be honest with friends about what I honestly can and can't do for them right now. I've had to be more honest about how I want to spend my days and where I want to prioritize my time. As a result, I'm feeling amazing once again. I can't believe it was only a few weeks ago that a freaked out doctor wanted me to run to the emergency room! I'm glad I listened to my own guidance. I'm glad I've learned to receive. I'm glad I have learned to honor myself and love myself through anything, because these skills really work and can really get you back into the light no matter how deep and dark a space you find yourself in.

So this week if you find yourself having a challenge or two, love yourself through it. Pray for the help you need. Commit some time and energy to your own well being. You teach the universe how to treat you through your own choices. Why not make those choices more loving :)

Monday, August 20, 2012

Don't put off your well-being

Giving has always come naturally to me but receiving has been a learned skill! Like many of us I grew up with the old adage, "Tis better to give than to receive." However the angels have taught me that this is ridiculous because for every giver, there must be a receiver to support their giving! We, as human beings, are meant to exhale AND inhale. Our hearts pump out and in! In truth, we were meant to allow the energy of God's love to flow into our lives, through them, and out to others. We were meant to live in a flow of Grace. There are times when our lives and hearts feel full and we are guided to give, and there are times when we are also guided to graciously receive.

Over the years, the angels have helped me remember that it is always fun, and sometimes very necessary to receive. Furthermore, sometimes it is necessary to ask for help, no matter how strong we may be. A few weeks ago when I messed up my health and simultaneously had a little kitchen fire, the guidance to ask for help was clear. As I've mentioned, I called friends who willingly ran errands for me. I called Cherie Landgraf whose amazing frequency machine cleared the smoke smell mostly out of my house and relaxed my body. James Walker did energy work on me, and Dr. Shawn Warwick untangled my twisted up solar plexus. I had to take money allocated for other things and spend it on my own healing. I had to cancel clients and take time to rest. For a few weeks there was hardly any energy going out of my life and a lot pouring in. It was all about receiving.

Miraculously, I healed from a very serious physical condition very quickly, so much so that I was ready to go hiking again only a few days after being able to eat solid foods once again. The desire to be out in nature was so strong in my heart that in spite of feeling a little weak, and in spite of the fact that the weather looked rainy, I decided to go anyway. My dear friend and dog sitter, Daniela Roth, was available and so I hit the road, rainy weather, fatigue, and all. I knew in my heart, this was where I was being guided.

I ended up hiking three miles in the sweet and gentle rain. The forest was perfumed with the vanilla-y smell of the ponderosa pines. The sound of the gentle rain dripping of rain from the trees was a meditation, and the gloriously feel of air below one hundred degrees rejuvenated me so much I was filled with energy by the end of my walk. Just as I'd seen in my vision that morning, the sun broke through the clouds and all of the sudden I felt inspired to take another hike - this one up Cathedral Rock in Sedona. It was sunny, hot, and strenuous but as I felt my heart and body expending energy, and felt the rush of air in and out of my lungs, my entire energy field finally burst open and once again I felt that flow of God's love running through my body, mind, and heart. I was overjoyed!

This entire experience has forced me to learn more about "Radical self love" before I teach the class. I have to love myself enough to reach out for help, put amazing food in my body, take the time in silence each day to connect with God and my angels. I have had to be honest with friends about what I honestly can and can't do for them right now. I've had to be more honest about how I want to spend my days and where I want to prioritize my time. As a result, I'm feeling amazing once again. I can't believe it was only a few weeks ago that a freaked out doctor wanted me to run to the emergency room! I'm glad I listened to my own guidance. I'm glad I've learned to receive. I'm glad I have learned to honor myself and love myself through anything, because these skills really work and can really get you back into the light no matter how deep and dark a space you find yourself in.

So this week if you find yourself having a challenge or two, love yourself through it. Pray for the help you need. Commit some time and energy to your own well being. You teach the universe how to treat you through your own choices. Why not make those choices more loving :)

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Finding my rainbows

I've been fascinated with rainbows since childhood. I remember feeling very smart when I memorized their colors as a child... ROY G BIV reminded me of "Red Orange Yellow Green Blue Indigo and Violet." I've seen rainbows in huge circles from the sky while flying and I've danced in the end of the rainbow once on a beautiful beach in Hawaii. I've been fascinated by their transparent ethereal and vivid colors that remind me of the colors that I've seen on few occasions when a human aura has popped into view. Rainbows remind me of heaven - always there, and yet not always seen. Truly they do only exist when the very bright light of the sun shines against the blacked sky. How fitting, that we can only see heaven when we shine our own light in the darkness at times.

Rainbows also seem to have the uncanny ability to show up just when I need a healthy dose of love and validation from the heavens. Years ago when I was getting a divorce, I asked for a sign that I'd be happy again and a big beautiful rainbow broke out in the heavens within minutes. When I was sick before, and praying for comfort, again, the rainbows appeared. After a massive home repair earlier in the year, I went outside to see... you guessed it, the rainbow once again! And after my recent health challenges, on the day I was celebrating my return to eating once again, there it was again, a rainbow in the heavens. God does seem to take every opportunity to remind us that we are engulfed in a universe filled with love. We only have to focus on the light to see it.

I have been taught by the angels to bring light into just about anything. When I was feeling horrible a few weeks ago I chose to love myself, be kind to myself, reach out for help, and avoid beating myself up. I spent money allocated for other things on my own healing and didn't worry about it. I chose to be honest with those around me about whom I could and whom I couldn't serve while I was healing. It was liberating, and enlightening to deepen my adventures in self love, healthy eating, and rest even in a difficult time. Likewise with the little house fire, that could have been a massive opportunity to focus on what was wrong. I was the one who fell asleep after all while cooking. I didn't waste a minute beating myself up. I treated myself with compassion. Wonderful people helped me. My house is going to be very clean after the next few weeks, thanks to my amazing insurance company. Again, focusing on the good, the gratitude, and the gifts, has brought many rainbows into this little storm in my life. Those opportunities are always there.

So when you find yourself in a challenging situation first and foremost, be kind to yourself. Ask yourself, "What do I need here to lift myself up?" "What can I be grateful for?" "What do I need to allow myself to feel?" "What gifts can I find in this situation." Then look for the rainbows - the beauty and the gifts to unfold.... and who knows, mother nature may just give you a real rainbow every now and then :)

Saturday, August 04, 2012

Here I am now...

I'm doing much better after last week's adventures in health and home. The body is healing and although it might take some time to get back to normal, I'm eating so nutritiously I should be glowing. Within a month or so my house should be squeaky clean as well, as the insurance folks get the contractors in to remove the smoky smell. All in all, there is a silver lining even though the adventures were extremely challenging.

I realize looking back that I got myself in such a mess by internalizing emotions again. That is a big "no no" for someone whose body is so sensitive that I can feel a bee flying through my aura three feet away. I should have known better. Nonetheless, I chose not to beat myself up because that wouldn't have helped at all.

The angels have really taught me over the years that there is no point to worrying about the future, and no point to looking back at the past. In fact, there is no point to doing anything really but being present with yourself right here and right now and acknowledging your own feelings in the moment. So when I made a mess of my health, rather than worrying about what could happen, or beating myself up for what I could have done better, I just got present with the fact that I needed both help and comfort.

I called my friend James Walker who is a wonderful meditation instructor, massage therapist, and healer. He not only ran errands for me but was a life saver as he did hours of energy work to get my system back in balance. The angels suggested I contact a client who has this wonderful energy machine as well. Cherie Landgraf started running a program on her equipment that detects and balances stresses in the body and somehow magically is mitigating the smoke smell in my house as well until the real cleaners arrive. It is really helping. Other clients and friends graciously added me to their prayer lists and offered help as well.

When you find yourself with challenges try not to waste time looking back, or worrying forward. Try to say, "Ok, here I am now. What do I need? What can I do? What do I know to do and what must I give to God?" Affirm truth. Choose love. It is indeed the quickest way out of a tough situation. I should know... I've inadvertently created quite a few in my life and thankfully, have learned to get out of them just as quickly! As I face a lot of work on my home to clean it out from the fire smell, I have no idea how I'm going to manage rescheduling clients, taking time off without pay, etc. It doesn't matter. God does. I'm not going to worry, nor will I look back. I just trust that God's grace is and always will be at work in my life... and so it will be!

Try it this week. See if you can pick a challenge in your life and refuse to look back or refuse to worry. Be with what is now... and see how it starts to transform. In the words of "Star Trek" ... "Resistance is futile!"