Saturday, September 15, 2012

Letting go...

I'm not trying to control anything these days... not even completing the outline for the class I am teaching the day you read this. As with most classes, tons of material arrives and floats around my mind for months but the actual outline doesn't start coming together until the week or two before the class. I have always suspected that those planning to come somehow draw through me the material they need. And so last Saturday when my friend Summer Bacon, had a special channeling session in Sedona, I signed up for the event without a second thought. I had already prepared a rough outline, had several days set aside to finesse it, and knew my class would all come together just fine!

As I do every morning, I sat with God and gave the presence of love that runs the stars in the heavens, as the angels like to say, my to-do list! Dear God, I'd like a safe drive. I'd like Lucy and Daniela, my dog sitter to have a wonderful time together today. I'd like a day filled with love, grace, play and validation that I'm on the right track for the class. I had no idea how amazingly those prayers would be answered! Dr. Peebles came booming through Summer in trance and spent several minutes working with the crowd... with a variation of the exercises I am doing in my class! I couldn't stop laughing! Talk about a prayer answered. That wasn't the half of it however... The prayer for a loving day was answered and the answer was off the charts!

That same day I ran into people with whom I had done the most amazing and beautiful growth in my past, and also several with whom I had done the most excrutiatingly painful growth. And the only thing I could feel in my heart was love and gratitude for all of them equally, because each of them has shaped who I am today. I chatted with a former boyfriend - who had yelled at me every day we were together - as if we were old friends, and another with whom I am still friends. I was introduced to someone I didn't know and just loved her and did an informal reading for her, only to discover later she was family with a person who had nearly crucified me in the past for sharing an honest opinion. And there was only love. There is only love. The more I went through this amazing day, the higher I felt. I kept running into people I loved, until at long last I felt surely this is what heaven must be like - when no matter what has transpired, you see only the love, the growth, and the many faces of God with whom you've danced in a lifetime.

So today as I share what I know about Radical Self Love I do so knowing that this wisdom has me at a point where I can truly love others in ways I never knew I could in the past, not the warm fuzzy feeling kind of love, but a deep deep appreciation for their souls, for who they are, what they've been through, and how even their most unenlightened and painful behaviors have contributed to my life. If I could share this feeling with everyone I would.

So try it - every morning give your to do list to God. Surrender, listen to your heart, trust. My class will have come together beautifully by the time you read this. Tune into the energy. Ask God to help you learn to truly love all that lies within you. For in truth, everything has purpose and value. Someday we will all get to see exactly how!

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