Saturday, November 26, 2011

Annta Claus

During the holidays I've acquired a nickname - "Annta Claus." It started several years ago and has since been a wonderful holiday joke. I like to give and I like to do whatever I can to help make dreams come true. Courtesy of the angels, however, I've learned that the greatest gift I can give is the gift of just being me.

And so, being the eternal child at heart, I started carrying candy canes around in my purse often during the holidays. They're simply, inexpensive goodies. I give them away randomly to strangers I talk with, store clerks, service people, friends, you name it. And you should see the smiles that accompany such a simple gift! We all want a little more sweetness, and a little treat doesn't hurt either :)

Even more importantly when I am out and about, and stuck in line somewhere, I do as the angels say. I open my heart and allow the energy to flow through me and out around me. I pray for everyone around to be blessed. It feels GREAT! Secret angels indeed!

And while it is fun to receive presents, I love seeing the Presence of another soul shining brightly. Nothing makes my heart sing more than seeing a friend or client doing something they love, in love with themselves and life, sharing their hearts and authentic selves with the world. I love that!

I imagine God is saying to each of us, "All I want for Christmas is You!"

Love and holiday blessings!

Friday, November 18, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving

Gratitude is easy when things are going well. When life presents challenges, however, gratitude becomes the key for turning things around. Gratitude makes you look at life through the eyes of goodness, truth, beauty, abundance, and in that outlook, things begin to change.

I had another chance to practice that gratitude last week. I have been so happy lately and feeling better than ever. When the angels suggested I do 20 minutes of cardio several times a week to keep my heart healthy, I decided to get up early, crank some fun tunes and dance. It has been a delightful way to start my day! Two weeks ago, I was feeling so excited about life. An excited Aries is somewhat like a puppy who sees a treat. We move fast. We live in our heads, and we don't always pay attention to our feet. At the pinnacle of joy, after a great day of work, looking forward to a fantastic weekend, I was zipping around, and caught my toe on a door. It wasn't the first time. It immediately began turning purple and had that sadly distinct feeling of a stress fracture.

As I iced it and propped it up, my heart sank! The holidays were coming! I'm baking a big Thanksgiving dinner for friends, decorating, and so much more! I started to go into drama. You won't have Thanksgiving! You'll have to order food! You can't decorate for Christmas. "Idiot!! Stupid! Ann! You know better than to rush around when you're happy!" I stopped myself in my tracks, cut out the self-deprecation and the pity party that would have ensued, and focused on gratitude. I had good friends who would help. I caught it and was able to ice it promptly. I knew how to care for it having injured toes many times this lifetime and was grateful that $5 worth of first aid tape and cotton were all that was required. It was the little toe, not the big one. And I went on until I was thanking God for my miracle healing, for undoing any damage done, etc. I started feeling exceedingly grateful that I was not going to suffer with a painful break through the holidays and I was going to get a miraculously quick healing.

The gratitude was what saved me. I ended the drama, taped the toe, got the house is decorated with some help, and the Thanksgiving baking is in progress. During a friends' angel session I continued to thank God for my miracle healing and affirm my wholeness, and lo and behold, the "broken" feeling started to go away as heat shot through my foot and out the toes. As I thanked my feet for carrying me and for their wholeness, the spiritual heat warmed them day by day and although I am still gimping around a little bit, I do believe I got my miracle. Things no longer feel broken! I've extended the gratitude towards my entire body. I thank it every day for being whole and healthy and even things that needed some help are getting fixed. Gratitude is an affirmation of truth!

On a practical level, gratitude changes your outlook, which in turn changes your life. My water heater's first heating element broke down several weeks ago and I found out the hard water had gunked it so badly I'd have to either keep repairing it or get a water softener. I opted for the real solution and even though I had a big bill, the soft water is wonderful! Lately the second heating element broke down in the water heater, leaving me with 3" of warm water in the mornings. I was still grateful for that because I have been to Peru where you are lucky to have water, let alone warm water. Ends up my good attitude helped when I called the repair place. They came out and replaced the second heating element for free, and cleaned out the system as well. Now I'm grateful for their good service!

I am grateful for so many things. I am grateful to simply be on earth. It is difficult and excruciatingly painful at times. But it is also beautiful. The human spirit inspires me. The majesty of nature is breathtaking. The miracle of God's smallest creatures is mind blowing, let alone the miracle of our own bodies. We can interact with one another, explore who we are, and learn about the love that is all around us. Together we are growing in our awareness of the love that lives within, and that is beautiful.

The more grateful I am, the more I have to be grateful for.

And I am deeply grateful for all of you!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

True abundance is now

When I was an engineer, I reached a point where I hated my job. I worked 90 hours a week, 7 days a week and more was expected every day. I worked with some amazing people but also quite a few who whined as much as I wanted to. And I wanted out. I realize looking back that I was not going to be allowed to leave before I learned to bring love into the situation. At one point in this miserable, angry state inside of myself it dawned on me, that nothing was going to change for now and so I better change. I started to do what I could to make the intense work environment kinder. I brought in snacks, decorated during the holidays, used humor, improved the lines of communication and did whatever it took to help the group I was working for. Although my schedule didn't ease up, my heart did, and when the time came to leave I did so knowing I had done my best. I had also, unwittingly with all that overtime money, created a buffer with which I could start my angel c areer.

I have watched many people transform their lives by simply adding more love. Love doesn't mean putting up with abuse, nor does it mean keeping quiet if something isn't right. It just means you can bring your best self into any situation you find yourself no matter what.

I have seen many people change their careers over the course of my career as an angel communicator. It starts simply. They do what they love in small doses, as time permits, on the side. They donate, trade, or sell their services for a small fee as they develop confidence. Little by little their joy increases because they are doing what they love if only in small doses. This love doesn't have to be something you charge for. It can be volunteering, spending time with kids, animals, baking, creative work, you name it. But when you do things for the love of it in your life, your focus on the joy magically starts to pull you in that direction. Little by little, even if you are working in a job "just" for the money, you realize that is OK! It is ok to support yourself while you have your fun outside of work. It is ok to live comfortably for awhile as you start something else up. You don't have to do kamikaze style growth like I did when I quit sudde nly and ended up living on total faith. That was my path, both because I needed to learn it and I needed to teach it. You can create your transitions much more gently.

If you do find yourself in a position where you are doing something you love on the side, keep the focus on love, not money, because that is where you will find joy. You can enjoy the process of getting to your goals and have a lifetime of rich days, not a lifetime of impoverished, stressed out days hoping to someday feel better. Our experience really is defined by our choice and perception. One decision to bring my best self to work changed my experience of corporate work, completed my lessons there, and eventually allowed me to leave with my head held high. One day I went to a job I was starting to hate. The next day I went to a job that I decided would teach me to bring my best self and be the light in the darkness. It was a tiny shift in perception within my head, but in reality it was a choice between heaven and hell. Both exist as options no matter what circumstance we find ourselves within. So when you do something and think you "Have to" find a reason you "Choose to" because in reality there are always choices.

I choose to do things for the love of it these days whenever I have that choice. I'm currently sponsoring a concert for the sheer love of the music I want to hear and the delight of giving back to someone whose work adds a whole new dimension to my own seminars. I'm working on a photo site for the joy of sharing the incredible beauty that I have been blessed to see in nature. I am working hard, not making much money on these things, but loving every last minute. The logical ones around me stand nonplussed while my heart sings with joy. And in the end a heart filled with joy is the greatest measure of spiritual wealth. There is no sin in wanting more. Just make sure you enjoy the journey getting there. That way the road you travel now is blessed with true abundance as well!

Saturday, November 05, 2011

When I'm being kind...

I have noticed in my life that when I am being kind to myself, life is kind to me. When I am being generous with myself I attract generous people. And when I am either beating myself or trying to "earn" love from others, that leads to one heck of a holy mess in my life!!

And while I like myself pretty well and have been urged by the angels to practice self love for years, recently I've decided, that because I want more in life for myself, I had better start treating myself even better! The thought struck me, most likely from the angels, it is so easy to criticize ourselves, why not turn that around and compliment myself for every little last thing I feel good about. And so I've been waking up and saying, "Gosh I look good today!" When I am kind to a person, "That was so sweet of you Ann!" When I do something creatively that I enjoy, I tell myself, "Wow! Look at the beauty you are leaving in this world!" And when I get frustrated at someone in traffic and am less than loving, instead of beating myself up, I'll say, "Well they weren't too nice and you did your best, but that's ok! You'll do better next time!" This new habit has been both funny and a lot of fun! I've been putting good thoughts, good words, and only loving statements into my own psyche! It feels so contrived and so weird at first, but at the same time, why is it that self-criticism, self-denial, and self-deprecation should feel natural! That's backwards!!

Try it! Try being totally loving to yourself. Try telling yourself good things. Try encouraging yourself when you are down, and consoling yourself when you have a less than proud moment. It certainly feels a LOT better than what most of us were trained to do, and it certainly is how the angels would prefer we treat ourselves! I think people are afraid of becoming arrogant and yet arrogance simply comes from the insecure. People are afraid of being narcissistic but truly narcissists don't love themselves, they hate themselves so much they pretend to love themselves to the extreme.

True self love is adorable. Look at a child who brags about his talents! Look at a rose blooming, practically crying out to be noticed by the sheer beauty of its being. You can both love yourself immeasurably and be humble because you know it all comes from God! I know it isn't ego-Ann creating all this good in my life. Ego-Ann is just getting out of the way finally and allowing it. And when I hurt or get cranky or do something less than spiritually evolved, it is fine to console little ego-Ann because she's doing her best. That is what the Love within you would do! That is what the angels would do. And in beginning to live this way you start to identify more and more with the loving truth of who you really are.

The added benefit to such self love is that the world begins to reflect that love back to you in the most magical ways as well and the few who don't like it will fall by the wayside. You won't care! You are being too nice to yourself to let anyone be mean or to take it seriously if they are. So start living a charmed life by being loving, kind, and charming to yourself. It is not arrogant. You are not saying you are better than anyone else. To the contrary those who truly love themselves can be more gracious, loving, and kind to others as well because they realize that they, and all others, are truly special and unique manifestations of God's love.