Saturday, August 27, 2011

Don't should

We've all heard it. "Don't should on me!" And yet we "should" on ourselves all the time!! Just a few weeks ago I started a creative project that I loved but I got sucked into the need to "get it done" because I had a little "should" running that said, "Once you start on something you need to finish it asap." The joy slowly started to get sucked out of this project that I loved because it had become just one more item on the "to do" list rather than something I was doing for joy. I stopped, switched gears, and will be working on it leisurely now as it gives me pleasure.

So many "shoulds" have colored my life. I fought with my hair my entire life only to discover it is easier to allow it to dry naturally, using a blowdryer only in the winter when it is cold out! I was 'nice' to everyone instead of being truthful in my past. I said yes when I meant "no" because I didn't' want to offend anyone. I offended my soul instead! I went to college and became an electrical engineer because I knew I "should" use my good brain in some sort of brainy way. I totally ignored my love of writing and the creative arts. Those were "hobbies." I knew I had to get a "serious" career. I did. And I didn't love it at all. One more "should" went out the window as I switched to be an angel communicator.

Even when I got honest about my new career, I was riddled with "shoulds." I dressed the way I thought I "should" in such a profession. The long goddess gowns that Doreen Virtue wears look beautiful on her but absolutely ridiculous on me! I'm short and they don't match MY personality. I like sparkles. Now I dress for my inner fairie more often. For years, I acted the way I thought a spiritual instructor "should" act. Tasteful. Tame. I censored my speaking. The truth is I'm not all that! I'm rambunctious, feisty, and have a corny sense of humor in addition to the huge compassion I feel for humanity. The more I became myself, the more enjoyable my classes have been for me and my students. Over the years I have had to unlearn my shoulds and have learned to just be me. It feels so much better. And the more I am me, the more comfortable I am letting others be who they are as well, with no need to fix or change and only a desire to love .

One of my favorite series on TV is the "Food Network Star" series. I like it for two reasons. Obviously it is about food and I love food. But even more than that, the stars are stretched beyond their comfort zone as they are asked to bring their authentic selves to the forefront and to be real in front of the camera. This is not one of those "reality" shows where people parade around acting like spoiled divas, but rather a series in which people are asked to share their hearts, their stories, and their own unique point of view! I love it! Those are life skills we all need to hang on to. Who you are is who God designed you to be and there is nothing wrong with that. You are part of the big puzzle of life and we will all fit life when we start being ourselves and trying to fit others' notions of who we "should" be. Look at the word, "GURU". A real Guru's wisdom is simply telling you, "GEE YOU ARE YOU! G.U.R.U.!" How funny is that :)!

Next time you feel compelled to be anything other than who you really are in the moment, think again. You are loving. You are kind. And you can lovingly and kindly be honest with the world about who you want to be. Say what is true for you, kindly. Dress in ways that make you feel happy and good. Eat what your body is craving rather than what the books say you should. Do the things that give you joy. Life is indeed too short to try to be something other than who we are.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Its all available now

So many times in my life my angels have reminded me to create my life from the inside out. Looking back I realize that I only feel lack when I fail to acknowledge my abundance. If I take time to admire my flowers, or the beautiful sky or the songs of the birds, I feel rich. After all, isn't that why we all want more money... to enjoy life! Why not enjoy it now. I make the same amount I have for years and my bills have gotten more huge and yet I take better care of myself and therefore feel greater abundance. When I used to worry about money, clients would cancel last minute, bills would pile up. Now I just trust in the security of God's care and everything always works out no matter how crazy it might look.

I went through years of my life feeling lonely and sorry for myself after a string of very silly relationships in my thirties. I wanted someone to come into my life and make it all better - to make up for all the bad choices *I* had made!! Of course that didn't happen! If a guy had come up to me saying, "I've made a string of bad relationship choices and feel burnt out, abused, lonely, and a bit put out with relationships in general. Would you come date me and make it all better?" Well I'd RUN! And vibrationally, that was the type signal I was sending out! Can you imagine! If we could only see the signals we send, we'd understand why we have what we've got! Needless to say the angels worked with me on self-love, self-care and so much more and I now feel surrounded by more love and joy than I have ever had in my life, and in so many different ways that I am overflowing with gratitude. Life still has its challenges but they just don't seem daun ting anymore. The love is there. The trust is there. I know God cares.

Life does start to change from the inside out. Outer bandaids solve the problems we think we have on the surface, but the true fixes start from within. The choices to be kind to yourself start within. The choice to accept kindness and walk away from anything else start within. The choice to sit still and let God and the angels love you starts within. The choice to trust God in spite of appearances starts within. These are the choices that once made, over and over again, whether you feel like it or not, change your life. These are the true fixes and the path to true joy.

Love is available right now. Feelings of abundance are available now. Make one good choice after the next to seek out what you already have inside yourself. Love yourself even if you feel sad or pissy or scared. Its a start. Pray to feel secure. Pray for direction. But for this second, just this moment, sit still, ask yourself what you want within your power to feel or create, right now, and give that gift to yourself.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Try something new

It is easy to get set in our ways. We have our routines, the food we like, the things we enjoy, the people we know, etc. And while it is wonderful to have such comfort in our lives, the very thing that keeps life interesting is its diversity. When I am in a time of great transitions in my life I seek out comfort. When I am in a time of comfort, I seek out new adventures.

Years ago after a divorce, I also had an aging car. I wanted to go up north and go hiking but I was afraid my car would break down. I had no logical reason to believe this, it was just a big insecurity. And so one day I got sick and tired of living in fear, got in the car and headed for the hills. I decided that if I broke down, someone would rescue me and God would make it wonderful. The car had been recently checked. I told some friends where I was going, and thus I drove through a doorway in my life that has provided me joy ever since. After that first hike along a trail I had already known, I purchased a guidebook for the area and every week I took a new hike. Sometimes I got lost in the forests on the side of a mountain and found beautiful spots. Sometimes I veered off the beaten trail. Sometimes I crossed a hike off my list and decided never to do it again. But more often, I was rewarded with incredible joy and places I have long since been taking others when I have the chance. Opening up to new adventures has been one of life's greatest delights.

I try to remain open to new things in my life on a regular basis in the smallest of ways. I try new recipes when they sound good. I read books that inspire me. I have at times, asked people whom I totally disagreed with to tell me why they thought the way they did. In my job I must remain open at all times to anything the angels want to tell someone whether I personally would agree or not.

I think the biggest revelation that being open to life has taught me is that I am not who I thought I was when I was younger! I was raised to think of my strengths as my logic and intelligence. I prided myself on that! I thought that was who I was... the "smart girl." I was an avionics engineer for eight years and did well. But as I started exploring other hobbies, I found that creativity gives me far more joy. I love making things. I love my photography. I love color. It occurred to me the other day that I am far happier being "art girl" than "smart girl" than I ever would have imagined. It is funny at this age to be learning more about my true nature. It is giving me some ideas for projects that will be a lot of fun and inspiring for others too, I hope.

So try something new that draws your attention this week, even if it is reading a new magazine, tasting a new food, going to a web site on something interesting that you never thought you could do. Have a little fun opening up to life and see how life then starts to rush into you, through you, and carry you to other joys!

Saturday, August 06, 2011

Heaven in simple pleasures

I find heaven every day in the simplest of pleasures. The birds singing in the trees every morning delight me. Fresh summer fruits are heavenly when I bite into a bowlful of beautiful berries or taste a big juicy peach. The scent of a freshly squeezed lemon is heavenly, as is the smell of the desert when I open the windows after a rain. These things cost little to nothing and yet they are where the real joys in life can be found again and again.

It seems we all wait for the big things. When I get 'this' done, I'll be happy. When I go on this vacation, I'll really be living. When I pay off this debt, then I can have fun. When I have a relationship, then I'll be happy. And the list goes on...

I'd rather not wait for all that! The angels have taught me to always look for the happiness in my present circumstances. And while this is not so easy in challenging at times, it is so rewarding. Last year, in the midst of caring for my aging husky wolf and getting little to no sleep, I found the greatest love inside of myself that I had ever known. While dealing with parasites for months on a very limited diet I learned to create healthy recipes with fresh food that were bursting with flavor. While dealing with home repairs last year that should have sent me into financial panic I realized I really had learned deep faith in God's ability to care for me.

My home is turning 20 next year. My car is nearing 200,000 miles. I buy my own insurance, don't have a huge retirement fund, and don't bother worrying anymore. Instead, like the birds and the trees, I've learned to trust that God will always take care of me, as long as I do my part and listen to the guidance in my heart. That frees me up to enjoy the heaven all around me. Nature's bounty is always there for me to enjoy. There are other human beings to smile at and love. My aging labrador, although she will not be here forever, is here today and I find immense joy in snuggling her and telling her how wonderful she is and seeing her precious smile. Today is pretty darn good. And when I need something tomorrow, or the next day, God will figure it out. I don't worry about the government's debts. I don't worry about the sorry state of healthcare. I don't worry about the crazy earth changes or the sunspots. I trust that if these things affect me, I will be guided in what to do as a result. And so I free myself up to really live now, in each moment.

Heaven and hell exist right now in this world we already live in - and these states of being orginate between our own two ears. We have been conditioned in so many ways to look for what is wrong. Why not spend a week, or better yet, a lifetime looking for what is right instead? I'm not in denial. I see the world's problems. I just choose, as Jesus said, to turn the other cheek, to look away from the bad unless I am called to do something about it, and to focus on all that is good and true. I choose to use my power of focus to amplify the light, do the good I am called to do, and remove my energy from judging the darkness. Those in heaven doesn't deny the fact that a state of being called "hell" exists. They just choose to enjoy the truth of God's love. We can do that on earth as well!