Saturday, May 21, 2011

Patience

The week before my class I had many opportunities to practice patience. My car started rattling so I had to take it into the shop. She has 197,000 miles on her and is doing well but every now and then something creaks. And so instead of getting upset because I had a gazillion things to do, I packed my portable pc, my snacks, my ipod, and headed off to the shop. While sitting and waiting for the diagnosis, I got a LOT of class material organized, listened to uplifting music, and got a good meditation in. Thankfully a hose was flipping around and tightening it was a simple and inexpensive repair. God knew I would take more "quiet time" in the lobby of the repair place than I would at home! And so instead of fuming about the "interruption" as I would have done in the past, I was able to see, and take advantage of the love.

The lessons weren't over yet! I got home, sat at my big computer to work on the class again, and got myself a carbonated probiotic drink from the fridge. The lid stuck and so I tapped it without thought on the table and unscrewed the top. I didn't realize that the probiotic drink was under such pressure. A hissing noise began to roar as the top blew off and this wonderful beverage BLEW all over my desk, computer, keyboard, and office. OOH! I ran for the cleaning supplies and got it all up very quickly, but much to my dismay my computer keyboard was ruined! Another "interruption." By this time I sensed I was in the middle of a lesson in trust... again... so I just called up Best Buy and had them reserve me another keyboard. No use crying over exploded Kombucha drink!

At best buy I waited patiently in the customer service line wondering if anyone interesting was around. The man in front of me was scowling and grumpy. The woman behind me looked antsy as if she had a million better things to do than wait in line. She was clearly in a bad mood. I started to feel anxious to get out of that pool of negative energy when the angels got in my head and reminded me... BE the LIGHT in the darkness. I smiled. Just then the woman behind me pushed her cart forward and ran over my foot! "Ouch!" I screamed involuntarily. She woke up from her state of mind and apologized profusely. "It's ok," I said, "I'll live!" She proceeded to tell me about her bad day. "Well," I replied, "At least we're on stable ground and we're not under water like those folks in all the natural disasters." I saw this shift in perspective cross her mind. "That's true," she said. "I guess our problems are small compared to that." "This will pass," I reassured her. "Everything passes." You're right, she said. We started joking about things. She was much happier.

In looking back I saw God's wisdom. Maybe my day was "interrupted." Maybe I did have a few additional expenses. And yet, look at all the good that came from these "interruptions." I got my class nearly finished. I brightened up someone's day which not only made her feel better but made me feel wonderful because I got to "be" the angel that day. The store clerk's day was better because the entire line was lightened up and so instead of grumpy customers he got nicer ones. And perhaps I'll never know what happened after that.

Patience was not something I was born with. I had to learn it. I had to learn that when I do not get what I want now, something better is coming, or there is just a better timing to the arrival of what I want. I have seen clients desperate for money who do not yet manage their money wisely. When they learn right stewardship, the money comes. I have seen people desperately impatient for relationships and yet when they start loving their lives, magically the relationship comes. What we give ourselves internally we finally will inevitably receive externally... all in wondrous timing.

Try exercising a tiny bit more patience this week and see how much more joy can be experienced now.

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