Saturday, April 16, 2011

Little acts of love...

I am in one of those phases in life where outwardly it does not appear I am contributing as much as I have done in the past. I'm not teaching as much. i'm not writing, I'm not recording CDs. I'm working, teaching one class, helping promote my friends, and really focused on domestic bliss lately. And I love it! It is authentically what is in my heart right now. I know it is adding more light to the planet.

In this space I find myself intensely more present to myself and the world around me. I find I am aware more about what is going on and I am more connected with my guidance. I have more of those "angel" moments where I'm called to serve in the "small" ways and may never know the result. One happened just last week.

I was at the gas station and witnessed a young couple with a child having a horrible argument. I couldn't hear the words but the hateful, hurtful tone of voice was obvious. The man stormed into the store with his child and the woman stayed out and cried. Normally I would not have gotten involved. However, I went in the store to pay, and surprise to me, I felt the energy of God reaching through me, opening my mouth and heard myself saying to the man, "Your daughter is a beautiful little angel. You must love her very much." He calmed down and looked at her and I felt him start to notice that she was there, soaking all this up, and in need of greater kindness. He simply said, "Thank you."

I thought I was done, but when I went outside, the invisible force that I allow through pulled me to the young woman. I heard myself say, "You need a hug," and walked up to a total stranger, and held her for a moment in God's arms, through my arms, and gently said, "God loves you. Hang in there." I saw her rage melt into tears, as I walked away.

I will never know the goodness that comes from such actions. I simply listen, and act without hesitation. Such actions are possible only when I am authentically living in love with my own life, choosing to be the person I want to be in this phase of life. If I were burning myself out doing things I do not want to do now, I would have avoided those two like the plague. However, coming from a full cup, I can allow God to simply move me. It is not even a matter of 'hearing' guidance, but simply being willing to allow the loving impulses to direct my life.

As you all know, I promoted Robin Miller's recent concert like crazy. I was simply impulsed to help. And I never knew the gifts I would receive once there. I didn't do it for anything in return nor did I do it for financial gain. I did it because God put it in my heart. Surprise to me, I got to spend two hours floating in total Oneness. As the music played I shut my eyes and was transported beyond thought, beyond mind, beyond any notion of myself as "Ann" into the realms of the angels where waves of love and bliss washed through my being. Even my body received great rejuvenation in this space of God's heart. Who knew?

When we act out of the loving impulses in our heart, because we are simply drawn to do so, the love itself is the reward. We may never know how we impact the world, or whose lives we touch, and yet that doesn't matter, because we are here to live our own lives, be the loving beings that we are, and then trust that God will direct us as needed to be in service to the world. Whether we judge it great or small doesn't matter. I have heard, seen, and felt the tears of the angels as they are moved beyond measure by even the smallest shift in a human heart. We do matter so much. I think it is time for all of us to really see and own that, and to stop pretending we are anything less.

Love and joy :) Have a great week,