Saturday, April 23, 2011

Getting un-needy!

As many of you have noticed this year, the energy is wild and intense on this planet! The earth is moving, there is great turmoil in the middle east, and in human hearts, every last bit of anything we've repressed is coming up and out for us to take a look at. It is very important for all of us to be gentle and kind with ourselves as we go through such changes. It is important to take time to refill the proverbial wells and do the things we love so we can be a source of inspiration and joy on this earth, and not one more source of chaos. Peace, stability, love, abundance - all that we want begins within.

I know this. I try to live it. And yet I'm human and have areas to work on like all the rest of us. As many of you reading this newsletter know, last year I had more than my share of challenging times as I cared for my aging furry guy before he passed in late January. For the past two and a half months I've been unwinding, remembering how to relax again, working on my home, and loving it! I do miss my dear husky wolf in his physical form, but his constant presence in spirit is so beautiful that the grief has been only a few rounds of sobbing. In truth, it feels wonderful to sleep through the night and have peace in the house. My heart has been very happy overall. So it was not necessarily an easy thing to look at when I asked the angels to be very honest with me about any areas where I needed to grow, and ever so honestly and lovingly, they told me I had become a bit needy with certain friends of mine.

Me? Needy? I have always been able to bolster my own spirits, to go to God and my angels for love and comfort. I have always been able to do the things that give me joy and fill up my spirit easily. However, when I had an honest look at myself I realized the angels were right. Although I was loving my home improvements, I had gotten a bit lazy about doing the other things I enjoy to keep the balance in my life, and I had started depending on a few people in my life to "make" me feel happy, refilled, and peaceful. Oops! The angels knew how many times in the past I've given away my power to be happy to others rather than creating it internally and were just pointing out how I was sliding into an old pattern. I immediately set about returning to my usual state of creating a God-given magical life. We all have a God Given magic life if we're willing to create it!

A dear client had given me free a free airline passes, and I already had a Sea World pass. What was I waiting for? When I woke up at 4am on one of my usual office days I spontaneously decided to ditch work and fly standby to visit the whales and dolphins. This is how I used to live all the time! When joy called, I jumped. I am terribly responsible. I work very hard, but when my heart used to holler, I was SO there. And I had slipped away from that over the past few months but as I looked out the window at the beautiful clouds on my flight over, all I could think was, "Yeah baby! I'm back in the saddle again!" The dolphins sensed my inner joy and swam right over to me, vying for my attention, popping up under my hands, demanding I touch them, and playing with me for hours.

The joy continued Sunday when I went on a very long hike. I breathed in the fresh air, took a nap by the water on a warm rock in the sunshine, and had quite a bit of a conversation with a sweet little frog. Later as a butterfly flew by, I put out my hand, welcoming her, and she landed on it, as naturally as if on queue. We looked into each others' eyes as she sat on my palm, and I thanked her. Frog is a symbol for cleansing out the old. Butterfly is the symbol of transformation :) Mother nature is amazing.

And so in the span of three days I got out of my "needy" little energy and got back in balance by adding more of the the things I love to my daily routines. I started eating breakfast and lunch on my patio again, cutting flowers from my yard, doing a little quilting during my lunch break, using my aromatherapy oils (which have been in the closet forever) and doing my daily mediations and mantras. Quickly the joy from within started bubbling forth! And YES it is FINE to go to others for love and comfort and to revel in their energy at times, but when we start to depend on that instead of finding it within, well that isn't a path that leads to joy because no one can, or should, be there for us all the time, other than God and your angels. We have to be there for ourselves.

I'm so excited about life again. I am passionately in love with life in fact. All it takes at times is a little shift in focus and a reminder that there is so much to love. It feels so good. Why limit love in your life to, or from, a select few when there is so much to love and so much love being given us from the universe at all times. A rose blooms just to delight you! The grass grows so we can walk on it and massage our feet. The juicy tomatoes at the farmers' market on Saturday spent months growing into perfection so you can have a delightful salad. The moon shines in glory at its peak, and the breezes blow to give you a gentle caress. There is SO much love in life all around us. We just have to focus on it, find it, and celebrate it.

It is no wonder that all this growth back into magic and joy is occurring for me now. My "Dancing with Angels" class is in three weeks. I can hardly believe it! It seems like months ago when the idea dropped in my head. I'm very excited. People are coming from all over and I feel truly blessed, and the energy feels like so much fun. I have a feeling this is going to be one big refill for all of us who have worked SO hard the past few years, and even if you can't come, tap into the energy with your intent.

When you truly Dance with Angels you keep learning more and more about the nature of Love - God's love, the love that lives inside of you and is never gone. Angels help you grow. They are loving but honest. They teach self love, impeccable self care, self expression, and following your bliss. They know what we forget - that growth always and only leads to greater love, greater security, abundance, peace, and joy! Sometimes I lead with my intent and they follow with their guidance. Sometime they lead with their wisdom and I follow with my growth. At all times it is a beautiful dance, a relationship between heaven and earth that is accessible to us all!

I hope you have a blissful week doing whatever you love so you too can feel the fullness of God's joy rising up from within. And oh my as I write this I hear the angels in my head making a little joke...

"Happiness is not one of those things you want to Outsource!" Ha! They are so funny!

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