Saturday, July 31, 2010


According to the angels, this was the year my soul originally intended to die. Thankfully I made a very conscious choice to live and so this year I am in a sense, in between lives, cleaning out the old and making room for the new. The skills of choosing love and choosing peace that I've worked on over the years have come in so handy this year I do not know how I would have made it through without them!

Lately my opportunities to choose peace and love come in the form of piles and puddles gifted to me by my aging dogs. This isn't an easy phase. I clean up sometimes 4-5 times a day, often in the middle of the night, and do laundry at all hours. But I LOVE my dogs, and focusing on that love makes it all bearable. Focusing on loving myself has caused me to ask the angels for even more comfort and support as usual. And strangely I have been more awake with less sleep, able to love more in spite of more challenges, and able to accept myself even when I occasionally have to have good cry. The heart energy is HUGE. Friends have been supportive without me asking. Love is coming from unexpected people in my life, and I feel my heart more than ever before. In the midst of challenge, there is such beauty. It is simply amazing.

The ability to choose peace paid off in a big way a few weeks ago. Somehow I threw my back off and I kept feeling pinched in my shoulders. I had little chest pains here and there and knew it was just my posture. However, one day I started having intense chest pains and shortness of breath - all the symptoms that one has with a heart attack. By the grace of God and years of practice, I was totally calm. I lay down on the couch, called in my guides, and simply asked, "Is this a heart attack, and am I dying?" "No and you are not dying," came the response. Jesus showed up quite clearly in my vision with his hands on my heart. "You have been feeling HUGE love for the world lately and your body got a little blocked up, that is all." I had been saying I was feeling so much love I thought I would burst! (Oops!) I received guidance to do some energy work and the pain was soon fixed. I later learned that the pinched shoulder caused nerves to misfire which made my heart skip a few beats. (A big thanks to Dr. Peebles who comes through Summer Bacon who suggested a chiropractic fix that solved this once and for all). Had I not had plenty of practice in choosing peace and love, I might have freaked out and caused myself REAL physical trouble. Instead the calm allowed me to hear guidance, to think clearly, and to simply solve the problem.

Life is sometimes just doing its thing. Stuff breaks down. People and pets break down or behave badly. We break down or behave badly at times! But in spite of that we can take a breath and remind ourselves that loving ourselves first and then loving others is the happiest way to go. Choosing peace instead of conditioned drama ultimately feels so much better and allows us to receive greater guidance. Getting into a tizzy does very little good at all.

We do have choice. We do have the ability to recondition and retrain ourselves. Each time we choose peace and love we are unlearning bad habits that have been passed down throughout the human race, and learning to be who we really are. It feels amazing to know you can be happy in spite of life's challenges, and in so doing, you get through them with greater grace, peace, love, humor, and joy. I feel very blessed in my life. I feel an outpouring of love from the universe and from friends. And this love I have chosen to share with life itself comes echoing back in the most magnificent ways. I don't 'give to get.' I am not always peaceful but even in my profoundly human moments I choose to love myself and thereby find my way back to peace again. So can you :)

May peace be with you, and may the love that you are light your way.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Messages from the clouds

Last weekend on my day off I got in the car with absolutely no idea where I was going to go hiking. I thought I was going to go to Sedona and find a nice trail but as I was driving up the highway nothing resonated. I couldn't for the world figure out where I was going. Suddenly a strong feeling came over me. I longed to be on the top of Mt. Humphrey in Flagstaff. "Where is this coming from?" I wondered. It was an additional hours drive and the weather looked like it would storm later so I wasn't even sure I'd be allowed on the top. Nonetheless, the feeling wouldn't go away. As I was having a discussion with the angels, questioning my own inner compass, I drove right past the Sedona exit and realized I was headed to Flagstaff. So be it! To the mountain we went!

Happily the sun was still shining and the ski lift that you can ride to the top was just opening. Ominous clouds were beginning to gather near the top. One of the rangers made it clear to those of us buying tickets that this might not be a joy ride. "You are extremely likely to get caught in a thunderstorm up there and it can go down to 45 degrees in a matter of minutes. Be prepared!" I was wearing shorts and had only a light rain jacket. Hmmm. I quietly decided to have a chat with the clouds and have a wonderful ride! If God had guided me up there, it was going to be a good day!

On the way up, sitting in the ski chair lift high above the beautiful pines, I began to chat with the clouds. After all, everything has consciousness.

Please don't rain or storm on me today, I asked them. I love you and acknowledge that you have a right to be but I want to enjoy a sunny trip up and down the mountain." "We will reflect you," the clouds answered. "Will you build into a thunderous storm today or will you be calm and therefore keep us calm by your intent?" "Calm please," I answered telepathically. "Tell me more," I requested. The clouds answered, "When you feel static or turbulence, you keep attracting more until your inner clouds gather into a storm and you must dissipate them with either the rain of your tears, the turbulence of your tantrums, of more peacefully with the light of the Sun/Divine love that resides within you." I sat and breathed slowly and deeply and became very calm. I imagined the light in my heart burning brightly through my own aura, dissipating anything else that was less than that love. And while I was doing this I focused on the sun behind the building clouds. It began to burn through. The bright blue sky shone through. And then the clouds did a most magnificent thing and formed the shape of a heart with the rays of the sun shining brightly upon it. I leaned over on the chair lift and began snapping pictures wildly. It was breathtaking!

At the top, the sunshine remained even as the clouds continued to build. I was warm and comfortable. Up there I realized why I had been guided. Friends of mine were on Mt. Fuji all across the world and the angels told me to imagine connecting lines of light between the two sacred peaks - the one I was on, and the one my friend was one. And so I shut my eyes for the briefest seconds, turned to pure light and imagined our lights connecting, strengthening Mother Earth, and being joined by all other lightworkers doing anything on her behalf. It felt wonderful! In that glorious space of Oneness, I said a few prayers for the world, for my clients and loved ones, and then simply enjoyed the exhilaration of being 12,000 feet high with a magnificent view. The clouds kept their promise and allowed the sun to shine on my shoulders all the way down. Safely at the bottom of the lift, I looked behind me to see an ominous storm brewing at the top of the mountain that had been, only a half hour before, bathed in sunlight. I took time half way down the mountain to go for a brief walk until I felt, again, that tug that says, "Go now." Luckily I listened and got in the car and on the road in time to avoid the storm. I gave thanks, drove out from under the cloud, back down the canyon, through Sedona, and home. I only had a few sprinkles on my car while behind me the sky turned a deep purplish gray and put on an amazing light show.

There are times when you desperately NEED guidance but if you can relax, it comes ever so much more easily. Then there are times you're just playing and the guidance comes to assist someone or something or the earth but it is always joyful in the long run. When we give up controlling every moment of our time with our minds, and really listen to our hearts, then magical doorways open for us... ones that we didn't even know were there. So this week, may the light within your own heart be your guide into great joy!

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Avoiding anxiety

Many of you have heard this - last autumn I had huge unnamed anxieties come up. As I sat to look them in the eye, I realized I was dealing with fears that came from other lifetimes. The angels told me to go get a past life regression hypnosis and in the course of two hours all the fears and anxieties disappeared.

Ever since then, life's challenges have just seemed different. I'm not getting in a tizzy when something breaks, nor am I getting lost in fear when something goes haywire in my body. I just sit, breathe, and handle it. It is amazing how much energy is freed up to actually solve life's challenges when we refuse to give into the energies that want to keep us confused, spinning around in our heads and separate from our guidance. The less I worry, the more life brings me assistance.

Three weeks ago for example, after paying to get the dryer and stove fixed, the freezer started leaking! So I called my favorite appliance repair folks and was calm and pleasant on the phone as we tried to find a time for them to come out and fix the freezer. When it became apparent that it was not going to be easy to find a time soon, the lady who does the scheduling stopped, took a breath and said to me, "Honey do you want me to tell you how to fix it yourself." My response - "Yes please!" And so this dear soul spent time with me on the phone detailing every little step of the repair. That night, to my amazement, I easily fixed the leak in the freezer myself. She saved me a few hundred dollars and told me it was because I was always so nice and calm when I talked them.

Fast forward a few more weeks. Last Thursday during my afternoon clients I thought I was having hot flashes but instead discovered my air conditioning had gone out. It was 90 in the house and over 100 degrees outside. I didn't bother getting bothered. It was after hours and the company I have a service contract with wasn't available. So instead of getting in a tizzy, I asked the angels to help me find a 24hr repair service. Sure enough a gentleman came out and did a temporary fix. I am sure it was not an accident that God sent me a repair man who needed me to tell him he wasn't crazy because he saw spirits! Three hours later the a/c broke again! I did what the man had showed me to temporarily fix it and called my regular company. I was blessed with cool air and a work-around on and off throughout the night, and although I had to reschedule all my clients the next afternoon, the a/c is now fixed for good. If I had let anxiety about money, the problem, or the fact that this has been appliance-repair year for me get the best of me, I am certain this would not have been so easy on me.

Anxiety and fear are pretty strong energies on this planet. But your soul can take charge of your life and your mind again if you keep choosing to sit, breathe, pray, and look at the truth of your life today. That is a far happier and more powerful way to live.

May peace and calm abide in your heart this week.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

No worries

This message from the angels strikes a chord. I don't worry too much but others tend worry about me. The fact that I am usually strong and upbeat makes people worry when I am not up, happy, and healthy. I am, however, human as the rest, and when I give myself a spiritual lesson I often do it with a bang!

When I broke my foot years ago, friends were on my case to get more medical advice. I was perfectly happy however knowing what I already knew, embracing the lessons, and healing up as a result of my spiritual work. I knew if I didn't learn my lessons the next one would be wicked! And so while well-meaning individuals worried that I'd have permanent foot damage, I put my foot down - and my foot healed. And while others insisted I'd have permanent nerve damage, I stopped letting life get on my nerves, and that healed too. The spiritual lessons and physical healing went hand in hand and there is no permanent damage whatsoever. Although I knew my friends worried because they loved me I also see deeper and knew their worry was a mixture of both genuine love and concern, as well as their own fears. I didn't have the energy to ease others' worries while healing myself. I had to learn to just stick to my own truth and do the real spiritual work.

Recently I've had great concerns about the Gulf coast. The ocean floor looks like swiss cheese in my visions due to the rapid drainage of oil. There is potential for a serious mess. Rather than worry, I'm trying to take action with prayers, meditations,and a commitment to be an extraordinarily loving person every day. Handling what is in front of us now is far more important and a better use of our creative abilities than projecting a fearful reality into the future. Disasters may come but if we project positive energy outward, rather than worry, we can mitigate situations that would otherwise be far worse. When we worry, we can hardly hear our own guidance.

So if you are a worrier, try not to place the burden of easing your worries on the person you are worried about. Rather, turn your worries to a prayer for the good you'd like to see in your own life or the lives of others. I'd rather someone say, "I love and care about you and have you considered this..." than "I'm so worried about you. You should..." It may be the same underlying concern but the first statement feels a lot more like love. If you the one others worry about, don't take it on - live your truth and just make sure you own the choices you make in your own life, because in the end, that is all we are ever held to account for. Above all remember that we are powerful creators and rather than worrying, far better to project the best possible outcome into the future rather than our worst fears.

Love and hugs and... no worries!