Saturday, September 18, 2010

Look through heaven's eyes

The angel message today holds very personal meaning for me. When a recent storm blew roof tiles up and off my roof, I have to admit, after a year of home repairs, that did not feel very loving! But I have been trained well by the angels and so I withheld judgment and called the insurance company to send someone out to have a look. This repair was covered, but the deductible payment is still pretty big.

Furthermore the roof inspector found another leak on the back patio that was not covered by insurance since it was likely there from the time the house was built! Ouch! This bill was going to be astronomical. I had a moment of panic, but stopped, breathed and took a look at the greater truth. I've been manifesting in the flow of grace very strongly lately since I'm teaching it at Celebrate Your Life, and I know I always take the class before teaching it. So what was the love behind all this?

What have you been manifesting lately and specifically Ann," the angels asked me. "A new bathroom in the perfect way and perfect time," I replied. "And why do you need a new bathroom?" I felt this was some kind of crazy discussion but went along with it. "Because I had mold break out earlier this year." "Yes, the angels said, and what causes mold?" "Water leaking in....." OH!! Oh my Goodness! I got it! The roof inspector had discovered the original leak that caused the mold outbreak in my bathroom below! I would never ever have been on the roof to find it had the storm not damaged the tiles. Genius! God rocks once again! I shudder to think what would have happened had I had the money to redo the bathroom earlier. I would have installed all new equipment only to have the old problem crop up again! And so God, in an act of pure brilliance, made certain I would not have to deal with mold again. Yes the repairs are costly, and totally inconvenient, and yet another mold outbreak after spending so much on a new bathroom would have been a lot worse. And so I got down on my knees and gave thanks for this blessing in disguise, took money out of long-term savings for the first time since my divorce 15 years ago and let it all go.

While this might not seem loving it is. We live in a material world and things break, but to have them fixed when the money is there and before they cause further problems is a blessing and was actually part of a bigger manifestation. I could have chosen to throw tantrums, whine, cry our "poor me," freak out about taking money out of my only savings, etc., but instead I choose to thank God for making sure the bigger needs in my life were satisfied before I even knew the problem. I could have seen this as hell but instead I chose to see heaven. And as a result I am a lot happier and am manifesting in other wonderful ways at the moment.

You've heard about my dogs as well - the vet original told me the leakage problem was due to my older guy's hip displaysia, but it recently occurred to me to ask again about so-called "pee pee" pills. My vet didn't think they'd do much good but because the angels had said they would help I begged to try them. Nirvana!! I'm down from 6 loads of wash a day to two and sleeping far more hours at a time. Again, once I stopped whining and started focusing on a solution, I could sense the grace that had been available to me all along. And while I love my vet, something motivated me to check out mobile vets. I talked to one that I did not feel good about, but during the discussion learned of a different pain medication I could try for my dogs, and lo and behold that is working too.

Just to top off my "return-to-manifesting" week, the angels put it in my head to go to the thrift store. I haven't been in ages. I haven't wanted to spend any extra this year. And yet I've been in need of jeans that fit since I lost all that weight with the parasites, so off I went. Not only did I find several pairs of almost new jeans for $6 each, but also some new work tops for $2 each (I was at the store during an hourly 50% off special), an originally expensive starbucks coffee maker, brand new condition, for $10 (I am drinking coffee again), and a $100+ power juicer for $15!! I could not believe it!! I got everything I'd been wishing for and needing for a steal. That is manifesting in the flow! I'm back in the saddle again! Funny what happens when I practice what I preach!! :)
And while these are just material things, I already feel blessed with the beautiful people in my life and the connection with God and the angels that I have worked at all these years.

So we DO always have a choice to see heaven or hell, and being human, most of us have looked both ways at different times in our lives. If you want to manifest in the flow of grace, you do have to assume that everything that happens has love behind it and everything has some solution that can only be revealed when we calm ourselves down, assume love, and ask for the help.

The parasites earlier this year were not fun but made me resolve not to take on energies that aren't mine, and forced me to crave healthy foods as a side benefit. The home repairs haven't exactly been a party but my place is getting all cleaned up so when my dogs leave the planet I will not have much to worry about. Even the incredible hours spent caring for my aging furry kids are an exercise in deepening my ability to love and surrender to life's challenges. So be it. I'm not on earth to waste this opportunity to learn and I feel move love in my life than ever before.

This week try to look at everything, no exclusions, through heaven's eyes. Pray to see the good and the silver lining in every situation. And when you can't yet see it assume you will in time. For there is God, good, and grace behind all things if we are willing to dig deep enough and see it.

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