Saturday, April 03, 2010

Live like you were dying

Death has been on my mind a lot lately. Ever since the angels told me my soul chose to stick around longer than originally intended, the rest of life's challenges seem small. I am looking at the world through new eyes. I've been getting rid of stuff and passing along things that I've held onto for years. And it no longer makes sense not to love.

My dogs are making me think of death as well. My dearest husky keeps telling me he is not going to be here very long. He is aging and having a hard time walking around, and I know when the time comes he has agreed to let go easily in his sleep. Nonetheless, that makes the moments we have together even more precious. He doesn't want me changing my life and spending every moment with him as I would be prone to do, but rather wants me to keep living. He did make a special request a few weeks ago, to go on a trip to Sedona with me, and so we loaded up both dogs in the car, and even though it required some limping, he went straight for the creek, stood in the moving water and smiled as big as only a dog can smile. I could read his mind... "Now I'm satisfied."

I hug and kiss my dog every night now with great tenderness and love. He won't tell me if 'soon' means weeks, months, or years, although I suspect. After years of lessons in love, he is teaching me one more valuable and priceless lesson - to treasure every moment we have, to speak with love, to look at one another with love, and to be tender and kind even when things get difficult. We all know that, but to put it into practice every moment feels so right. I have a tendency to look at him and cry every now and then, knowing he won't physically be here long, but in typical dog fashion, he telepathically says, "I'm here now. Be happy!" So I smile and say, "I got it," and he breaks out in a big doggie grin as well. I am humbled before my four footed teacher once again!

We have even begun a little game to prepare for our new relationship after he leaves physical form. I put my third eye on to his, and forehead-to-forehead, I send him pictures of us romping around in spirit together in fields of flowers. When I asked him to send me a picture of what he wants me to do with him when he gets to heaven, he showed me a picture of me sitting in the planter box with him, just smiling at each other!! I laughed so hard I nearly cried again! He has truly taught me that to sit and be with a loved one is a joy unto itself. I often go out in the yard and just sit beside him. He taught me to sniff the air, feel the sun and the breeze on my face, and listen to the bird songs. He has taught me that love and life and joy can be very, very simple.

How would we all treat each other if we knew we were on borrowed time? What if knew the guy that cut you off in traffic was going to be in an accident later on... would we swear or rather pray for him? I saw that happen the other day. What if you knew an ex lover was going to die? Wouldn't we want to let go of upsets and forgive and make peace? This happened to several clients of mine. What if we knew our own temporary nature, truly and deeply? Wouldn't we live the lives we wanted to live? In the words of a terrific country song, I wish we all could "Live like we were dying." I know we'd all live and love more fully. We could appreciate even the tough stuff. I am blessed to be living that way now. It is amazing.

So as we approach Easter, know that resurrection of the soul follows every death, be it physical or emotional. If your life falls apart, God will rebuild. If you lose a job, you'll get another one. If you lose a loved one, you can be assured they have been born into a new and glorious and joyous reality. And the more we let go of what is no longer serving us, as the angels say, the more we are born into a glorious, simpler, and more loving reality. I give thanks for the rebirth and the incredible peace that comes with it, and wish you all a very happy holiday.

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