Saturday, April 26, 2008

Choose to focus on things that uplift you

I have had so many people coming into my office asking about fatigue these past few weeks. I have had days when after work I lay down on the couch and go out of body for two hours, wake up, eat dinner, work for a few more hours, and fall asleep! And somehow, the chores are getting done, the emails are getting answered, and the house is getting maintained. The angels told me a long time ago that if I listen to my body and my inner direction and honor it, I would actually be more productive. This has proven to be true. I can't get a thing done when I'm exhausted. But after I rest, I can accomplish a great deal. Some days rest is a two minute break with my eyes shut and a quick prayer as the angels have said. When I used to work in a corporation, I'd sneak into the rest room, shut the door, shut my eyes and pray for a quick refill from the heavens. There is always a way!

I've also had to pump myself full of positive images and inspiration lately to stay up and inspired for all those I serve. The energy on earth is intense, and I feel it too. Each day I give all that I have to give, and then each night, after swimming around in the enery of others all day, I do what it takes to get back to being Ann and to feeling my own heart. Lately fairy tales have been my way of entering the realms of magic again! I watched one called "Enchanted" and although to some it might be a corny kid's movie, I loved it. The princess in a cartoon fairy tale gets zapped by the evil queen into a human being in New York City. She is, by nature, sweet and kind even when others aren't. And of course, her sweetness transforms lives.

I think that's what God asks of us - that we be sweet and kind and loving even in the face of unkindness, not that we be doormats - but that we remain true to our nature. I know that when I am filled with good feelings, feeling God's love, and ready to share that love with the world, I go out to run errands and get the best parking spaces, green lights in traffic, and run into kind and helpful souls along the way.

Filling yourself with good feelings takes work at times in this world. If we wait for life or someone else to fill us with good feelings, in my opinion, we are wasting time. Life doesn't always fill us with good feelings. When I went out to get the mail Thursday night and discovered a huge leak in my sprinkler system as the sun was setting, it didn't fill me with good feelings! Neither did digging in the soggy mud by flashlight to find and fix the leak. However, I had a choice there to feel sorry for myself, or to just thank God I didn't have a sinkhole, and I did have a flashlight! I had a choice to whine about how hungry I was or to go inside and eat. We always have choices.

Waiting for life to uplift you is a gamble.

Choosing to focus on things that uplift you is a sure bet :)

As I sat there basking in happy feelings at the end of the movie, Jesus came by and filled me with incredible love and sweetness. I was so blissed out. I could barely move for over two hours. I needed to just sit there and fill myself with that love. When we tap into a vibration of love and joy, we open up to feeling more. Who would have thought that joyous feelings from a fairy story about a princess and a prince would bring me a visit from the one known as the "Prince of Peace?" And to make matters even funnier, I found a single plexi-glass slipper in the thrift store the next day and... had to search for the match!! Universal humor! The angels say often, in regards to relationships and all our life's activities, either they fit or they don't :)

We can choose to fill ourselves with good feelings no matter what. We can choose to look at things that inspire and uplift us. We can choose to look for the good in any situation. We can choose activities that bring us joy or unfortunately we can lie to ourselves and choose to do things that arent' authentic and drag us down. When giving is God-inspired it is a total joy. When giving comes from duty, guilt, shame, or other shoulds, it is a chore. The angels have often told me, when you are tired, rest. When you have energy, time, or money to give, ask God where to direct it. We are all the hands, eyes, and mouths, that share God's love on this planet. But we have to consciously and constantly refill our spirits so that we have energy to give. So be honest with yourself and rest if you're tired, focus on the good in the world and seek it out rather than getting spoonfed the despair and depression that seems to run rampant. Seek out the stories that inspire you. Watch movies that uplift you. Fill yourself with good food, good feelings, and take time to sit still and feel the love of God and the angels.

Then, you'll weather the changes in this world, with joy.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Free meditation to heal the earth

Once again the angels have me near tears as their message pours through me. I have been walking in two worlds as of late and this fact was highlighted in the most humorous way the other night as I flipped between two television channels - one playing the movie, "Ever After," which is a modern version of the Cinderella fairy tale, and the other playing the movie "Volcano" showing scenes of panic, death, and destruction. The angels have often told me that both joy and pain exist at all times on this earth, and it is up to us to choose which one we want to tune into. I tuned into both, because at this time on our earth, both exist.

SO many people have been erupting with their truth as of late. So many people are being more honest with themselves and others about what is in their hearts. So many are being moved around by layoffs, relationship changes, and other life circumstances. So indeed the volcanoes are going off not just in Hawaii, Columbia, Indonesia, but in our own hearts as the truth deep within us comes to the surface. Not only are swarms of quakes shaking the seas near the northwest coast and other areas of the world, but also we are shaking off old beliefs and fears from our past. It is indeed a time of great change in our lives.

I believe in fairy tales as surely as I believe in the destructive aspects of life. In a fairy tale it is always the wicked witch or stepmother or wizard that doesn't believe in magic who tries to manipulate and take matters into their own hands, and work for selfish gain. It is always the innocent, naive child who believes in magic who prevails, and it is always the one who listens to the heart who lives happily ever after. Darkness exists, but so does love, and I for one will always focus on the love in the world.

Take this example - the angels said through my friend Summer Bacon, who is a phenomenal channel, ( that they ask us to pray to strengthen mother earth and bring her together. They said that creatures from the depths of the oceans would be rising up to speak the language of the heart. That's all but I heard volumes in my heart when that was spoken. I saw that there are governments blasting underwater ripping holes in areas of the ocean floor that don't need to be shaken. I saw that the ocean creatures are crying out for reprieve, and the earth herself is shaking and quaking and trying desperately not to fall apart in certain areas. I saw fissures in the matrix of the earth's energy field that really need repair. And I started to fall into a big anger at the systems and individuals who would perpetrate such monstrosities against our home planet. And the angels called me on my hypocrisy. "If you attack anyone with anger, dear one," they said, "you are bombing them as much as they bomb the earth." "If you seek to tear them apart with your thoughts and words, then you perpetuate the ripping of the earth's matrix because all are part of her who live upon her. Love those individuals. Pray for their awakening. Pray for the earth. Mother earth does not want you aiming your own emotional missiles at even the most ignorant of her children. Love them." Needless to say I cried a little as I felt their love flow through to me and to all involved in this. I strive to be loving and I am, but it seems that there is always more to learn about love.

And so I prayed. I prayed for the souls that would think it is ok to blast under our oceans. I prayed for the souls who seek indiscriminately and unjustly to find fuel no matter what the cost of human life or environment. I prayed for the earth's creatures, the oceans and all who live within them, and I went into a deep meditation asking the angels to show me how we could help repair the earth's matrix. I have put up a free meditation on for all wishing to join in. All you do is go to this page and download it, then you can listen to it on your computer:

(Scroll to the bottom to find the free meditation)

I know the earth is quaking and spouting right now. I also know that the only thing that can help heal her is love. If those of us on this list could pray for the effects of an asteroid to be minimal earlier this year, I feel we can pray and use the meditation above to help heal the earth's heart too, and in doing so the love that is returned is nothing short of mind blowing. I felt mother earth's love come back to me so powerfully at the end of the meditation that I can't even put it into words. The comfort she offers us is needed by us as well, as we weather these times of change.

So this week, believe in magic, believe in love, believe in innocence, and join with me in that love and magical space of creating a kinder reality for this planet we live upon.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

See through the eyes of your soul

I have been in a deep study of perceptions lately. The angels have challenged me to constantly look at the world with wonder, no matter what is happening in my mind, my body or my life. They told me I'd be challenged this month, and I have been, but at the same time I am persisting in perceiving the world with wonder, and in turn my world is wonderful!

Take Monday for example. I finished up my office work and went out into the yard an hour before sunset to trim the oleanders. I love the oleanders 363 days a year. On the two days I trim them, I can relate to mothers who say that you forget the pain of childbirth soon after the child arrives. I forget how much work it is to trim these beautiful trees that during my bi-annual pruning-fest look more like large weeds. Nonetheless, it was a nice afternoon, bulk trash pickup is scheduled for next week so I only had to haul the branches to the front yard, and since the sun was setting the usual bugs were nicely tucked in bed - otherwise known as 'perfect trimming conditions.' And so I groaned and grunted and stretched and jumped, wielding my 2-foot pruning shears like mighty mouse on steroids, chopping away 2" thick branches that were hanging over the neighbors fence and shading my garden. Things were going along pretty well, when one of the branches fell on my head, and hit me smack in the lips! Normally that would not be a big deal except for the fact that oleander sap is toxic! I forgot that until a few seconds elapsed and my lips started stinging and swelling! In a panic, I ran into the house both cussing and laughing at the same time. I often think my life should be either a sitcom or a freak show and when I was vehemently rubbing the bar of laundry soap that I keep by the sink for just such emergencies over my lips, I figured that if the camera's were rolling this would be a real comedy. So I stood there, head over the sink, kissing the bar of soap and rinsing under running water at the same time till the poison was washed away. And then I sat there, elbow on the countertop for a moment, rolling with laughter. I never dreamt that the first time I got my mouth washed out with soap it would be ME who did it!!! And instead of feeling sorry for myself, I got such a kick out of the incident that I'm still laughing.

It has been a week like that! I took a hike last weekend during which my mind wandered far outside the present moment. I looked up just in time to notice a BEE, BE-lining straight for me. I watched in wonder as it HIT me square between the eyes and bounced off then buzzed around my head insistently, around as if to say, "Wake up and BEE present!" Oh my goodness! A bee bopping me on the third eye? A date with a bar of soap? What a week! I don't think I've laughed so hard in ages.

In the past I would have felt so sorry for myself! Poor me. The only bug on the trail terrorized me. Poor me. I have to do heavy labor. Poor me. A branch fell on my head. Poor me. I had to wash my mouth out with soap. Poor me... And even writing this I'm laughing myself silly because life IS funny, or at least educational, when we can step outside of our preconditioned responses and just observe it from a different angle. (I always want to type "angel" when I type the word "angle" ... and I don't think that's a mistake!)

Even situations that aren't so funny can finally be perceived in a kinder or more lighthearted manner when we step out of our limited human viewpoint and see through the eyes of our soul. Years ago, I dated a man who was a great guy but had a lot of childhood anger inside of him. He'd been pretty abused, and me being me, I made it safe for all that pain to come up and out. He aimed it at me. Everything was my fault, according to him. At first I tried reason. I tried to make nice. I tried arguing back. The angels patiently guided me to let him be him, but also to let me be me. They guided me to see that his anger had nothing to do with me. And one day I got it. We were in the car and he was raging at me for something his mom did years ago, and then all of the sudden the absolute absurdity hit me. I can't even explain how I got this perspective except to say that the "laughing Buddha" is one of my spirit guides and I think he possessed me. Suddenly from this highly altered perspective, I saw a little boy in a man's body throwing a royal tantrum. And for some reason, it was funny. It struck me as such an absurd waste of time not to love, not to communicate, not to heal. And beyond the situation in front of me, the absurdity of the human condition hit me like a brick. Here I was loving him and he was feeling totally unloved! And I knew that in my past I have felt totally unloved when God and others love me like crazy. It just all of the sudden seemed unbelievably ridiculous. I started laughing. I couldn't help myself. The laughter rose up from my depths and the more I laughed, the madder he got, till at long last he burst into laughter too. It wasn't fake; it was the laughter that comes from seeing the truth - this is all just learning , all just education. We are always loved. We are always taken care of. We are eternal and nothing can damage our souls. We ARE love after all.

We get SO serious about things, and yet, everything we've ever worried about we've handled so far. Every horrid thing you feared in your life in the past is behind you now. Every person we've ever worried about is still a soul, beloved by God, yes learning lessons, but in the end, eternal and alright. So are you! I bet right this moment, sitting at your computer, reading this message - in this single moment - life is pretty good. Hopefully you can feel my energy reaching out to give you a little lift and a big hug or a congrats if you're doing well. Not so bad, for this moment :) If you're going through something hard in your life try to take a step back and see it through the eyes of eternity. Pray to see it through God's eyes.

This week, try to make up perceptions about life that are more supportive of the way you want life to be. Ask for a sense of humor and if you can't find yours call on the spirit of the laughing Buddha (the big fat joyous abundant one that teaches us to live life with gusto) to come into your life and help you see the joy in it. Spirit is frequency, and his frequency is totally uplifting.

I hope you don't have bees hit you, or branches fall on you, but if you do, remember - its all love!!
Choose wonder!