Saturday, August 09, 2008

Big faith and trust

Hope you are having a fantastic week. After a rather lengthy round of growth I have come back to center and am feeling absolutely blissfully fantastic. In May I asked to be a conduit of love for three million listeners of a radio show I was on. Oprah once said that when she prayed to have more courage and compassion, God gave her opportunities to be that. Likewise, when I prayed to funnel amazing amounts of love to the planet, I was given opportunities! These rounds of growth are not always easy. Over the course of the last two months I've been asked to love a spirit that hated me and beat me up (I got him into the light); to open to greater love (from the whales) than I've ever felt going through my body; to surrender to a higher will and learn more deeply that I am not in control of the fate of any of God's creatures, and to scour out the depths of my spirit and release some pretty deep seated old unconscious beliefs. Needless to say I've been busy in my spare time.

Spiritual growth is not for the faint of heart. When we ask for a direct experience of God's love, we are opening ourselve up first to being cleansed of all our darkness, illusions, fears, angers, etc. A dear soul whom I greatly respect said recently, "Those who dare throw open darkened doorways are rewarded with great light."

We don't always know we've thrown those doorways open. We pray to God to illuminate our lives and bring us greater manifestation. But before we can have these prayers answered whatever lies inside of us that resists or blocks God's love, concsiously or otherwise must be let go. A example would be when someone prayers for money but believes they must burn themselves out to earn it, rather than allowing God to provide a better solution. Yes, you must do what you know to do, but prayer, faith, and allowing God to guide you will put you in partnership with God rather than operating independent of this love.

God's love is constant but our deep seated subconsious beliefs limit how much of it we can experience. We might be put through lessons to develop greater faith in order to have what we want. We might have to get rid of old sadness, anger, wrong thinking, etc. We might have to cultivate patience and trust. Whatever it is inside of us that blocks the flow of God's love will be revealed so we can receive the manifestations we are asking for. I often hear the angels say to people, when you pray for more, trust that EVERYTHING that happens after your prayer is part of the answer to that prayer.

That is some kind of big faith and trust and yet it IS possible. Two weeks ago, in the throes of emotional turmoil and chaos, the observer in me knew that this routing out of the old was necessary to bring even more light into my life and to help me learn to be stable in that new flow. Its easy to wade in a slow flowing stream. Its harder to be stable in a fast current. That is why, as we go farther along our spiritual path, staying in impeccable integrity with our own hearts is required in order to stay in balance. The greater the flow, the greater the effect of each thought, word, and deed.

The spritual path is not for the faint of heart. It is often misunderstood. The peace, love, light, and joy DOES come if you do your homework, but if you ask for more light, there will always be times of digging deeper, looking inside of self and scouring out all that does not believe in the eternity of life, the support of the creator, and the immsense love around us at all times. Letting go of our human illusions of separation is not easy, and yet it is worth every tear shed, every difficult but honest moment of self-reflection, and every tough lesson learned. To help others deal with their own fears, I must embrace my own. To help others surrender to God's plan I must surrender to my own lessons. In order to assist others who are angry, sad, or feeling ashamed, I have had to look at these things without judgment inside of myself. As we release judgment against ourselves, we release others from judgment as well. As we surrender more deeply to what is in front of us and inside of us, we find a greater appreciation of God's plan unfolding in our lives. It is a time on earth for releasing old illusions and accepting greater light. God does not cause pain. Our illusions do. And they can be pretty tough to get past at times, but we can get past them.

The angels remind me that God has a much bigger perspective than any of us do. They once said that we can, at times, be like children screaming because we can't have a cookie, and yet God is like a mother who is busy preparing our favorite meal - an experience that would be ruined if we got our cookie first. We don't always see the good coming after a difficult lesson. We don't always understand the bigger picture of a trial we undergo. And yet if you can trust that when you are ready to learn it, God will reveal it, and trust that all in life is part of the lessons we came to embrace on this school called earth - then, and only then, will peace return quickly, and eventually prevail. When you become serious about manifesting your dreams, you may face some big challenges to get rid of some big blocks to receiving and sharing God's love. But why not? That is, after all, why we are here!

I'm feeling amazing - physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually blissful once again. And you will too if you can surrender to what is in front of you, confront your own fears, illusions, sadness, anger, and see them as the lies they truly are. God loves you. That's the truth underlying all our lessons. Receive it, bask in it, and be blessed by it :)