Saturday, June 21, 2008

Surrender to self, surrender to God

I tried to force the newsletter to come early, but the angels wouldn't budge as I stayed up late trying to hear them earlier in the week. So when I got to Thursday night, and nothing was coming, I surrendered to what I really wanted to do. I ate a leisurely dinner, baked a dish I'd been wanting to try, and then sat with a half glass of wine and watched the news, then finished off the evening by talking to some friends. Bingo - all of the sudden the angels were there and their message spilled onto the page. I am constantly reminded that God wants us all to honor our hearts - in all things, big and small. The angels want me to include myself in their directives to rest and relax more, and to refill my own cup so I can spill God's love over to the world.

I have never ever received so many correspondences from people feeling exhausted, purposeless, directionless, and unable to think clearly. Not everyone is in that space, but SO many are. The angels say that earth is readying itself for more change and that we are feeling that tension that builds up before changes. We are not really stuck, but so many feel that way. I think many people are feeling like a woman who is seven month's pregnant - change is coming but there's nothing we can do to rush the energy to move. All things in God's time. The angels said we must stand in truth. I know from years of experience that my security rests in God, because without faith in that, I'd have a mess in my life. He always comes through. When I have a bill, I give it to God. When I have a problem, I give it to God. When I have a concern, I give it to God. And I know that He hears me and answers, if only I believe without doubt that he will. And when I doubt, I am getting in God's way. I'm still working on that at times... we all are.

God is not only loving creator but the all-that-is. He has access to all of creation. When something seems impossible for me, it is merely because I have tunnel vision. He knows 6.4 billion people, and all possible interactions between them. He knows all opportunities, and He also knows the deepest recesses of our individual hearts as well because He is all that. As we continue to surrender our cares, and act as guided, life flows.

You wouldn't think guidance would involve wanting something as simple as eating a meal, baking a dish, and chatting on the phone with friends, but it DOES. God wants first to help you feel filled and happy so that you can share this with others. Guidance is as simple as going to bed early, or getting out of bed at 3am when you wake up to journal a bit. Guidance is calling someone who pops in your mind, or checking out an opportunity that attracts you. Guidance is simple and easy because you will know that what you are guided to do feels right, attractive, or inspiring. Chopping potatoes inspired me. I needed to be human after a day of helping people through their lives. I needed to feel like an earthy simple female instead of a spiritual leader. As the Buddhists say, chop wood, carry water, get enlightened, chop wood, carry water. Simple guidance leads to profound changes. I can write now. And I feel the energy flowing out of me to all of you as I write. Earlier I was empty. Now I am full.

Try to listen to the simplest urges of your heart rather than what you think you should or must do at all hours of night and day. True, many of us have to work to earn a living but even that is honoring your desire to pay bills. True, you may have family to attend to that is not always easy but deeply you desire to be a loving and caring soul even when others aren't. Its not easy, but it feels better when we can achieve that mindset. I work at it constantly. Being human, in a changing world, it doesn't always come easily but the more you exercise the mental muscle of faith and the emotional muscle of surrender, the more easily they support you.