Saturday, December 22, 2007

Bringing light into the dark

The Christmas season for me, used to be filled with expectations. I had so much to do, and so many things to attend. This year, I have truly discovered that less is more. I have enjoyed the sweet peace of the season every step of the way. So it came as a little shock when a cold started trying to come in last Monday. Sure I didn't get much rest this weekend but I enjoyed the company of good friends on Saturday and spent Sunday baking quite a few dishes to get me through this busy week before the holidays. So when I woke up Monday with the little scratchiness that warns you of an impending stuffy head and cough, I decided I was not going to get sick before Christmas. Period.

I did what the angels always suggest - bring light into the darkness. I thanked the little cold vibration for remind me not to go nuts this week. I rested on a day usually spent furiously running errands and doing my office work and writing. I ate my garlic and spicy salsa, prayed, and asked God to help me get the gifts of this cold before it started to set in. By Tuesday the vibration was on its way out. I pretty much skipped it entirely! I ended up with a little cough that is not comfortable but I totally avoided the stuffy head, runny nose, or terrible scratchiness these things can bring - and I'm determined to get this cough out of me pronto as well. What a gift! Truly it was for me a reminder that there is never a need for a battle, but rather a need for love.

The lesson continued throughout the week. The pool equipment broke and started leaking. My heater stopped working perfectly. A doghouse I ordered arrived damaged. I suspended the urge to be irritated and sent love to all involved. The dear pool repair people came out faster than I could have guessed. The heater started working better even before the repair folks could make it and the doghouse company agreed to pay for repairs. Had I gotten upset it would have been a different story.

Challenges exist, always and forever. Life is life. But when we bring love into the darkness, as the angels say, into the challenges, into the vibrations of illness, into the situations where you'd rather holler, into the frustrations and upsets of life, it is amazing how quickly these challeges move on through your life.

Regardless of religious beliefs, Christmas is a celebration of light in the darkness, and Hanukka is the festival of lights. So no matter what you celebrate, celebrate the fact that you can bring the light of God's love into any situation and watch it transform. Call for that light to illuminate your heart in times that are challenging and to amplify in times of joy.

I wish you a blessed Christmas and a beautiful holiday. You are all in my heart and I am blessed to be on this journey with you.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Meaningful presents

I have always loved giving. I love seeing the smile on someone's face when they receive something thoughtful or something they've wanted. I love surprising people and letting them know that someone cares. And many years I've worked so much that I've been able to do that with material stuff. This year, I found balance. I worked less hours and wrote more. I took time to actually rest in off hours. And as a result I am richer in spirit but am not shopping much over the holidays! My friends and I all agreed to make presents for one another this year. We have enough stuff and instead we simply want to share love and experiences with one another, and things we can truly use or enjoy.

Last year we started gravitating towards this idea. I gave some friends a coupon for a meal a month for several months and I enjoyed cooking while they enjoyed eating. My friends gave me a dog-sitting voucher. Last weekend I spent hours in the kitchen making goodies I can't divulge because my friends read this list! We are sharing of our hearts, things that we can truly enjoy. And it feels good. It takes more time than shopping, to be sure. Its easy for me to get on the internet and place an order, or to run out to the mall that is ten minutes from my home. It takes hours to cook up a gourmet treat, but those hours are filled with intense love. I adore cooking - it looks good, tastes good, and smells good, and it nurtures the soul. I'm making other non-edible stuff too. I already gave my friends a slideshow of our Christmas's past that I made up on the computer. It made our hearts happy to remember all the good times - an instant upper that we can pop in the DVD.

I did buy something for my mom but instead of a traditional present I wracked my brain to think of what she'd love most, and (go angels!) I was reminded that my mom loves lemons. She can't get good ones out east, so Ann-ta Claus did get on the net and order my mom a box of delicious Meyer lemons. I didn't wait for Christmas; I just sent them. its a strange gift to be sure, but mom loves them like some of us love chocolate and they contribute to her health and well being. In this case, thinking inside the box worked!!!

Its been a really relaxed holiday season. I feel no stress, no rushing around in traffic, no need to 'worry about what to get'... I know in future years I may shop again, or not... but this year is special. I feel like I'm returning to some good old fashioned values and finding great solace in them. I've enjoyed decorating, baking, curling up late at night with a cup of cocoa and a warm fuzzy pair of socks looking at my Christmas tree, being with friends... I can't recall a holiday when I've been this honest about what I really want to do.

So this holiday season, enjoy whatever it is that really matters. If you shop buy only what truly feels meaningful, big or small. If you don't give from the heart. Even the smallest kindness goes such a long, long way.

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Tugs from the past

Sometimes when I sit down to type I have an idea of what the angels are going to say or what I hope they'll talk about and other times, it just pours out of me and I find myself reading as I go. This message was one of them. It answers a lot of questions that my clients have been asking lately, namely...what on earth is going on? I have asked that very same thing. As I continue to feel more and more joyous my body has felt crazy to say the least - old tightness, old tensions, old misalignments, all coming up to the surface.

"These are your old patterns trying to hang on for dear life because you are coming into a time of more light," the angels told me. I see that. I'm changing how I interact with the world to be even more forthright, even more honest about where my heart wants to be and when, and to rest when I need it even more than ever before. I've been really happy lately, loving the creativity of the season and blessed with the people in my life. But OUCH, the old patterns tug and pull away.

I have felt SO able to love everyone lately, even the people I want nothing to do with, that it boggles my mind. I've prayed for this. I've studied to learn how to do this. I've listened to angels. And yet at the same time some old part of me tries to get me angry when people don't behave as I want. I catch the errant thoughts and tell them, as if I'm speaking to tantrum throwing kids... "Off to your room! Come into the light with me or sit in silence!" Then my body breathes deeply and relaxes again. Its a roller coaster lately as I strive to love no matter what, but boy oh boy does it feel good!

One old anxious thought and I catch my body tensing up. When I catch myself, stop, breathe, and unwind a bit my body relaxes. I have to do this over and over as a discipline to keep those old patterns from taking hold. It is exciting. It never fails that before you let go of an old habit or pattern, it makes one big last stand... attempting to stay in your mind and body. And yet if you keep making one good choice after the next, the old pattern finally lets go and you are free-er than ever before

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Be the angel

I love the holiday season. It gives me an excuse to give without reason, to dress up the house, to go crazy with creativity, and to eat more than anyone should ever put in a body this size. But most of all I love that it is the season where people usually love more easily, act with more charity, and practice a bit more compassion.

So when I set out with a heart full of cheer to run errands Monday, I was shocked at the insanity, rudeness, and unkindness I witnessed all around. Drivers in traffic cut me off. Clerks at the office store ignored me. As I smiled at people they looked away. A clerk took 45 minutes to write up a supply order for me instead of swallowing her pride and asking a co-worker how to do it. I felt truly and deeply for the first time that I did not belong on this planet because so many people didn't know how to love. It was a passing thought, but then all of the sudden the truth hit and I realized, YOU ARE NEEDED HERE. I felt a FLOOD of huge, beautiful, angelic energy through my entire body and heard the words loudly, "Be the angel." "YES!" my soul cried out in response. I AM here to love.

Be the angel.

I started blessing the rude drivers in traffic, being kinder than ever to the rude people who didn't even see me as they ran into me in the shops, and prayed for the lady who was slow. I went back to the supply house to pick up my order and even though it wasn't ready as promised I enjoyed a delightful conversation with another lady in line. A lone honeybee started buzzing around me and proceeded to land on me and walk all over me - another joke from the angels. I guess I was BEE-ing who they wanted me to "be"!

It is more fun to love than to be irritated. It is more fun to know you can walk a higher path. It just feels better to be charitable, compassionate, and kind. I do not mean you should ever be a doormat or put up with abuse, but at the same time why return anger with anger, unkindness with unkindness, etc. Show people there is a better way. It feels good. It feels like playing Santa to give without reason. And it feels much closer to godliness. I felt powerful blessing the angry drivers and watching them slow down and be nicer. As Obi Wan Kanobi says in the movie Star Wars - "The force is strong on the weak minded" or in the terms of the mystic "Love is stronger than anger and hate."

So as you celebrate the season, "Be the Angel" and share your gift of prayers and blessings with those who need it the most. You'll feel pretty warm and fuzzy inside if you do this just for the sake of being who you really are. And the echo back from the world is pretty cool too!