Thursday, October 04, 2007

Dark and light

This angel message rings so true to my heart this week. I have been working to release an autobiography of how I went from being an angry, disillusioned young woman in working in electrical engineering to the person I am now. I know this book will help people who are beginning to seek spirit feel the presence of the guides in their lives and it will inspire people to heal the pains of their past. In the book I share a lot about how I healed the illusions and pains that caused my anger and unworthiness. My work with angels was both an enlightening and uplifting, joyful dance, and a journey into my own darkness so I could clear my mind and come to know who I was. Part of my training has been to know myself well - both the dark and the light so I can distinguish my own thoughts from the voices of both angels and demons.

It seems the darker energies didn't want me to release that book. I was hit by an attack of negative voices that was so strong I almost lost myself in them last Sunday. "No one wants to read your garbage. God doesn't care about you. Everyone else teaches this stuff. You don't have anything to say. Your life isn't worth much." It was simply unbelievable. I knew the voices weren't mine. I said say NO WAY and changed my thoughts to positive and then got slammed once again with another round of attack. I know all this started because I had a moment of self pity when I was feeling tired and didn't want to finish the book. Give an inch of negativity and the denser energies on this planet will go the extra mile to amplify it!

Thank GOD for the training. I knew this wasn't my truth at all. I called in God and the angels in a big way, ate well, rested, cleaned house, and called upon friends. I was shocked when several of my psychic friends and I started comparing notes - we were ALL experiencing this same amplification of our of negativity.

It made sense a few days later when a friend wrote to tell me about the massacre of the monks in Burma. I imagine that the darker energies on this planet had a heyday, not only with the deaths of the innocents but with the anger engendered in the masses at this violation of human rights. It made sense that those of us who are in tune with the world would be feeing such an attack. Satan only gets pushy when he feels powerful. And the truth is, he is impotent in the light of God's love.

When I saw what was going on the light returned. I prayed for the world, prayed for myself, my friends, and even those energies that seek to make us feel worse, and then all was well again. Love clears out any lesser vibrations. I had the most productive and fun day I've had in ages.

It is much more fun to talk about light and miracles, and I am blessed with more than my share of these. Yet, if we're on the spiritual path we will have to face the small negativities within ourselves, and sometimes the amplification of the very same by forces that would rather we didn't grow into the light. As humans we have times when those forces tempt us to fall into despair, self-hatred, worry, fear, and lack of faith... along with the rest of the illusions that would have us convinced we are not loved. These are lies. We have to use everything in us at these tough times to resist the temptation to believe these lies.

When you are worried about finances pray to God to increase your faith. When you feel unloved, pray to God to experience his love. When you are lonely, pray to feel the angels presence in your life. When you are angry, ask God to remove the anger from your heart. And so on... these prayers are always answered if prayed with a sincere heart. You don't have to do it alone.

I got it together again needless to say. Between rest, eating well, praying, and talking to my friends, and cleaning house, I came back to life and light again. I feel stronger, more peaceful, more resolved to share God's love with the world, and more determined to expose these lies for what they are.

The book went to the publisher. I ordered my proof copy and God willing will release it within a month. No matter what happens in your life, trust in God's love. Whether you feel it or not, it is always there :)