Saturday, July 29, 2006

Back to Basics

Many of you have written me or come to my office lately experiencing a heaviness of heart. It seems that many of you are feeling the events in the world and may not even know it. Symptoms like needing an inordinate amount of sleep, uncharacteristic loneliness, and a heaviness seem to be running rampant. Fear seems to be trying to rear its head as of late as well in so many hearts. The dark energies seem to try to capitalize on times of turmoil to stir us up.

In times like these, if you feel the world, it is SO important to get back to basics in life. Rest, eat decently, and find things that uplift your spirit. Spend time with people that uplift you, or watching shows that inspire you.

I took the angels' message last week to heart and got out of town and outdoors deep into the woods last weekend. I sat in the car during a wonderful thunderstorm, and hiked amidst the pines up north. My spirit felt rejuvenated once again and my energy level was much better. At home again this week, trying to hold everyone else up, I find myself needing a great deal of sleep. I am surrendering to my body. It knows best.

Be very gentle with yourselves in these changing times. The energy is both conducive to wonderful creations if you intend and pray for what you want, and also great heaviness if you get sucked into that energy. It seems that wherever our thoughts are pointed, we go there quickly. Be kind to yourself this week and trust that this in itself is a contribution to peace and a catalyst for change in your own life.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Let Mother Earth Love You

First of all thank you for all the love and prayers last week. I trust deeply that they will help the healing of many hurting souls, and offer comfort and protection to the dear woman I asked you to pray for.

Today's message wasn't what I expected. I thought the angels would comment on the war in the middle east or one of many other important topics, and yet what is more important to us as human beings than feeling safe, healthy, and secure in life? Whether the security you seek is physical security, financial, or just the comfort of knowing that God hears your prayers we all need it. The angels once said that security does not come from the outer world, but rather from embracing the fact that we are part of God and just as the body knows the needs of each cell, God too knows the needs of each person here. When we pray, our prayers are heard. The angels once told me not to sabotage my prayers with doubt. So true. They called me on that one! We have to have deep faith that in the right time and in the right way the prayers will be heard.

Many a time in my life when I was ill at ease, it was the earth that healed me. I was married in my young twenties. I can safely say that neither myself nor my former husband truly knew who we were at the time. After nine years passed and I discovered my intuitive calling, my former husband and I realized we were on separate paths and parted peacefully. Nonetheless, I was very religious at the time and felt torn between what I knew was a God-given calling and what I'd been told all my life was the greatest 'failure' a person could create, namely divorce. I was also terrified. I had lived a sheltered life, gone to college, gotten married, and then lived with my husband. I had never been truly on my own as an adult. I felt as if the floor had dropped out from under me and I was physically and financially scared.

The earth healed me. I drove north every weekend for many months to be out in nature - to hike, sit on sunny rocks, dip my feet in the creek and reconnect with a world that existed outside my head and in the physical reality. The earth gave me strength. Her mountains taught me stability. The trees taught me to bend without breaking. The water taught me to flow and let go. I talked, listened, and learned from every facet of the natural universe from the mountains to the tiny bugs.

Earth is alive. At times in your life when you need inspiration, go outdoors and watch the sky and notice how big it is relative to the small problems we see as huge in the moment. It is eternal. The same moon that shines on you shines on those on the other side of the world. The air we breathe is shared. The waters we drink ultimately circulate through all of creation.

When you need security, lay upon the earth and feel the embrace, as the angels say. There is something phenomenally comforting about sitting on a large rock and feeilng its strength beneath you. Merge with it and you too will feel strong. Need more flexibility? Lean on a tree and ask it to teach you. Do you need to learn how to go with the flow? Watch a stream moving over the rocks. Earth is a healer. See if you can create a little time, no matter how short, to go outside and enjoy the benefits!

Monday, July 17, 2006

Help heal the hurting hearts

Take heart. The energy is indeed thick and I have been bombarded by people going through tough times - almost every one of them includes losing control in one way or another - getting fired, not knowing where the next client is coming from, having an ex try to hide his addictions to retain custody, losing a child, losing a husband, you name it. There are so many hurting souls in the world. I do my best at all times to remain in love and truth because from that space, I can see the lessons and truly assist people. As you know I'm writing a book called Aura Hygiene to help others understand how to avoid getting sucked into the pain and emotions of others -- and so of course, I am in a course of deep study on the subject myself.

I'd like to ask for your help. I have had so many clients suffer the unthinkable and yet one stands out. She is a young mother. I cannot share the details of her case of course, but she has suffered unthinkable betrayals, acts of violence against her, injustice by those who are supposed to protect us, and the pain of not being able to protect her children from some unbelievable tough situations. I love her dearly and I got sucked in deeply to the despair that she feels. I have been working very hard these past several months to live in the truth I know no matter how tough it is.

I know we sign up for lessons - the angels say some of us are very ambitious when we sign up for class on earth, then we get down here and say, "What WAS I thinking?" And yet, this is a school. We did sign up to learn and some of us chose some pretty intense classes. So I looked into this woman's life and saw the unthinkable pain that her perpetrator went through in childhood and angels, being angels, suggested we both send love unfailingly and ask the kids to do the same. To choose to love while still trying to stop darkness is one tough calling and I bet many of you on this list have had similar lessons. I have had to say, ok I HATE the behaviors, but I can love the soul. And I had to advise this dear soul to do the same even though every human part of me wanted to wish him the same pain he has caused her. I focused on the wounded child and prayed daily. She is doing the same. She needs our help.

And I believe that because we are SO powerful we can help the world through our prayers. Not only the innocent need our prayers. The perpetrators do even more so. They need our prayers for the healing of their hearts so they can at long last turn away from the dark that took root in them through acts of violence against them, and find healing. Healing may occur via legal punishment and that's ok. But healing is what we want for them so they stop passing on the pain. If everyone on this list can spend time this week praying for the healing of the hurting hearts on this planet I know we can do some serious good, and heal ourselves in the process.

I once was given an exercise by the angels to go over a list of past boyfriends that had been pretty tough on me and find out how and why I attracted them and then to WRITE THEM THANK YOU LETTERS. The angels told me I was not allowed to send the letters until I felt genuine gratitude for the lessons. Needless to say that took a few months of concentrated work. I had to get over feeling like a victim. I had to OWN the fact that my choices and perceptions found me in their company. I had to own why I stayed in spite of betrayal, verbal abuse, lies and so forth.

And then I wrote letters - thank you for teaching me that my need to be understood made me blind to the truth of others; thank you for cheating on me because I was cheating on my own intuition when I began dating you; thank you for the anger you aimed at me because it taught me to not take things personall and to stand in my power. I truly AM grateful these days but it wasn't easy.

So this is why this newsletter is late. I HAD to get back to love and trust and surrender before I could write it. Lets pray together for all hurting hearts - the innocent and the dark ones. They're all in need of healing and we are so powerful together.

Friday, July 07, 2006

Tubing & Surrender to God

I was badly in need of play last weekend. I took a day to myself and meditated, cleaned house and did some rather meanless but fun creative tasks. Then I invited Jim down and we went "tubing" on the Salt River

Tubing is loads of fun. You rent an inner tube or two or three (one for the cooler, I AM part Polish after all and eating is a high priority even on water!), and tie them all together then surrender to the current. The flow was swift this year and the river was clean. We had to surrender much of the time because paddling was too much work. What a JOY it was too, to surrender. It was so awesome to relax in the arms of the river and let something carry ME for once, without a worry about where we'd go or how we'd get there, except for the occasional control-freak moments where I hung on tight through the little rapids!

Life is like that. When we surrender to the flow of God's love it brings us unexpected pleasures. We saw a blue heron standing on the banks, some wild horses, and a lot of beautiful scenery. The trip reminded me to honor the wisdom in my own book -- to surrender to my heart moment after moment, and in so doing, to remember that God is in charge, and all is always love :)

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Be Honest with Yourself

I loved the angels message. I've been in a study the past several years of my life of relationships. In my past I tried to please everyone. I tried to be fairy godmother, healer, savior, martyr, fixer, parent, whatever the person needed. I had managed to create healthy boundaries with my work but with the personal friends and past boyfriends, I morphed into whatever they needed me to be. I forgot myself and my own dreams entirely. When I asked the angels in 2002 if it was time to start writing, they told me it had been time two years prior!

So if you can imagine when I made up the class "Aura Hygiene" I thought I would be simply talking about a few psychic tricks and tips. Instead I realized that we can't truly maintain our own energy unless we are honest with ourselves and others. If we constantly give in to what someone else wants, we spill out our energy with little return! If we constantly try to take on another's pain we become overburdened.

I started writing about this three weeks ago and 75 pages have poured out of me. The "River" is flowing. I have surrendered to my own heart and can at long last write. While I was writing I realized I let the housecleaning go, the emails waited, the phone was off, and I became virtually inaccessible. I stayed up too late but had energy, and got up early and felt excited. Its funny how when your relationship with yourself is honest, everything works in your life. And somehow the emails got answered, the chores done, and calls recorded in record time when I was tired of writing.

So this week, relate honestly with yourself . Do something you want to do but have been putting off. Be honest with others. Watch your energy increase and your dreams start to come true :)