Saturday, November 18, 2006

The Celebrate Your Life Conference

So many of you have asked how my first huge conference went so I thought I'd share not only the experience but also the lessons. All weekend I had chances to feel very small among giants, and at the same time, these were opportunities to own who I am and to embrace what I know are the gifts God wants me to offer the world. It was hard not to feel like a small fish in a big pond but I managed :) When I attended the author's dinner on Saturday night, I felt like a kid who had just moved to a new school where everyone knew everyone but me! I had to stretch a bit, extend myself, and not hide out, even though I was feeling unusually shy. I was richly blessed as a result. I can honesly say each of the authors I met not only embodied all they preach, but were extremely kind.

I had a few minutes to chat with Wayne Dyer and he was very supportive and encouraging. Marianne Williamson was adorable, humble, and beautiful inside and out. Greg Braaden is very friendly and extremely intelligent. Dr. Joe Dispenza from "What the Bleep" was fascinating as he shared the latest research on how our nerves fire together and wire together when we think the same thoughts over and over again. Alberto Villalodo, the peruvian shaman, was a humble man with gentle and yet powerful energy. Dannion Brinkley and his wife were a hoot. "What do you do," he asked me. "I talk to angels and dead people and teach mystical wisdom," I answered. He looks at me point blank. "Is there a difference?" He can put you on the spot. "We both know that we're all part of one," I answered, "but we use labels because we're talking to human beings." He grinned. I passed that test :)! James Van Praagh ducked into a room where I was being interviewed, and complimented me on the interview, then apparently quoted me in his next workshop. He was very sweet. And Pat Rodegast, who channels a spirit named Emmanuel, radiated a joyful energy. I really liked her a lot too.

The women who made the deepest and most long lasting impression on me were Immaculle Ilibagiza and her friend Rose. Immaculee is from Rwanda. During the genocide in 1994 she and 7 other women hid in a 3x4' restroom for 91 days while most of their families and countrymen were brutally murdered. Immaculee turned to God. She has vivid dreams and visions of Jesus who told her that her family would be dead when she got out but that God had plans for her. When she was a cross of white light over the door she knew they would be spared. She did live to tell, and wrote about it in her book, "Left to Tell" which is a testament to the power of God and surrender in the midst of the most unthinkable horror. Most remarkable of all, she sought out and forgave the man who killed her family. I sat in her presence and felt like people must have felt way back when they sat next to Jesus. She embodies the Christ consciousness, the divine love that we all are and aspire to be, and she is humble, sweet, grateful for everything, and a beacon of light. She brought me to tears. I live to teach what she has already learned. She is a beacon of hope in a world that loves to hate. Visit her site:

My seminar, by God's grace, was in the same room, right after hers. I enjoyed whatever I said although honestly I don't remember much of it. I goofed, let people out early and then had to call them back. The angels in my head turned it all into a lesson that its ok to be human... after all I HAD prayed to surrender to whatever God wanted to teach.

I came home and trembled with the fears that come up when you know your life is about to change in a big way and you're not in control. I prayed a lot for God to give me the strength to be in the public eye. Those who are, are called to live with impeccable integrity, and a strength that has to come from spirit since they give so much. I gave my life to God once again and wait with wonder to see how it all unfolds.

So if you ever feel small, remember you're a divine being and have gifts no matter what. You are all the world wants from you. I may never be a 'polished and professional' type speaker, but I am simply me, and being myself allows others to be who they are. Trust God made you exactly the way He wanted you to be.