Saturday, March 11, 2017

Gladly I will jump

This has been the year I’m challenging myself to “Try something new.”When a thought doesn't make me happy, I remind myself to "try something new." For example, earlier in the year when I created a health challenge, I caught myself saying, "How many more times do I have to do this to learn!" The thought didn't make me happy so I changed it. "Thank God I've learned and I'm done with this!" I could feel my energy rising immediately and my entire body relaxed.

I caught myself one week, dipping into a very, very old whine, "No one cares about me," and immediately changed it to a better thought, "Life loves me!" I got the sweetest outpouring of thank you notes and kindnesses shown to me within days!

I've been challenging myself to give up old stuff in the house that is past its prime and treat myself to upgrades. I've been trying new foods that appeal, new books... and it has been fun! 

Change breathes fresh air into our minds, hearts, homes, bodies, souls, and lives. But it isn't always easy. I may want new towels, but giving up my old ones was like giving away old comfy friends! I may want new thoughts but giving up my old ones requires some willpower and dedication. I may want to try new foods but that meant I have to branch out a bit and risk a little failure here and there. Change requires letting go. 

I was pondering the joy of being like a child and "trying something new” on Monday, while making hard boiled eggs for snacking this week. They're really yummy with a drizzle of olive oil, a dab of Dijon & Dill, and a sprinkle of Hawaiian black salt!

Back to the point, the eggs were cooked and I was carefully dumping them into a strainer in the sink, trying not to crack them prematurely, when I heard the most delightful voice in my head…

“See how gladly the eggs jump out of the pot, releasing themselves from the boiling water, joyous about being cracked open and released unto their new life!”

The language was quaint but the message was clear and beautiful! The angel in my head was reaffirming my desire to release old patterns, habits, etc… to leave the "shells" that had both protected and confined! Sweet!

See how gladly we can leap from situations that are behind us, and no longer work. See how gladly we can release the shells of our old past programming and release ourselves into delicious new thoughts, new circumstances, and new life. See how gladly was can embrace change! 

I felt the familiar angelic warmth embrace me and radiate from my heart with an exquisite tenderness. To the angels every single moment is new, never before experienced, and never to be seen again. Change is exciting, an opportunity for a new experience, a new joy!

I smiled, thinking of all I wish to create this lifetime, all I wish to experience, and all the change that will required. Gladly, in God’s time – just like those eggs – I will jump!

Here are a few tips to help you "gladly jump" this week... 

1. Pay attention to your loving desires
When you feel a desire in the moment to do something, say something loving, or try something that appeals and feels wholesome (because your guidance is always loving), say it, do it, try it.

Pick up the phone and call that person you are thinking about. Write the email. Sign up for a class. Get outside and take a walk. Take a ten minute nap. Look at that new career online. Go up to that stranger and compliment them! (You know you want to!) Get the food that sounds appealing and healthy. Politely bow out of a conversation that is annoying or boring you.

I rarely call clients because I have a wonderful assistant, but once I had an urge so strong to call a particular person that it was positively urgent. I picked up the phone and dialed... and interrupted a suicide in progress. This person is still alive today due to that guidance.  

When you feel something that sounds loving, wholesome, appealing… say it, do it, try it. Trust. The heart has its reasons.

2. Use Your Mind, but Don’t Let it Rule You

Sometimes we’re disconnected from our hearts. We’ve ignored them for so long we can’t hear our true desires. Instead you hear secondary desires that don't really satisfy.

For example, say you’ve ignored your desire to eat food that nurtures you for so long that you are now low on energy. Now your body wants sugar, carbs, and things your mind already knows from past experience don’t feel so good. Thank the mind for reminding you. Now sit quietly and ask your heart… Heart what does my body really want right now? You’ll get the answer.

Suppose you have ignored your need for joy. You meet someone. Your heart really wants this person to be “it” because you're lonely. The mind tells you, “You’re seeing red flags, things that aren’t right. Be careful.” Thank your mind for pointing out the warning signs. Next, ask your heart, “What do I want in life for my own joy? What do I want in relationship.” Listen. Then use the mind to see if your true desires are being met in this current situation or not. Be honest with yourself. Ask your heart, “What next?”

Your mind is a useful tool for analyzing current situations against knowledge, past experience, and desired outcomes. Used correctly, it can inform you and let you know whether or not something is in alignment with your heart. 

3. Every now and then have a little “heart time”

In this age of so much information, we all need a little time to get back in touch with our hearts. We know when we’re disconnected. We feel stressed, tired, angry, upset, ill, etc. At these times it is important to spend some quiet time alone.

Journal, ponder, walk in nature, listen to beautiful music. Ask your heart, “What do you need? Where am I listening? Where am I ignoring you? Given my desires, what next?”


Have a beautiful week listening to your beautiful hearts, and may you “Gladly jump” when the time is right for delightful change! 

Saturday, March 04, 2017

Which heart to follow?

I was in need of a refill by this Monday. It seems that the week prior, people were bombarded with challenges, angry energies aimed at them, inner turmoils resurfacing, etc. It was a pretty exciting week in the energy! Because I often get 100+ emails a day, I get to bear witness to the patterns in human consciousness. I do so with love, and I'm honest when I cannot, but after all these years, I know how important it is to maintain my own energy.

So Monday, after working all weekend on projects I'm passionate about, I awakened with my head trying to convince me that I absolutely needed to hunker down and handle a very full day of work. My heart, however, would have none of it. I needed to get outdoors. My heart won.

I spent two hours two hours hiking in the cold windy desert, without a soul around. Nature and the energy warmed me. I got to sit and just "be" in the arms of the mountains, with the earth firm beneath me and the sky allowing me to expand into its infinite blue. I heard my angels, got insights for future teachings and felt my body come alive with the pure and vast energy of nature. At one point some sweet guide in my head told me to leave... "Make haste or you will be rained upon!" I smiled and "made haste" before the rain came!

Needless to say, everything else got done... and more.

People are so afraid that if they listen to their hearts, their lives will fall apart. I have witnessed just the opposite. You get recalibrated. Life starts to work. You are happy, energized, and fulfilled. Cooperative interactions arise. You feel connected... to self, life, and others.

The heart was meant to guide you in your life and the brilliant computer of a mind was meant to help you figure out how! 
My to do list is "ta done" and I've got time even to help a friend... unanticipated by my mind, but perfectly orchestrated by my heart!"

Here are a few tips to listen to your heart this week...

1. Find time to listen
You cannot hear your own heart if you don't take time to do something you enjoy. It doesn't have to be meditation. It can be anything that gets you in the present and happy. Cook, walk your dog, spend time with loved ones, anything works as long as you a) enjoy it, and b) it draws all your attention into the present while you are doing it

2. Acknowledge everything you feel / even if you don't act on it

Sometimes as we are getting reacquainted with our heart, we hear the heart of the hurting child within as well. "I just want to quit my job!" the child's heart says impetuously, or "I just want this person to go away and leave me alone!
The adult heart says, more honestly, "I want to quit my job and find something fulfilling in a graceful easy way, without financial hardship." "I would like help bringing peace into my heart over this relationship. Either end it gracefully or transform it please." Both hearts live inside of you. One is just a little more emotionally mature!

Your "adult heart" will be the one that wants an elegant, not an impetuous, solution. It is your true heart of hearts, that wants solutions to not only the immediate problems, but one that fit beautifully in all areas of your life. You may not know how to fulfill these hearts desires, but that's OK. Just acknowledging them is the first step.

3. Act upon the desires of the heart that feel inspiring and joyful.

If you are too afraid to act, or not yet ready to trust, or if you don't know how you can... pray to be shown the way.


In my case, it was easy to set aside office work and take a hike. 
When I wanted to quit my job in engineering, however, I still needed income. I prayed to know, beyond a shadow of doubt, the most graceful, perfect time to quit, given all my various needs. Three years passed. I grew tremendously. The, finally, one day I clearly heard voices telling me to turn in my resignation. Even though I didn't know how I'd make a living, by that time I had grown in faith, created enough savings for some time off, and was emotionally ready.


The heart is your "tuner" to the Divine, your access to angels, and the compass which points you to your inner wisdom. It tells you exactly where you need to be to grow in faith, trust, and a greater love for all – including you!

Saturday, February 25, 2017

Loving the unkind

I got an angel reading through my friend Summer Bacon, at the end of last year, just for the comfort of hearing my friends "outside" of my own mind! "Next year," they said, meaning 2017, "will be the year you learn to be attacked and not take it personally." Oh joy! I can honestly say I didn't do the happy dance over that proclamation! It has proven true, however, and the lesson hasn't been as painful as I thought.

Within the past month I've been called a charlatan, divisive, commercial, clueless, unaware, uncaring, etc. Some of these were misunderstandings. I Some were true (I am clueless about many things!). And some were simply unfounded. In years past, I've been told several times I should kill myself. I've been offered a "boob job," told I should "stop writing such senseless drivel and stop the spread of the north American union" (whatever that is), and so much more attacks upon my spirit. Happily, for every unkind comment there are hundreds of beautiful, kind, and loving ones.

Somehow it is all too easy to forget the kind words and let the unkind ones stick... but only if we have "Velcro" for them, the angels say!

Most of you have seen Velcro It's a strip of fabric with tiny hooks on it, that almost every other piece of fabric will stick to - especially a matching piece of Velcro Our spiritual "Velcro" is our own pain, insecurity, and unclarity. If we were 100% rooted in peace and self-acceptance, we'd have none of this "Velcro" and no unkindness would "stick" to us at all! 

Even the hurtful folks serve a purpose. If they trigger our anger, they show us where we need to grow. While that is, admittedly, not an easy truth to embrace, they help us in our spiritual evolution. They show us where we are not yet in total self-acceptance, where we have not yet rooted our spirit in self-love, where we are not yet solid in peace, and stabilized in clarity.

Our job is not to stop the unkind souls by killing off their perspectives or ideas, or by making them wrong. Nor is it our job to immediately kill off our own ideas by deferring to all others. The fight/flight response IS biologically programmed into us, but we can rise above it. Our job is simply to own our own truth, let others have theirs, and walk away (with no Velcro!) from what does not resonate.

As we look at the unkind statements of the world, whether aimed at us or others, we can look for shreds and kernels of truth, look for the love the person is attempting to bring forth, and disregard the rest. 

This process is very much like digestion... and this is why I've had so many digestive problems as I learn to process the world's energies at greater levels!

Ideally, you take it all in, chew it all up, absorb what is useful, and release the rest! I know first-hand, from tough lessons, that when you don't exist in this natural flow of energy it hurts. When you are able, however, to leave your heart open, take it all in, savor what is good and true, and release the rest, you do indeed exist in that peace that surpasses all understanding
I'm not there all the time... but when I am it feels blissfully loving!

Here are a few tips to handle the unkindnesses of the world this week...

1. Look for kernels and shreds of truth
Try, if you can to look at the message and ignore the "packaging." If someone says something unkind, ask yourself, "Is there any bit of truth to it." Set your ego aside and see if there's anything to learn. 

The ego wants to be right. The soul seeks greater love and truth.


2. Look for the love the person is attempting to bring to the surface.

Most of the time, when someone attacks a perspective, they have a strong need for acknowledgment, solidarity, validation, or approval. If they were secure in their view they might come across firmly but they would not need to call names, belittle, or make wrong. They would simply share their perspective with conviction.

Caroline Myss, a great spiritual teacher once said, "True power is inspiring. False power is intimidating." I love that. I've seen it time and again.

So if someone has been mean-spirited or unkind to you, or you witness an attacking missive, pray. Ask to see through "Angel Eyes." "Show me what part of that person's soul needs love. Show me how they are trying to bring love to the surface". It takes surrender, prayer, and practice, but in time you may see the wounded child within, the frustrated angel, the person who cares so much it hurts...

When you see through "Angel Eyes" you can send light to empower that part of their soul that is good, beautiful and true.


3. Let it Go...

It doesn't nourish you to gnaw on a bone with no meat. I love dogs, and dogs love bones... but we're not trying to sharpen our teeth. So when you've done the previous two steps, and you've "digested" the love from an unkind exchange the next thing to do is release the unkind energies from the exchange... and let it go.

There are several ways you can do this: (1) Journal until you get out all your feelings and then burn, shred, or delete the pages. (2) Symbolically wash your hands and see the icky energy running down the drain. (3) Hold a stone or point your hands to the earth and drain off the angry energy into the earth. She neutralizes it. If you are willing, (4) pray for the person and yourself to find peace. Do this until you release any upset. It might take days in some cases, but the goodwill will eventually replace the upset. Love always wins if you let it.

And, if humor works for you, sing Disney's song from Frozen... "Let it Go! Let it Go!" 


The world is pretty stirred up now. Everyone has strong opinions. And while that is a good thing, not everyone is sharing them kindly. I hope this helps you find peace, even in the face of unkindness. 

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Pissy vibes, Peaceful prayers, & Thoughts on the World...

A Sunday morning rumination on undying love that lives within it all...

I woke up this morning after only 3 hours sleep craving a glass of water. The craving turned to one for Kombucha, which I do like, however I wasn’t awake enough to discern whether the new craving was coming from another or me. As I reached for the glass bottle in the fridge, an angry spirit pushed me. The glass bottle flew from my hand and shattered all around me. I remained unharmed. Not wanting to give the prickly, staticky vibration another bit of energy, I peacefully cleaned up the mess and prayed for whomever was sending this unkindness.  I celebrated the opportunity to clean my floors, and gave thanks for my life.  I prayed for the upliftment of all angry souls.  The light bulb above me started to hiss and wine and blew out!  I noticed the roses on the table had wilted and when I put my hands over them to send light I felt an angry spirit coating them spitefully.  I knew it was time for some big light and prayers to be sent, and walked through the house filling it with love and praying for whomever or whatever was sending me the unkindness to know God’s love or to leave.

This is my life.  This is part of what occurs when you attempt to leave vibrations that have been able to manipulate and derail you for centuries.  They just try harder for awhile, showing up in many different forms.  It doesn’t matter who or what form they appear in. Anger is anger. Unkindness is unkindness, and love is love. I knew someone was in need of love.

So I got my original glass of water, sat on the patio and prayed some more.

Afterwards I was contemplating the current anger on earth over the politics of the day, and praying that someday the world would come to know that the only way our outer dramas on earth would be solved permanently was to solve the inner dramas.  What we witness in the news today has gone on in ancient Egypt, ancient Rome, and  in and most governments throughout history.  We have cell phones and iThings and Internet now, and so we see what used to be hidden. History and herstory repeats.  As the angels say, “Earth is a school and the students cycle in and out but the classes tend to repeat until there is no longer a need.” 

We are the students here.  If we don’t want to see manipulation and lies, we must not allow our heads to manipulate our hearts. We must not lie to ourselves. If we don’t want to see bigotry, we must avoid judging even the judgmental.  If we don’t want hatred, we must learn to love ourselves… exactly as we are.

What I judge in another is always what I judge within myself.  What one judges in me is what they judge within themselves.

People ask me all the time, “How can that be.” I’m not a violent, angry person.  The angels respond, “You judge your anger and do not allow for it when it arises naturally. While we don’t encourage anger, sometimes it is there, and you don’t allow yourself to feel it. You feel less than Divine when it arises. And therefore you will always judge anger in others.”

People say, “How can I be bigoted,” and the angels will lovingly point out where we judge parts of ourselves as having “no right to be.”

People say, “I can’t stand the ignorant! I’m educated. How can that be a mirror?” and the angels kindly point out that the person would judge themselves when they don’t have all the answers, or when they made a mistake.

This mirroring of judgments is often subtle, rather than a direct and obvious mirror,  yet it is spiritual law.  At some level whatever we judge in another is what we have not yet owned and made peace with inside of ourselves.

I’ve seen many of my past lives and know this to be true within myself. I’ve been a spiritual innocent that was killed by those “in power” and so the next lifetime I incarnated “in power” to explore that ideology.  It was a thankless job. I found that the masses didn’t want to assume responsibility for their own lives but rather just wanted someone to fix their lives.  So I tried other lifetimes, both spiritual and material. I tried being an unobtrusive peasant but the one time I spoke my mind I was thrown in a dungeon and rotted to dust. 

I tried lifetimes of being “a normal person” and was horribly victimized in those because I attracted it. I carried within me a vibration and judgmental feeling that I had failed God in other lives and so I allowed others to beat me up as subtly, I had been doing to myself.  This lifetime, my angels told me that I argued about coming to earth. I didn’t want to come back to such an angry place and get attacked again, but they convinced me that if I could do so, avoid attacking anything within myself, and stand in my spiritual truth in spite of the varying opinions and unkindnesses… then I would not only help the earth, but achieve my own soul’s liberation as well.

It is easy to love in private, among kind souls. It is big growth to love in public when those who both hold you to impossible standards and those who disagree will attack. Luckily the love far outweighs the hatred and judgment, but the hatred and judgment stings nonetheless.

So there is always vibrational justice in the greater scheme of eternity.   Those who judge people of a certain religion will almost certainly reincarnate within that group in a future life.  Those who put down women or men will surely choose their next life as the ones they judge.  If we beat ourselves up without mercy, we may find ourselves attracting attack. If we feel we must martyr ourselves to be loving souls we will attract those willing to assist. There is always a vibrational match in this life and others.

This is not God’s punishment or cruelty. Reincarnation, and anything that happens to us in fact, does not occur because we get an “eye for an eye” but rather is a result of the soul’s desire to learn about loving those it did not love, and those vibrations within itself it once judged.

The soul seeks, through its many incarnations to find what it already and always has within it.  The Soul seeks “enlightenment” and tries to find “Love” only to find it already and always has been enlightened, and it is sourced and indelibly therefore, connected to love.  We are the ones we’ve been looking for, as the saying goes.  When we reach that space we see only love, feel only love, and feel the incredibly sweet bliss of Divine love no matter what is going on around us, we are free. We listen to our guidance and trust that we are where we need to be to contribute to the good of our own souls and the whole of creation.

I’m not there yet all the time. I have periods of time in this space and it is heaven on earth. It is my unfolding journey… and all souls’ journey… to eventually seek to reunite our awareness with the truth of our being, sourced in Love and the value of our individuality as created and directed, with love, by the Divine.

We are waves seeking an awareness of the ocean, colors seeking an awareness of the light that sources us. We are notes seeking to love all music created within us and by us.

We are nothing less than those we love… and those we judge.

So what do we do with this practically speaking?

Use those who bother or upset you as a mirror. Ask yourself, “What part of their vibration will I not love and allow for within myself?”  If you judge the angry, do you judge yourself less than worthy of love when you are angry? If you judge the bigoted, what part of yourself would you kill off, if only an errant thought?  If you judge a certain person, ask yourself, “If I knew their vibration lived within me,” because it does, “have I judged that” or “am I willing to love it into the light.”  We all have inner Trumps and inner Hillary’s. We have the inner Christ, which is our deepest truth, and the inner Lucifer, that urges us to hate, judge, and buy into illusions of separation.

These lower vibrations are certainly not our deepest truth, but we will never rid ourselves of their influence until we embrace, all that lives within us, with Love in its totality.  Can a screaming parent calm an angry child?  I witnessed this the other day in a store. A child was crying in upset and the parent, obviously tired and frazzled was loudly and angrily telling the child to be quiet. The baby screamed even more.  Another parent in a similar situation picked up their screaming child and had the emotional fortitude and strength of love to hold and hug their child in the midst of a monumental tantrum until the little one’s upset subsided and the baby rested and fell asleep in the arms of love.  We have these screaming children inside of us.

Within each of us, we have the hungry child, the tired child, the angry child, and the child that wants its way and screams when it doesn’t get it. Will we judge these children within? Will we angry at these parts of self, sending them slinking off into the background of our consciousness only to reappear at the next available opportunity, or will we instead, love that part of ourselves we don’t like until at long last it subsides, relaxes into the arms of love, and transforms into a higher state of being?

When you are angry, stop. Breathe. Ask yourself first, ”What is it I want to kill off within myself or another?” Next, ask, “What is it I’d rather see within myself or another.” Then bring those qualities to the surface in you, and in your life. You can’t change anyone else, but you can change a vibration within you, and for each soul willing to do so, our world truly evolves and becomes a better place.  Through a shift in vibration, we create a better, more evolved human race, one soul at a time.

The journey on earth is about you – your enlightenment, your connection the Divine, your willingness to embrace love, or not.  You could change everyone else, feed the poor, stand for political change, and while that is beautiful, good and loving, it is of merit, only if you do it with love.  For in truth, others will incarnate in this endless school called earth to learn from poverty, upheaval, etc., but if you LOVE, and truly allow your actions to come from Love, then the souls you love will know they too are worthy of love… and so will you know this as well. We will find ourselves and our “classmates” here in this life raised up in spirit, not just in body and life situation.

The political climate and state of the world is indeed tumultuous, chaotic, and filled with upset.  We get to choose whether or not we participate in these vibrations. You can be a peace-filled and loving activist or a hateful pacifist. What you do is of no consequence to the soul unless you do it with love.  So try… do your best, to first love yourself in these “uncertain” times and from that place of self-care and self-love you will be better able to contribute your love and light  - if not your “like” – to all souls equally. 

For in truth, no matter how the waves look – weak or strong, angry or peaceful –  they are all part of one Ocean. And we, no matter how we look, are all part of one love.

Love you all. Happy Sunday.