Saturday, March 10, 2018

God's way vs. mine

I used to be terribly impatient. I wanted “what I wanted.” “how I wanted,” “when I wanted!” That state of mind never made me happy. The angels reminded me frequently that it was an affirmation of fear, not faith.

I learned this the hard way after I wrote my first book. I sent out numerous query letters and and got an equal number of rejections. I got upset. That wasn’t what I was creating! I was creating getting my book published! I sent more letters, and received more rejections.

The angels suggested that I write one of the publishers and ask why they rejected me. The answer was enlightening. They said the book looked good but that I didn’t have enough experience in my field to have the large audience they required to ensure a profit. That answer shaped my future.

I sat back and started to re-evaluate what I wanted. Did I really want to be a famous author? Why did I want to get a book published? What was underneath all this? I realized that part of me wanted to “prove” to family and former friends that quitting engineering was a good decision and that I could succeed as an author. I threw that reason away. It was ego-based and would never give me true satisfaction.

I kept digging inside myself, and found a deeper, more authentic desire. I wanted to share the angel wisdom and tools that had made my life happier, better, and more free. I didn’t care if became famous. That was something I’d seen as a means to an end. "How do you reach people? Get famous.” I realized I didn’t really want to spend time promoting a book or doing tours. I just wanted to share information. I knew I could start that right away.

I did readings and taught classes. I envisioned having online education five years before YouTube existed and over a decade before home live streaming was a viable technology. I gave up the “how” and “when” for my future dreams, and focused on a happy now. Doors started opening.

Many of you know the rest. I ended up self-publishing with a company that bore my dog’s nickname! I ended up speaking at conferences with famous authors. I ended up meeting the live-streamers for Braco, who were just starting their “spiritual-netflix-type site online.

They contacted me, gave me the freedom to design my online “Ann & the Angels” series as I wanted, film it on my own schedule, and allowed me to price it lower than anyone else would permit me. Similar online programs cost $300 each. Mine costs $60 per 12 episodes. I wanted to offer high quality information at an extremely affordable rate, and they did too! The "Braco dream team" ended up being a a dream team for me. It wasn't over. Later, Karl – CEO of –  urged me to gaze online, and volunteered to livestream me, propelling me further into a life I could not have imagined.

It was when I finally gave up my fears, doubts, and insistence on having life go “my way” on “my schedule,”that all my dreams started coming true – of course, better than my way and on a perfectly Divine Schedule.

Thank God for the gift of time which allows us to grow, clarify our desires, and attract better than what we'd create on our own.

Here are a few pointers to help you let go of the “my way or the highway” mentality so you can have better than what you want, on a Divine Schedule of course!

1. Clarify your real desires

Make sure you are creating what you really want, deep down, not what you think you "have to have," to get what you really want!

Consider this real life example:

A student of mine (who ended up being an incredible manifester!) wanted money. What she really want was to pay off a 90K student loan debt. She wanted that so she could feel secure, so she could feel free to buy things for the family like a house and vacations, and to stop feeling like a failure for having so much debt.

She started to focus on the debt without shame, seeing it as just another bill. She imagined having the freedom to get a house, go on vacation, etc. She started to enjoy the freedoms she already had, and focused on what already made her feel secure.

Within a year, miracles showed up, doors and pathways opened, and the 90K debt was nearly all paid off. She manifested a house after that, vacations, and more. She focused on what the money would bring her, not the money itself.

If you focus on the "means" to and end, the soul does not get excited. It gets excited about the real goal.

Dig deep. Ask yourself, “Why do I want what I want?” Keep asking until you find the bottom line.

2. Give yourself the feeling now

Beneath everything you want is a feeling. If you didn’t think having something would make you feel better, you wouldn’t want it. If you want money, to buy something, or pay off debt, how will that make you feel? Secure, abundant, expansive, free?

Find the feelings. Then ask, “How can I bring that feeling into my life now, if only in small ways?” 

3. Trust Everything

When you are manifesting, you have to trust that everything that come up is part of your manifestation. If you don’t get what you want, there is something better. If something doesn’t happen when you think it should there is more divine timing. Everything is in divine order.

A client's trial was postponed and he was deeply disappointed. A large company tried to steal the income they contractually promised him. He needed the money and was anticipating the upcoming trial. Later he found out the original judge wasn't favorable. The unwanted delay gave him a judge that ruled in his favor and changed the course of his life.

When I’m manifesting I tell myself often, “Trust Everything!” 

When impatience, doubt, fear, or resignation hit and you start to think your dreams won’t happen, refocus, do the simple steps above and get back on the right wavelength.  Choose to be happy now and you'll be creating an even better later!

Remind yourself, "The best "high" way isn't always my way!"

Saturday, March 03, 2018

Love fear till it disappears

Parts of this story are pretty crazy. Sometimes my adventures in other dimensions are a bit "out there." I try to stick to more normal topics most of the time, but every now and then I share one of these otherworldly adventures in the hopes it helps us all understand this world a bit better. Enjoy...

Years ago I read Don Miguel Ruiz's book, "The Four Agreements." In the book he speaks of "the parasite." I read it, decided it made sense, and forgot about it entirely. It wasn't until a few years ago when a powerful, jealous and angry soul aimed the powers of hell at me, that I came to understand quite clearly that fear is a parasitic energy. As well, it is the food that feeds a parasitic vibration – one that is more literal and real than I ever imagined when I read the book years ago.

Happily, I also came to know the invincible power of love to dissipate fear and free us entirely from the influence of this parasitic vibration –  both within and without.

Some of you have heard this so I'll be brief. A powerful soul got jealous of one of my friendships. Storms hit my house, knocked down my trees and leaked into my roof. I had nails appear in my car tires, huge dust storms in my path. Two of my favorite trails caught on fire the day I'd been planning to hike them. I started to having very nasty and unkind dreams from which I'd awaken because scary looking beings were on me sucking my energy and creating pin-like sensations into my skin.  For all my faith in God, I wavered. I was frightened. I did what I always do when I'm scared. I got strong, held it together, and focused on service. 

By day I was fine. When I was helping others I was fearless. But then at night, when I let fear creep in the relentless energies that feed off it continued to attack me with an unceasing barrage of gripping static and unloving thoughts.

I prayed for help. The angels, bound by their commitment to the creator to honor our free will had to let me choose fear or love. Apparently my words were saying, "Help!" but my fear was saying, "I don't believe you can!" They did all they could. They taught me. The amplified my light. At one point they told me about the abuse the angry one suffered as a child. Suddenly I felt compassion for a soul so hurt that they'd hate me, and I even felt compassion for the parasitic vibration they had aimed at me. How sad to be so disconnected from love.

Now that I wasn't scared, I wanted to understand more. Here's where it gets weird. One night I felt the static-y unpleasant vibration around me and decided to engage in a dialog with the parasite. Imagine me, sitting there with my eyes closed, telepathically having a discussion with a creature that looked more like it belonged in a sci fi movie than in another dimension in my bedroom! Before I began the inner dialogue, I connected with the light within. Suddenly the being in front of me no longer felt "static-y."Instead it felt extremely impersonal.

Me: "Why do you inspire and amplify our fears?
Parasite: "We need energy to live. You humans generate a great deal of excess energy when in fear. We use that to survive."

Suddenly, I got an entire download. These were a race of beings that evolved technologically but lost their connection with their hearts. They lost their emotional connection with one another. They became disconnected from any experience of love. Because they no longer felt love, they no longer felt their connection with the Source of life. They had evolved into a parasitic race. They were neither good not evil as we label it. In fact they were quite neutral. They just wanted to survive.

Me: "Why don't you stir up love? It is a much stronger vibration than fear! Thousands times more so! You'd feel much better!" 
I was surprised by my vehemence in the face of a vibration that had terrorized me for so long. I actually cared.

Parasite: "Do you know how hard it is to stir up love on your planet? Most humans need an object to feel love. Fear is easy to generate. You simply introduce or amplify a thought they already believe in." 
That took my breath away. They weren't being diabolical, evil, snide, or sarcastic in their answer. They were being clinical. They reminded me of sharks who create chaos in a swarm of fish to feed. They, like the sharks, were survivors. I thought to myself, perhaps like those sharks who surrender to being "hugged" by loving divers, these beings someday would remember what love feels like.

Some switch in me flipped. I was no longer simply unafraid. I felt a strong powerful love. Archangel Michael was merging with me and using this opportunity to speak through my mind directly to them. 
"Some day if you have a wish to reconnect with the Source of life you can find a way to do so by amplifying the higher vibrations of humanity, and by selflessly attempting to send higher vibrational energies to those in the lower vibrations. Because you have forgotten how to love, it is only in your selfless intent to serve rather than take, that will you draw forth the energy that you seek from the Source. IF you insist on continuing to stir up and amplify fear, you cannot last. Humanity is evolving and your food source is dwindling. You will pass into oblivion as the masses become aware of you and cease to feed you with their fears. They will nourish instead your higher selves with their love and prayers, and your lower vibrational understanding of self will disappear."

Michael backed out of my body and I stood there quivering with the force of his loving electrical power still running through me. I felt the angels profound wish for all beings to reconnect with love. The parasite simply, wordlessly, and neutrally left. 

While most of you will never have to deal with such crazy otherworldly dimensions, they do mirror what goes on inside of all of us. Just as fear provides an energy source for those disconnected vibrations, Fear gives us a high. It was originally intended to do so – so that the body would have a surge of energy to fight of flight when faced with danger.

It was never meant to become our drug of choice.

Like a drug, we get a temporary high from our fears as the cortisol course through our bloodstream. Like a drug it distracts us from facing our feelings of being disconnected or powerless. Like a drug it brings us up and then makes us crash. Like a drug, fear subtly undermines our well being.

Happily the addiction to false fear is one we can overcome with something easily accessible to all... Love. 

Here are some pointers this week to help you "Love your fears till they disappear."

1. When you are afraid, identify and love the fearful part within.
Ask yourself, "Who inside of me is afraid?" You might see, sense, or intuitively know what part of your soul is living in fear. This may be you at a younger age, an aspect of your soul from another life, or you may even perceive a symbolic representation of the fearful part of you.

For example if you see your mother, that doesn't mean your mother is causing your fear. It means that some part of you adopted your mother's fears. If this happens, ask again, "Who inside of me is afraid?" until you see, sense, or know the part of you that believed in these fears.

You might see, sense, or intuit something else - a dog, an ice cube, you name it. We've seen everything in my office. Trust what you perceive.

You are connecting with an energetic part of you - a piece of your soul that, like a scared child, needs love.
2. Love and comfort the fearful part of yourself

Imagine what this part of you looks like. Trust what comes. Or if you are not visual, imagine your eyes are closed but they're standing in front of you. Ask this part of your soul why it is afraid and what it needs.

Imagine giving him or her a hug. Wrap your arms around yourself if you like. Ask this beautiful piece of your soul if they'd be willing to go into the light where they never have to feel fear again. Tell them you and the angels will handle your life and they can rest.
Here is where you get creative. If a child says, I'm afraid if I speak up I won't be loved, you might ask that part if it wants to go into the light where everyone will love what they have to say. Imagine you are their parent. Tell them you want to hear what they have to say but they have to go into the light where they'll be safe. Imagine them going into the light with the angels.

Let's do another example: Suppose you lost a job and you're afraid you won't find a new one. While this might seem very human, you want to get rid of the fear. Your soul knows intuitively that the Divine will guide you to a better job, but something inside you is still scared. You go within and ask, "Who is afraid I won't get a new job? Who is afraid everything I love will be taken away, and I'll be broke, poor, and alone?" Perhaps you'll see a young child who had to move and lost all their friends. Perhaps you'll see a past life where you were homeless. Maybe you'll see an image of your father who always worried about money and represents the part of you that does the same."

Comfort that part of you. Imagine you are their parent. Tell them it will be OK, that God is in charge, that you don't know how things will work out but that you're loved beyond what you can imagine and that angels are helping you. Ask that part if they are willing to go into the light where they'll have everything they want and need and never have to worry about money again. Guide them into the light in your imagination.

If you treat the scared parts inside of you with the love you'd show a scared child, they will calm down, dissolve into light and integrate into your higher awareness. 

Sometimes you need to lighten up before you can do this exercise

Go onto YouTube and search for "laughing babies," "laughter yoga," or your favorite comedian. Watch a funny movie. Play an upbeat song that you love to dance to. When the brain becomes distracted, fear loosens its grip. It is much easier to love the fears away after we've used a little loving distraction.

You can even use your own sense of humor, if you can connect with it. When I feel afraid, sometimes I joke, "I'm going nuclear! I imagine the light of my love exploding outward from my heart chakra burning away all darkness its path."

Laughter is a very high vibration and quickly helps to dissolve fear. I've seen the angels use it many times in readings before working with the deeper parts of self.

3. If you need additional help seek it out – You deserve it.

I once had such irrational fears come up that I couldn't find the source myself. Instead, I got a past life regression hypnosis with Robin Miller (the amazing musician who plays at my seminars is also a certified hypnotherapist!). In two hours the fears were simply gone and never returned. 

There are all sorts of healing modalities out there designed to help reprogram the brain and therefore release the trauma that feed the fears.  Search to find one that resonates with you.

While it seems all too easy to get sucked into fear, the truth is your love is more powerful. By loving the fearful parts inside of us we heal them.

Free from fear, we once again enjoy guidance and miracles by aiming our powerful loving thoughts towards the joyous realities that we wish to create.

Saturday, February 24, 2018

Bringing them 'home'

I think most of us had the same reaction to the shootings on Valentine's Day... Sadness for what the children went through. Sadness for the families who lost their little ones. Profound sadness, when we looked into the eyes of the young man who held the gun. My soul cried in anguish most of all for that one. He was completely lost.

The angels said the strangest thing to me after that. They told me to go look at a picture of Hitler. He too had the same vacant, scared, angry look. It chilled me. I suddenly started hearing more. The kid who did the shooting, was a young German soldier in a past life during the holocaust. He joined the army because that's what young men did at the time. The atrocities he was required to commit sickened him to the point where he started to think of himself as a monster. He became calloused because it hurt too much to feel, and he died a lost, angry soul.

The angels say, even in that terrifying life he had choice. He could have run away, and risked his own death, but at least he would have had the integrity to find the light. He could have even found peace by silently praying for those he was force to kill. Instead he closed his heart, and dimmed the spark of love so deeply he forgot he had any love inside of him at all.

He didn't believe in a God. He didn't believe in love. He didn't feel worthy of the light and he didn't go into it. He was lost in the "in between." These souls remain lost until the prayers of the compassionate uplift them. They can be reborn but that is a sad proposition because they carry their mental anguish with them right into the next life. Angels attempt to get their attention but they don't believe themselves worthy of love and so they don't see it.

Such was the case with this young man. He came back as a very conflicted soul, feeling a mix of old prejudices, anger at life's "unfairness," and self-loathing. The conflict ripped him apart. Tragically, in his soul's state of wounded torment, he took out his pain and anger on the innocent. He needs our prayers. The lost ones, both living and dead, need our prayers.

I have helped many of these lost souls into the light. Perhaps the most striking incident was yeas ago. I was meditating on the patio at lunchtime. The past few days I’d been bothered by a fearful energy that I had not managed to release. I finally figured out it was a lost soul clinging to me. I tried everything – sending love, sending it into the light, calling Jesus, Michael, etc… Finally I just surrendered and asked God to help.

As I was meditating, rather than pushing the fearful soul away, I simply said, “OK, whoever you are sit at the table with me and let me know how I can help you. Welcome.” A sudden vivid vision of a hooded, cloaked young man, a terrorist who had died, appeared. He was terrified. "I thought I did the right thing. My mother will be so ashamed of me. I don't know where to go. I don't know what to do." I could feel his panic. “I’ll help you personally and take you into the light. Your mother loves you. She will be relieved to know you are with God.” I brought him to the light and surrendered him to the angels who lovingly took him into the healing love of the Divine. Immediately I felt relief in my body and warmth.

Suddenly I heard a voice and saw the vision of this young man again, this time in the light. “Do you know who I am?” a voice that didn’t sound as if it was his gently asked. “No,” I replied. He took the black wrap off his head and Jesus was there looking at me with piercing beautiful eyes and at the same time a loud but kind voice boomed in my head, “Whatsoever you do unto the least of my brothers, you do unto ME.” I started bawling.

I know I helped a different soul into the light. Jesus was making the point, that we are all one, all souls are pure at heart, no matter how deep the misunderstandings. Rather than fearing one another, we should help one another, pray for one another, and ask God to take all hurting souls into the light. Of course, we must take care of ourselves. Had this one been alive, I would have sent love and run!

So today more than ever, let us pray for those who are most separate from the truth of their being. For the politicians who feel that power makes them God. For the terrorists who feel that weapons make them God. For the lost and lonely who don’t believe there is a God and take out their rage on the innocent.

Let us all pray that all sous, ourselves included be lifted up into the light of love and truth - that we can never be separate from the Source of our being, that we can never, no matter how heinous the actions, be anything less at our core essence, than who the creator made us to be.

Here are some tips to deal with the violence and pain we witness in the world...

1. Allow yourself your feelings

Never ever, stuff your feelings. Don't take them out on another. Write letters to God or your angels sharing your heart. Write letters to the souls of those you are upset with, in private. Shred them. Don't pass on the poison. Find a constructive way to work out the upset or pain within yourself first. Then you can speak from a powerfully loving place if you are guided to say anything at all.

2. Do what you are called to do

Many are speaking up after the shootings, as they are guided. You may be guided to send money after a disaster, to physically assist, to help change legislation, or perhaps to work interally to change the vibrations that cause violence, starting within yourself. Only you know your own guidance. Trust the urges that rise up lovingly, with passion, within you.

3. Pray for the upliftment of all who are lost in anger and pain

The ones we are most inclined to think unworthy of love are the ones who need our prayers the most. You will feel your heart and your soul more clearly than ever before when praying sincerely for those hurting souls lost in darkness. I have never known myself so clearly as when I've prayed sincerely for those who hurt and hate me. It is in our great light and love that we feel the deepest truth of our being.

You can love the light within a soul, without ever liking their personality or behavior.

The world is a one room school house. We must seek out the best of human nature, but sometimes we can't help witnessing the worst.
We can however, instead of dancing with darkness and dignifying it by falling into it ourselves, be a powerful force of love and truth. We can be the ones who lift the lost into the light.

Saturday, February 17, 2018

Direct it, expect it

I hear this all the time in my office. "I DO focus on what I want! I have for years! Why isn't it here? Where are my angels?" The angels patiently smile and remind the person that, hand in hand with focusing on what they do want, they have also been focused on it "not being there."

This is a finer point to manifesting that even trips me up at times!  
The trick to creating is to have two worlds going on at once. One is the world you live in every day - the so-called "real" world. Fill yourself up with gratitude for everything you have now. Pour love into every aspect of your current life. Bless the Mess and trust the rest!

Then there is the life of creation. You are living your "real" life now but in your mind you are also in parallel, living your future. You already feel the way you feel when it arrives. You kmow it is going to happen. You have a joyous sense of anticipation. Like a child at Christmas anticipating their presents, you know your creation will come even if you have no clue how or when.

A few weeks ago I decided I wanted to replace a few drinking glasses that had broken. They were inexpensive when I got them, but to my dismay they were no longer being produced. I went on ebay and found a set for $80. That wasn't what I wanted to pay.

So as the angels say, I "grabbed the remote!" I decided I wanted to get them at a thrift store. I imagined the joyous feeling of finding them on sale. I got all happy as if it was a "done deal" in the future. This didn't happen because I can predict the future (which I see often as the most probable path) but rather because I knew I was creating. 

I woke up the next morning with a certain thrift store in my head, went on faith, and picked up my glasses! There were exactly four and they were $1.29 each!! The funny part is that I found only two originally, but I was so convinced the rest would be there that I kept circling around different sections and shelves until I found the rest!

On a more serious note I've been in physical pain on and off for a few months. I hiked 20 miles last fall after sitting all summer and sprained a foot. I had a broken toe on the other one over the holidays (all healed!). I have had pinched nerves in my neck after painting my bathrooms three times each in December. I was healing all of these, but slowly. Sometimes, when I focused on other things, I had no pain. When I focused on the problem, of course I felt the problem. The angels continuously reminded me that my focus was the problem that was slowing the healing.

So at the event I advertised last week, THEO (a group of angels that speaks through channel, Sheila Gillette) came through and suggested we all just make a decision right then and there about what we wanted. By the way, I LOVED THEO!!! Their energy is fantastic, honest, accurate and deeply compassionate. Many people I know received love and healing energy. They are having an online mentoring program beginning 2/20 that promises to be life altering, which you can check out here.

Back to my story. I made a decision at that moment that I would walk out of that room pain free - no sprain, no pinched neck, nothing. That was that. I was done focusing on the pain and holding it in my body. I used every ounce of willpower to imagine feeling great. Of course, within minutes, the energy of God that is already and always there, flooded me and the pain was gone. And to make it even better THEO talked to me about my sensitivity and repeated a few things my own angels have been telling me! It was BLISS.

The pain tried to sneak in a few days later and that is where faith and focus come in. I told it quite firmly but kindly. "I'm done. I've decided to feel good now." I "grabbed the remote" and focused on feeling good. In an instant the heat and love of God flowed through me and no more pain.

I think a lot of us feel like we're having a tug of war with the "remote" in our heads at times, but hopefully your conscious self is winning!

Here are some pointers this week to "grab the remote" and choose the life you want to live!

1. Direct it
Remind yourself, life does not work the way most of us were taught.

We don't need effort and struggle to have results. Healing doesn't have to take forever. Abundance is not directly proportional to hours worked. You can't save or fix or change another unless they want it. You don't have to earn love.

Instead the universe responds to vibration. Remind yourself, "My life can start to change now, because I can change my energy now." Begin to do this by asking yourself, "How would it feel to have what I want, right here, right now."

Grab the remote and direct the energy with your focus, feeling, and faith.

2. Expect it

Now that you know how the universe works, know that the minute you focus on a loving feeling, the universe starts to match that energy. Now is the time for faith.

Expect that what you want to appear (or better) will come. Anticipate it. Trust it. Live your life relaxing into the knowing that you have "grabbed the remote" and the universe will deliver.

Don't keep checking in. "Is it here? Did the universe hear me? Does God care?"

The question is, "Did you hear you? Do you care enough to maintain the feeling with faith? Are you willing to focus on what you want more than what you don't?" Your energy is what matters. Anticipate joyfully. You are in charge. God gave us the incredible gift of free will to direct the creative forces of the universe through our faith, focus, and feeling.

You'll know you're manifesting when you don't have to wonder if what you want is coming.
 You'll live your life in joyful anticipation, relaxing into the "now "because you know what you're creating in the future.

3. Allow for it

Manifesting makes us grow. We must throw away our notions of a capricious, external God that "grants wishes if we're worthy" and realize that we are simply interacting with the Love that lives inside of all creation.
In doing so we bump up against all those parts inside of ourselves that still hold onto notions of unworthiness, anger, abandonment, forgiveness, you name it.

If you feel blocked, get in touch with the "inner committee" as my angels like to call it. Shut your eyes and ask, "Who inside of me doesn't feel they deserve this creation?" Wait till you see, feel, or imagine something - a part of yourself. Then say to that part. "I love you. I'm creating this. Would you like to enjoy it with me? If not I have to ask you to allow me to enjoy it." You get the idea.

Find those pieces of your soul that don't believe or resist love. This is the healing we came for. Manifesting is a fun way to trigger it! 

Have fun this week "Grabbing the Remote!" After all, none of us really want others or the world to choose the reality we get to experience... unless of course, they're choosing something really great!

Love you all!